Thursday, July 16, 2009

Hi Pro Buddies!

This morning at the gym I did my full cardio, stretching, and ab exercises.

Trying to help someone at work, but they were giving conflicting information; to clear that up, waiting for a response (hopefully tomorrow). At lunchtime after eating, I bought gifts, then worked on my budget again. By the end of the day, project list was still looking pretty good.

After arriving at home, I have fixed & eaten dinner. I'm washing some clothes. I have picked out dolls for girls at family reunion. I heed to find 2 other dolls, but not sure I feel industrious enough tonight to move everything in the walk-in closet Twice. I'm thinking about it ;)

Really I can putter around the rest of the evening. That may be enough for tonight. If I get anything else accomplished, I will update my CI.

6:40pm. I've decided on 2 substitute dolls, to make things easier for myself ;) I still have to put some things back in the storage closet, but I'm going to goof off a little bit first ;)

7:30pm. One box didn't make it back into the closet, but I've gotten the other ones put back in there. Good enough.

Have a great night, everyone! :)

Recycler

Recycler

Thank you, gals & guys, for being here! :)

I feel I lost 50 pounds when I woke up today because of getting through yesterday.A true miracle of the program and once again "together we can do wht we could not do alone" I have been keeping a procrastination log as an experiment to ovserve my patterns. I would say my biggest problem is FOCUS. Not having a job right now- I have no STRUCTURE. I am not completing the tasks I thought I would- having more time, so it is not the time, it is me.                                                                      My sister told me to make a priority list and do that first. I don't know how to do that- everything is a priority, just not being "past due" is good- which reminds me I have a store bill due tommorrow.                                                                                   So I am going to do what the Big Book says, pray for God to show me "the next right thing". I think the next right thing now is my walk. I did not go yesterday and it makes  difference.      Ifeel soooooooooooo angry right now- it is 20 before 8 and I have not done the letters now it is late and Iam so sick of myself. I did walk, did wash, kitchen and kitchen floor, went for a dip in friend's pool with my son, baked cake, cleaned toilet- but still no letters.I have looked for the return envelope of one letter and don't know where it is and I looked for an hr, then with the other letter it has to go certified mail, so I cannot send it today. I feel like everything is a struggle. I am so sick of it.

ok, with that being said, i will fill out the forms for the one letter.   8:20- done- I eill give myself until tommorrow to find my envelope- I know I pput it "somewhere safe" which as usual, is somewhere never to be found- I put a blank envelope with the papers and stamp in case I do not find it. I almost got off track 100 times. being here is the only reason I stayed focused at all.just feel so angry.

Letter # 2- it is 8:25. I need to find it in my computer and 1 print it 2. have envelope ready 3 send it certified mail tommorrow- I am so angry- I have put this off for months- I must have started this 100 times and spent I don't know how much time on it. that having been said- I will start- ok done it is 9:10. I could not find original paperwork and almost had a meltdown, but I found it., typed, printed and have envelope ready. I foled around with the pronter to print on the envelope but then stopped.

I guess 11/2 hr is not too bad for everything to have them ready to send. I have one more item- I ordered a cell phone on line and it was not what I thought, so now I have to send it back. I want to contact phone people one more time before I return it but not tonight.

Some of the anger is about my mess, mostly about me, I can't stand it. Then after applying for a job all day a few days ago, someone called and my husband answered and of course lost the call. It just made me furious- it was something I really wanted, it was one more reason to be mad- I can't even get a phone call because everything is so messed up. Some anger at my son, I sort of hung out because he needed a ride to a local fair- then he did not go- I could have gone to a meeting, but then the letter would not have gotten done. I "should" be grateful- I also got poison after picking weeds a few days ago, so that is not helping me feel too good.

Once I get out all the garbage feelings, I can let good ones in. So Now I feel grateful. I have to do it like this, but in time it will get better, like the food, alcohol, cig., etc.Thank gooodness there is someplace that works. Need to get some rest, Vic

must do:

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reflection on visit

other ecollege work

contact re moving stuff

nice to do:

more boxes

mow lawn