Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.

Friday, September 4, 2009

4 September, 2009 - 8:35am - journey

 

 "Patience and perseverance have a magical effect before which difficulties disappear and obstacles vanish." John Quincy Adams

 

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Hi Vic

hope4meandu - 6 Sep 2009 - 10:40am

Also, sending prayers of love to you.

♥"Kindness and truth have met, righteousness and peace have kissed." Psalm 85♥

Thank you Hope

vic - 6 Sep 2009 - 11:11am

Thanks Hope,

I was just reading the article Procrastination is no Laughing Matter. "Addiction and compulsion are about escaping the present moment - not being present in your life, not experiencing the reality of your life." Just being here is so vital - it is the only place I can go 24/7 without escaping reality, I don't have to call anyone, I remain anonymous, I don't have to feel embarressed,  my reality Paradigms and self image Paradigms have some sense of hope.Really, why would anybody spend time and energy chronically sabatoging  obligations , opportunities, relationships, etc.??????? For me, I know no other way, but there is hope here, the same hope one  alocoholic to another. Thank you for being here.

Thanks Vic for your share

hope4meandu - 6 Sep 2009 - 12:57pm

I relate to how you feel about this site. Anonymity is crucial for me too. Sabotaging, yes, my job..my self-esteem, etc.

This illness baffles me, because I used to be so organized, so into "to do" lists and now I'm the other extreme.

Vic, you inspire me with your willingness and courage to keep showing up and it gives me strength to show up too. It is very hard for me to show up in my life, and I sense it's the same with you, but you keep doing it.

Together we can do what we could not do alone...recover.

With loving prayers,
hope4meandu

♥"Kindness and truth have met, righteousness and peace have kissed." Psalm 85♥

Thanks Hope

vic - 6 Sep 2009 - 1:56pm

Yes, this one baffles me to. When I was a teen, I would do my research notebooks during x-mas vaction. etc., I started losing the consistent "showing up and doing what needed to be done" about the same time I started using food- 11-12th grade, then bulimea, etc., then college and all or nothing living. I guess the disease does progress, now going backward, it is hard. But I do want to recover, if there is recovery, I want it. They say bring the body and the mind will follow, so I am bringing the body and hoping I have enough of a mind left to follow. My HP has got me this far I didn't even realize this was an addiction, but now I could see it, part of me still want to think I am just making an excuse, but that is how I felt about all my addicitions.Take care, Vic

Vic 9/4

vic - 4 Sep 2009 - 7:25pm

Showing up hard to be grateful today, scratched parked car- will cost us $600. Right when were leaving, when,moved the truck and nothing happened to ours.Gratitude: 1. could have been worse2. ran up to get  ,our wt lifter mechanic helped , he drove me back down and handled angry people4. nothing happened to our truck5.My husband there and he did not got mad at me6. Settle it without police, etc. thank God because my license is renewed but haven't gotten photo yet, from June 8. finished with on line 101 course. 8. My step wprkbook up to step 4 update, finally.9. Feel/ know car scratch was an answer from my HP about question10. My HPm program,PA

I want to shut down. I was helping husband all day when this happened, not procratinating. I feel like such a loser and just want to give up, shut down, deal with my mistakes later. But I think not avoiding all my feeling, as painful as they are, and not shutting down, I will have progress.Wish I could hide in a book for the rest of my life.

hugs, vic!

recycler - 4 Sep 2009 - 7:44pm

(((hugs)))

saying a prayer for you, vic

Recycler


Recycler

Thank you, gals & guys, for being here! :)

Thank you

vic - 5 Sep 2009 - 2:21pm

Thank you so much.

Recycler CI 4:25pm EST

recycler - 4 Sep 2009 - 7:47pm

Hi Pro Buddies!

I'm trying to take a quick break to do my CI before the end of the work day, since I will be going out this evening.

This morning I walked to the gym, and did my stretching & ab exercises. At work in the morning, I typed some letters & did some other projects. At lunchtime, I ate food I had brought to work, then went in a quiet room to reflect. In the afternoon, I replied to emails & did some things for my boss. Before the end of the day I want to review a form for a group, then preview another form for another group.

After work, I will walk home, then go out to a social activity tonight.

8:50pm. Back from social group. It was ok. To be honest, I really needed A Meeting rather than the social group, but it was something that was already planned. I'm trying to think of how I can work in a meeting tomorrow, but I'm not sure it will fit in between other events.

Have a great weekend, everyone! :)

Recycler


Recycler

Thank you, gals & guys, for being here! :)

check-in (1:30 PM)

hope4meandu - 4 Sep 2009 - 1:12pm

Hi Everyone!! and Hello to all the newcomers!!

My mind is churning with all the things I want to pile on to my long weekend. I will resist this urge and say that I will do what I do and not set myself up for failure. I'm in and out of a depression, but am not acting out, thankfully, on a core addiction. The thing I will commit to is showing up here every day & trying!!

I've had a long, long time need to fit in everywhere and with everybody. I'm kind of getting the idea, gratefully, that it might even be good to be different, maybe there is a purpose for me in there?

I also don't like the environment I work in (I'm sure I'm not alone on that one). Today, I've just been saying in my head, bless everyone, and hope they all leave me alone.

I'm thankful to be here with you all and to be witnessing your changes and my own.

May the force be with you!!!

♥"Kindness and truth have met, righteousness and peace have kissed." Psalm 85♥

rec check-in 11:58 AM

rec - 4 Sep 2009 - 12:01pm

Well, I procrastinated on getting in to office again and feel bad about it! I need to put it behind me and make hay while the sun shines! I plan to:

Check Master TO DO list to see if I need to re-prioritize work
Wrap up T file to be ready for Tues. meeting
Work on R file; call TB
Work on W file; call or e-mail clients re docs
Billing

rec

Pential energy 12:35

potential energy - 4 Sep 2009 - 11:37am

Today I need to complete:

A figure out how to remove my checkin that I put in the wrong place on this site.

