Thursday 21 May 2009

Hi!

Not sleeping last night has made me really focus on my project list and staying on task today.

This morning I walked to gym, did additional cardio, stretches, & ab exercises.

At work as mentioned, I've continued plugging at everything. I walked at lunchtime, then had a bite to eat. I've printed out my project list for in the morning, to help tomorrow get off to a good start. Next: walk home after work, then see what I can get into ;)

Have a great night, everyone! :)

Recycler

Recycler

Thank you, gals & guys, for being here! :)

God morning everyone, another busy day!  Thank you so much for the wise words in the starter chickadee, a great reminder for me! I often am so busy with what i should, must... need to do that i don't think of what i WANT to do and am often out of practice so that I can't even answer the question - an area for progress without question! 

I caught up on reading the site a bit and it strikes me always how wise and caring and encouraging the wonderful overcomers in this fellowship are. I think our struggles make us more thoughtful about solutions and compassionate.

My Word and prayer for the day: 1 Peter 5:6-7

Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time, casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you.

My to do list: 

Read Bible/pray, play and enjoy dd as i work

MIT: Job2 continue print I, D, / confirm cut layout/paper count, take to get cut asap

St/ot 3:45-6 (have work to bring), format e labels, start assembly 

jobCC email, email updated portfolio PW, JM, TO, MG, EB, email PS / LS, Clear email

Good morning everyone...

MIT#1: Project T-C press release

MIT#2: Project K-3

MIT#3: Project W-5

All of these have to get done today.

What's that line about "nothing concentrates the mind like the prospect of a hanging"? Or something like that...

 UPDATE

Completed MIT#1

Got Started on MITs #2 and #3

a good day.

The Hero's Code:

Show up. Pay Attention. Speak the Truth. Let Go of the Outcome.

• I want to get over thinking that I cannot have a relationship with someone attractive, just because of my multi-ethnicity.  I want to get over thinking of race as a hindrance in my life. 
• I want to save myself from dishonor. I don't even care, if they give me the money, because I know that if I do well I can get the money to finish my degree at some point. I just want to finish my crap and move on, before the dean decides anything rash.
• I want to stop feeling so depressed all the time, just because I'm not in a relationship.  Not to mention that when I'm in them, I don't feel a whole lot better. I want to feel better about myself and feel good about myself.  It's not about desiring someone else, for me its' all about control over other people, while I lack self-control.
• I want to invest in myself, to do things for my own sake. I want to want to invest in myself.
• My problem throughout my life has been low self-esteem.  It's not an issue of accomplishing esteemable acts, I don't think.  I'm a perfectionist, with very little self-acceptance.  Again, I do need a sponsor to say, "Now that there....*that* you did well and don't have to rue."  Because I lack distinction in my manic perfectionism.

It's 3am and I'm still up. It's not that I don't want to go to sleep.  It's that I procrastinate on brushing my teeth.  And why?  because I am afraid of being alone.  Sleep is a moment of alone time.  I literally have had to get myself drunk on tiredom in order to make myself sleep.  Because I resist solitude. I'm seeing the psych tomorrow, but I need to set my alarm clock. 

multi-tasking is a real challenge for me... but with several exams back-to-back (some practical, some written, etc.) plus concerts, i have to break things into bits.  focus on little steps and not think of everything at once.  otherwise, i will become paralyzed with fear and won't get anything done.  

until sun & mon, i've got to focus on So with minimal upkeep of V rep & Dech rep in back drop.  after mon, i can focus on Mo, Bl and Dech.  Maz comes last in list of priorities. 

self-care: run/walk in park, floor exercises; spiritual reading

school: rehearsal; So rewrite and review yesterday's Di; So review difficult gams; So ryt; So review theo notes.

household: recycling; sort papers/books; fold clothes 

note to self: gotta stop So at 21h00 to review few Perg & 1 Bocch spot.

Had all yesterday preparing for and being in the field - nice to be outside but a very busy day. Tomorrow I have a meeting which with travel will take the whole day too. Next week I have three similar days so not much time for getting real work done. Have a bit to do to prepare for these so no time to muck around. Sadly with this pressure mucking around is exactly what I feel like doing so I'll need to use all the tricks to stay on track.

So for today...

1. An hour on brochure review - wish this would finish but need other's input
2. Prepare for Friday meeting presentation
3. Follow up on PHS field days, consider making calls to SIRFFN
4. Process remaining info notes and call authors if necessary (if time allows)