Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.
Procrastination is the grave in which opportunity is buried.
sponsorship
I'm still seeking out a cosponsor or a sponsor, if anyone is able to provide some tailored guidance by email or phone. I really find that I need that in order to be true to my intentions and commitments, b/c I don't keep promises to myself. I have been in three other programs where I have gotten some recovery and sobriety over the past several years, and the only way i got there was through sponsorship. Please let me know if you are interested in sponsoring or cosponsoring.
Journey 2:45
Groceries are in the hot car, just a quick check-in to get myself in gear to put them away RIGHT NOW! See you in the chatbox later!
Jo
"The elevator to success is out of order. You'll have to take the stairs . . . one step at a time." - Joe Girard
Share from AA's Daily Reflections
As I was fumbling through my book to find today this caught my eye from May 27th's page. It is so apropos that I was too consumed with myself that day to do my reading! I share it hear with hopes that someone will find it helpful to their PA program.
"No Maudlin Guilt"
'Day by day, we try to move a little toward God's perfection. So we need not be consumed by maudlin guilt...'
from As Bill Sees it, page 15.
When I first discovered that there is not a single "don't" in the Twelve Steps of A.A. I was disturbed because this discovery swung open a giant portal. Only then was I able to realize what A. A. is for me:
AA is not a program of "don't"s, but of "do's."
AA is not martial law, it is freedom.
AA is not tears over defects, but sweat over fixing them.
AA is not penitence, it is salvation.
AA is not "Woe to me" for my sins, past and present.
AA is "Praise God" for the progress I am making today.
asking for help to do the next right thing
saturday's e
I woke up this morning filled with dread and angst over things that I have not accomplished and am now realizing that this is directly attributable to not having gotten to a 12 step meeting in days. Yet another lesson in how when I prioritize putting my life in order over my program that my life begins to fall apart. I also am feeling myself yell at myself over things, which I have not done for quite some time. As I am getting to see that I am battling over which tasks to do first I am going to say the Third Step Prayer and then ask my Higher Power for help in doing the next right thing. Which is probably to just start and fill in the blanks.
Things battling in my head;
dog walk, shower, dishes, laundry, living room straighten, meeting, pancake breakfast, taxes, student loans, exercise and stretches, meds. Also, I am out of control with my compulsive behaviors right now and again, this is because I am not working my program the way I know I do best. So, adding to my list the following items: literature, quiet time, journaling, planning meals. I would like to get to an AA meeting and an OA meeting today. And I would like to work on patting myself on the back for each bit of effort I make.
Have a grateful productive serene day, everyone.
asking for help to do the next right thing
kromer 9:40
In lab this morning...going to work for a little more than two hours, then hang out with friends for a few hours, then work a little more in the afternoon.
Because I have only 2 hrs now, I feel like it's hopeless to get real work done this morning. But one of the tools for recovery is to use small blocks of time...and 2 hrs is not that short. In this 2 hrs, I hope to format my data for clustering, and if I have time either run clustering or look up relevant GO terms. Then, this afternoon I want to read an article, order backup hard-drive and make plot of replicate agreement
Lab is pretty empty, so I can use the chatbox...heading there now.
kromer 11:55 CI
Didn't quite finish formatting data for clustering, but I'm almost done...will finish that this afternoon.
Now heading out to meet friends; if I arrive before them, I will start reading article.
Add to the to-do list for the afternoon: call mini-parish members about potluck.