1. Email schedules and build up list 1hr.

2. Do something to Outlook to make it easier for me to use-maybe just look at it for once .5

3. email z.'s school to det. sched. few min

4. email to Q off fri.few min

5. org some materials for Tues. maybe start by finding something to put them in.

6. Sched. pt ***must do this

7.  do 2 more reports today.  At least do one most over due, then start other

8. consider doing something leisure at least for 10 minutes-anything-try to do something-not sleep or work related

@Potential Energy

journey - 4 Sep 2009 - 11:46am

Only Pro can remove posts, but you can go back and edit it and delete the content, and just make the subject "oops" or something.  We've all done that, not to worry.

"True terror is to wake up one morning and discover that your high school class is running the country."  - Kurt Vonnegut 

Thanks!

potential energy - 4 Sep 2009 - 4:32pm

Smile 

GeorgeSmiley 10:50 AM 9/4/09

GeorgeSmiley - 4 Sep 2009 - 10:49am

 Good morning all.

 

Top priority:

Project Q-V

Project B-A

Project P-11

Get started on Project M-9

Declutter.

 

~~

Want what you have. Be who you are. Do what you can. ~Forrest Church

The Hero's Code:

Show Up. Pay Attention. Speak the Truth. Let Go of the Outcome.

Agnus 11:10 am, 2pm

Agnus - 4 Sep 2009 - 2:52pm

Hi everybody.  Hope you are well on your way to a procras-free Friday.  Journey, I LOVE the thread-starter - made me smile, and then laugh watching the little eyes jump in synch.  You're a hoot, lady! I needed the laugh - been a tough morning as I'm reading a book on one of J's diagnoses and it's scaring me half to death.

My recent Step 11 readings have addressed: chronic indecision as a form of insanity, keeping things in the "now," and practicing calmness. So today I am making conscious choises, minute by minute, to believe I am in the care of a loving Higher Power who can and will give me the inspiration, intuition and good decisions I need to move through the day, silently praying many times, "Thy will, not mine, be done."

  • Look up the Rx in question
  • Research hepatologists within an hour's drive
  • Schedule J's post-surg follow-up next week
  • schedule my chiro, massage, hair, pedi (all now overdue 2-3 weeks!)
  • schedule annlmt project on calendar
  • Timecard, expenses and monthly report to boss
  • Weekly report to client
  • Create a SIMPLE work plan for job-related stuff that results in my inbox being CLEARED! (that will feel SO good!)
  • Check the wx report and decide whether to try out the camper this weekend
  • 1 hour on Sterling homework

 

Edge's CI - 5:25pm

Edge - 4 Sep 2009 - 9:25am

I keep telling myself that if I was living alone things would be simpler because everyone else's plans wouldn't get in the way of my own... But I think that's just me making excuses for myself.

So instead of daydreaming about getting a place of my own, it's time I start putting my life in order and stop living 'reactively', if that's even a correct term.

So for now:

x dishes
- 4pm meds
- hmed
- bh:a
- room
- laundry
- work: finish 2 arts

~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Nothing diminishes anxiety faster than action - Walter Anderson

Edge's CI - 6:00pm

Edge - 4 Sep 2009 - 10:00am

x dishes
x 4pm meds
x hmed
- bh:a
x room
x laundry
- work: finish 2 arts
x strength training

~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Nothing diminishes anxiety faster than action - Walter Anderson

Way to produce, Edge!

Agnus - 4 Sep 2009 - 10:04am

You're on a roll - inspiring!Laughing

@ Agnus

Edge - 4 Sep 2009 - 12:33pm

Thanks, Agnus! *huggles*

~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Nothing diminishes anxiety faster than action - Walter Anderson

kromer 9:55 CI

kromer - 4 Sep 2009 - 3:24pm

Good morning, all!

Today I need to:
MITs:
1)Get lit. on oscillators
2)Finish Greg's project! (didn't leave long enough for this, will have to do over the weekend)
3)Make expt. timetable
4)Talk to EA re: stra8 mutant
5)Emails: Harambee, small group, youth group

Other tasks:
1)Finish pathways project
2)tamoxifen, triaziquone CAC protocols (working on this now)
3)Script to choose +/- samples
4)Work on training compendium

Scheduled, I have youth group 5:00-8:15, and for fun I have dinner/party w/ friends 8:15-

To the chatbox to work on oscillators lit. search

Update 1:45:
I've made good progress on expt. plan/timeline. Here are action steps that I need to take:
->Talk to MG about getting mice
->Figure out whether retinol/RA are sterile or whether I need to sterilize them
->Ask about learning to section/stain.

ci 9.4.09 Babarino

Babarino - 4 Sep 2009 - 8:43am

Good Morning!

;

Working from home today. Going to work on projects 2 and 3. May or may not be able to get them done.

Journey 9:30

journey - 4 Sep 2009 - 8:41am

Good morning!  I had a bad night and I'm sleepy this morning . . . my daughter called at 1 am.  She is fine but was freaked out about a robbery/shooting that took place down the street from where she works.  The police came to her store asking questions and it was all very scary.  They did find the guy and he is in jail thank goodness.

Anyway, naturally I couldn't go back to sleep, so today will be a tough one but then I'm on vacation for a week! 

Had a 9 am meeting so that forced me to get started right away this morning.  I should have a 9 am meeting every day.  NOT! 

I'll check back when my todo list is done.  Have a great day!

Jo

"True terror is to wake up one morning and discover that your high school class is running the country."  - Kurt Vonnegut