yes and yes, vic
I have described the feeling as 1) dread, 2) walking thru knives, 3) anxiety, and today, 4) panic attack.
Just today, i had to bring something downstairs to the basement--literally a 30 second task--but i avoided it, then forced myself, and i felt gut-wrenching stress. I dont understand it either, altho i have now given up understanding it. This is just my cross to bear. Might there be a way to cure it? Perhaps, but i have found and am using a way to manage it, fight it, overcome it, day by day in small steps.
And yes, the fact that you felt all that and you did those taxes!! that is great and i'm thrilled to be able to celebrate it w/ you.
You might even want to consider that altho the 'task' itself may have been small, overcoming the resistance you felt was a huge challenge and huge victory. This is what i'm trying to tell myself these days.
(Oh and one minor thing: posts like this are best in the daily thread, and this place is close. It's best to look in the right-hand column and click on today's date and post this type of content there. Pro will probably move your post and my reply there when she/he sees this.)
the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748
"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb
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Thank you Clem for your support. You are EXACTLY on the money- "overcoming the resistance"- I never looked at it that way, I think I was more focused on "completing the task" and why I could not complete a ridiculously simple task. It seemed incredible to most people- even me.........
This group is helping me "overcome the resistance" or what I think of as my frozen paralysis, which in my mind was somehow related to laziness, which in turn became the cause of so much guilt and self condemnation that I went deeper and deeper into paralysis and depression.
I am new to this site, so sorry if I am posting in the wrong place.
I will try to post under today's date and I hope someone can let me know if that is how you do it. I don't really understand the daily "thread". Do we all have our own "thread"? or is does it follow the date?