First Post! Kinda long...
For the past 4-5 months, I've convinced myself that I must be the only person in the world who lives like I do, embarrassed to even tell one person about my procrastination, because they wouldn't understand. This site, which I found while procrastinating, changed my insight.
So I guess thats step 1.
My Story: I'm 26, going on 27 in a couple months. I have a university degree (sociology). I've had three jobs since I graduated...all in sales. And let me tell you, sales is probably the worst career path if you are a procrastinator. You need to be very self motivated, and driven, and I am not. My first job I had while in school, and believe it or not, I loved it, and was great at it! However, it was retail sales, and the reason I was good at it is because people came to me for the product. When I got into the "real world" and got sales jobs that required me to go out on the road and cold call, I failed miserably.
I have been unemployed now for 8 months, and here is where my problem comes in. I cant bring myself to find a job. Ive narrowed down some reasons: 1. Fear (about the interview, about failing at ANOTHER job) 2. Uncertain (about my career path, what I want to do) 3. Lazyness: I find other things to do instead of look for a job. I literally wake up every day, grab my computer, and play internet games/search sites all day. Im so lazy I sometimes dont eat until 3 in the afternoon. I tell myself that next week I will start really looking for a job. Ive been telling myself that for 7 months now, and my unemployment is about up...its to the point that if I didnt have a family to fall back on in another city, Id be homeless.
Here's whats most depressing, really really depressing. If I cant do something so trivial as find a job (not a career, just even a job to keep me alive), how the hell am I supposed to function as I get older? When I actually have responsibilities? The way I look at it, I'm not going to have a wife or kids, I'll never be put in that situation because I cant even take care of myself.
Thanks for reading, any advice would be greatly appreciated.
The Catch 22: To stop procrastinating truly is a catch 22. Procrastinators want to stop their bad habits by completing tasks, and doing what they are supposed to be doing. But they can't complete the tasks because they procrastinate! Its a vicious cycle...