I've just joined this site a few minutes ago, and that only within a half hour or so of finding and exploring it...just about the only thing I haven't procrastinated about this week!
I realize, on an intellectual level, that anyone reading this has heard (if not lived through something similar) all this before, but the way it feels to me is that I push this procrastination crap to within an inch of my life and my sanity. I'm a solo business owner with a couple of "professional" post-graduate degrees, always a top student when in school, who presents very impressively to the outside world. I have the respect of many clients and peers, my spouse (hereafter, "S.O.") and I have been together, pre and post wedding, for 20 years, we live in a pricey urban condo, and I lead people to assume that I've never made much money because I'd "rather be my own boss than sell out" and besides, S.O. makes enough for us to get by on. And it's all a total and absolute sham. I've never earned nearly what I "should" because I constantly invent new ways to sabotage myself. I can't handle my own finances responsibly, even when I have enough money I don't pay bills on time (I can't even come up with "excuses" anymore for THAT one!). Worst of all, I've abused S.O. with multiple broken promises that I will change, get my act together, make more money, pay back "my share" of everything, find a real job, stop being a drain on savings, never again let my health insurance lapse because I "forgot" to pay the premium, never again let my car be repossessed bacause I can't bear to admit that I can't afford the payments, never again put off making the necessary calls to my creditors... gag.
I apologize for venting. I'm just terrified that, some day soon, I'll finally have *#^%-ed up my life irrevocably. I really, really hope that, somehow, being a member on this site will give me a little help, so I can make a little progress.