Saturday, 5 September 2009

Today was a day spent entirely in procrastination. Aside from reading manga and looking for ways to waste my time, I did little else. I think the right words for it would be "willful procrastination". Me rebelling against myself. ...Ah well. Will see how tomorrow goes.

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Nothing diminishes anxiety faster than action - Walter Anderson

 Hoping to find hope in chaos.

Showing up, paid $600 for small scrape near front fender, clean rental property a bit, ck, hm, (done)

Feling extreme negativey about self. Watched Patch Adams for first time yesterday, I felt like him, even though I am intelligent, everything I do seems to be stupid and wierd. His sign was a butterfly at the end of the movie. My sign is the step workbook.that Jo shared, I have been trying to fi nd a way to do updated 4th step and here it is.Al Kohallek Goes On A Serendipity Journey - http://www.12stepworkbook.org/

I am up to step 4 now, have not picked up any addictions, have not shut down, and am on my knees. Don't know if I am making sense,but I do know that is where I need to be. I have prayed, God,anything but don't let me pick  up, get fat or have finalncial problems. Well here I am, the workbook says:

Doing what’s suggested in these Workbooks and/or Workshop Papers may cause you to let go of some parts of your personal “reality.” You may stop being a user and become an owner of your own stuff. You may find yourself giving up some of your old resentments, pains and fears. You could even find yourself with a new understanding and/or awakening. Maybe you will find your Self

I am trying to check in over the weeekends to see if that helps me be more productive. I want to:

Walk dog
Declutter
Work on photos
Do laundry (in process)
Get dishes washed (in process) and put away
Organize after de-cluttering

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Hi Pro Buddies!

This morning I went on my bicycle ride. After that I bought provisions, put gas in my car, and went to the library. Arriving at home, I put away the refrigerated groceries, then took some time for meditation. I've just eaten lunch, & filled up a bag of trash to go to the dumpster.

I have just over an hour before going out to interview someone. I'm going to try to do a couple of things around here, and change clothes so I can do some errands after the interview. I hope to update my CI later.

5:25pm. I went to give the interview. The person organizing the interview didn't show up. ((sigh)). I got an email from them later. While it wasn't a big deal, I had organized my day around it. ((sigh))

While I was out, I did several errands, with better-than-expected results. For the reason prompting these errands, I still have a ways-to-go with it. However, I am trying to cooperate with HP re turning lemons into lemonade. Thank you, HP.

Back at home, I rested; which was partly needed & partly low-functioning. It's still a priority for me to be Good to myself this day/week/month. I got up & have put something in the oven to cook. Next: puttering around is a good goal for this evening. I might update my CI later; I'm not sure.

7:50pm. I cooked 2 things this afternoon/evening. One has been put in a storage container in the refrigerator, and one I still need to box up during the next 30 minutes. I need to keep puttering about.

9:05pm. I put the cooked item(s) into the fridge. I ran the dishwasher. I did 2 budgeting projects that I like, so that made me really happy :) Next: I need to do a meditation exercise before getting ready to sleep.

Have a great day, everyone! :)

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