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Tuesday, July 14, 2009

fudos_shin: 26 days and Magical Thinking (7:14pm)

No advice, please.  Thank you.  Prayers welcome.


Sites I've been avoiding for 26 days:

  • social networking sites, including facebook, twitter, youtube
  • dating sites
  • chatting sites: woome, chat with a stranger, etc.  I cannot be on a
    chatting site.  MMORPGs count as "chat sites".  IRC.  The only
    exception is 12 step-related chat.
  • chat programs
  • YouTube, Google videos, Crackle
  •, and calling anyone's associated fan line


I will have thirty days if I hold out until Saturday.  At that time I get my one-month CHIP.  If I hold out until then. I literally have gone to websites, where there hasbeen a youtube video streaming, and have had to hit the pause button.  And I don't know if I still count as following the rules, since I have seen a HULU video here and there,but it's not on the list of things.  I just needed to avoid *these* things though.  There was something about stalking Shane Dawson, the comedian that was not good for me.  But I can find other people to stalk as part of my love and procrastination addiction.  I feel like sometimes my love addiction is really co-component with my procrastination.  My feeling of being unlovable has at times made me want to kill myself; my procrastination has aided my love addiction.  My love addiction has aided my procrastination.  I am a serious addict.  I am tarnished.  I will never look good to society, if they knew all the skeletons in my closet, so to speak-- if they knew-  I am convinced that no school, that no company that NO ONE would desire me.  I don't know how to deal with the past.  I don't know how to deal with mistakes.  I don't know how to deal with guilt or the fact that I've done things that I don't feel good about.  I know that's the ninth step-- amends. 

Recycler CI 4:20pm EST

Hi Pro Buddies!

This morning at the gym I did my full cardio, stretching, and ab exercises. The cute guy talked to me today! :)

At work, I kept pecking at my assignment list. At lunchtime I did an errand. Arriving back, a time-consuming "urgent" project was presented; which was ok, I just kept working at it. After it was completed, I worked on other regular projects the rest of the day, until another urgent project came along. I've done as much on it as I can for the day. I've updated my project list and it's looking better than I expected for tomorrow. Whew!

After work, I will stop in at the condo, before heading to my volunteer meetings. I'll probably arrive home too late to update my CI, so, talk to you tomorrow! :)

Have a great night! :)



Thank you, gals & guys, for being here! :)

Hope-Faith CI 1:00pm

  1. Well today will have to be a very detailed CI and update process as I have fallen off the wagon and new need to get back on. (vacation and garden has taken control of my routines)

AM Routine has to be first. This is very hard for me to do to day. 1) because I am starting it as 1:00 and 2) I have so many other things that I feel I should be doing and they are all just swarming in my head and overwheleming me. So this routine is my focus.

Task  M  T  F  S  Task  M  S
coffee    x           Me up & ready    x          
194.4/Water    x           Kids up & ready    x          
Cal./Control J    x                          
CheckIn                x           Breakfast/Lunch    x          
Update Post    x           Leave    -          
Reboot    x            Academic Plans    T          
Feed Animals    x            FLY              
E-mail    x          
Blog    x           Bed              
Check financial    x           Dinner              
Unload    x           15 Min D/C              
Books    *                          


Swish & Swipe              


1:15 rountine is in progress while I am making progress I am also facing internal resistance. Onward and Upward by taking action.

5:30 routine not completely done by had to stop and go to bank and really needed to start processing my black eye peas so that is where I am at not. Will continue with routine and finish before I go to bed.

6:25 Black Eyed Peas done now to start getting supper ready and declutter for 15 min

 Once I complete my am routine I will need

  1. Clean out van from yesterday's trip
  2. Wash another load of clothes
  3. Wash, blanch and put up black eyed peas Done 7 1/2 quarts worth
  4. Pick garden
  5. Bank

I will post what will be next once all of these items are done.


List of things to do on my mind. I will list them here so that I can stop thinking about them and can move forward. Will have to working on a plan for completing them once I am back in motion.

  1. Thank yous and books
  2. Diploma
  3. Sign up for class
  4. Pay bills





1. gym

2. study Trding

3. online job search


Agnus 11:45am, 7:45pm

Wow, I am impressed with everyone's productivity today - you're inspiring!  I am getting a late start but for good cause, been helping a friend with some crisis management.  Now on to the day:

  • work 1 hour on financials actually, all day
  • call DVD repro for timetable
  • complete the Exel for AP contax
  • check Inbox for MITs and MUTs
  • write and file monthly report
  • make 2 new ap calls
  • make 2 old ap calls
  • write and file weekly update
  • thank-you's and follow-up notes to everyone I met last week
  • book studio time for fiscal
  • clear budget (Kim promise)
  • print and mail expense report
  • re-book missed appts from last week (gyn, chiro, LMT, haircut)
7:45 checking out for the day, not productive for my employer but good progress on financial backlog, health care, and helping others. I was kind and courteous to all, and only 3 minutes late for my massage therapy appointment. God, thank you for this progress, and please help me do better tomorrow for my employer.

just_me checking in 16:45 and out 1:18



Send letter to M. and E.

Pick up apartment

Paint wall

Send Mail to F.

Smile finally!

Rosemary wreath

Print out train tickets --> Thursday



Sew zipper

Thank you for letting me share!

kromer 10:20 CI

Late this morning...gave blood (which was very slow), had prayer time, checked email, read a paper, now I'm ready to settle down and seriously work.

Today's work is a bit boring (mostly reading) bu I'll try to stay focused as best I can

*Retrieve Wnt, BMP, nodal, Notch pathways (made good progress on other 2)
*Read about RA round->elong (didn't even start this, eek!)
*Call IA, email CC, email about movie
*Lit search/brainstorm about algorithms

Other tasks:
*lit search BMPs
*Read about 2 meiotic blocks
*Email JA
*Brainstorm conf
*Read paper about RA
*Write up work on Fgfs/wnt

Breaks: Square dance 7-9:45

Right now, I'm going to retrieve Wnt and BMP pathways, then I'll read about RA round->elong, then I'll do the brainstorming about algs. Back when I've gotten the 2 pathways.


Hi all,

 Trying to take right action to create right mood today!

Will be out of town for rest of week so need to get things in order before I leave.

Going to make to-do list then check back.


forgot, still have rest of list from yesterday, so will work on that. Have tasks 8 through 14 left.

finished task 8!! was hanging over head for two months


(The lady in the starter reminds me of my old boss.:) )

mj Tuesday gettin back to work

Having had a breakthrough yesterday by "accepting the possibilities of failure" in my top two procrastinated tasks, I'm now able to move on to new items.

To clarify, I just asked, "What am I afraid of? What's the worst that could happen if/when I start these tasks? The answers were: rejection, and conflict - someone might say "No", or be mad at me, and I'd have to advocate for myself. For whatever reasons, acknowledging this has helped me get on with things. It's in the "tools for recovery" section on this site, under the heading, "Ask yourself Why".

Anyway, today, my top three "must do tasks" are:

sell bike,

get meds,

visit families of  two students I contacted yesterday.

What would be nice to get done, as well:

apply for temp jobs this summer

ecollege/log on, read articles

start on reflection for visits.