in the uncomfortable place, look for god, not an exit.
this mantra came thru in a big way late last night. I was filled with stress and resistance, but doing my task. Then when i tried this mantra, i added god to the situation. Instead of my view filled with this onerous task (or at least that's how i was perceiving it) my view was mostly filled with that, and at least a little i could see god, the author of love, light, joy, beauty, peace.
Just that crack in the armor was enuf to start to separate from my task a little. Then i listened to some songs, and chatted on this site (while working). My mood got lifted right up such that i went to bed joyful. And that has never happened on this task. I usually feel empty and drained.
the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748
"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb
catching and pleasant and meaningful.
Gotta make this quick as I've got urgent stuff but I promised myself I would check in and this is probably my only chance today.
This is followup on my check-in Friday:
Buried in that tome was my goals for the weekend and start of the week, quoted here as I wrote them Fri nite:
..."goal for the weekend is to get my priorities listed and tackled,"
(Outcome: I did get a bunch of scribbled 2do notes consolidated into a couple of lists, non-prioritized but with most urgent items marked. At least it was easier to find the urgent items.)
..."For one, 1st draft of Federal Taxes with major items entered"
(Outcome: deferred this in favor of another simularly mindbending paperwork task which my wife considered (correctly) more urgent. Good thing about non-procrastinating spouse is the occasional priority reality check.)
... "maintain a sane schedule, and "
(Outcome: Too vague! For my life right now, sanity of schedule is a matter of degree. I did get most major chores done except bill payment, which got handled Monday morning and helped make me late to work, again.
Also, I'm fighting to keep myself on a reasonable sleep schedule. Did ok Fri night, way too late on Sat night, and only partially recovered Sun nite. Again, that hurt the Monday morning schedule. This is a recurring pattern.)
... "get to work by 8 am Monday. "
Outcome: Not even close.
But while trying to get around to come into the office I got a welcome business call and might have a chance to pull together a proposal for a new contract (the lifeblood of the contract research firm I work for), one that I thought was just about dead. So now I get to see if I can revive it. Due in the wee hours of Wed so probably won't check in again b4 then.
This last minute proposal cycle is another typical cycle for me. Worthy of further discussion but I just finished the late-lunch sandwich I was snarfing down while writing this... so what more I could say will have to wait.
I hate mondays ! and speeding tickets...
- clean up the room
- 30 minutes of homework
- follow up with 20 minutes of guitar as a reward
-an other 30 min burst of work
If you got a ticket I'm sorry to hear it, but that made me laugh. I hate speeding tickets too and I have gotten more than my share!
You won't reach your destination by pretending you're somewhere other than where you are. - Steve Pavlina
Hi Pro Buddies!
Getting near the end of the workday here :)
This morning I did something on the internet before going to the gym; did my cardio, ab workout, and stretching.
At work I've been at least 80%+ on task for the majority of the day, in addition to integrating the tasks requested at staff meeting this morning. I still have some updates to add to my assignment list for tomorrow.
After 5pm I hope to work on a volunteer project before going to my 12-step meeting. I hope to meet with my sponsor tonight, but can't remember for sure if they will be there.
9:50pm. Just back after meeting, and having a snack with sponsor. I continue feeling well. I need to let my food digest before going to sleep, so will surf the Internet a little more before bed.
Have a great night, everyone! :)
Thank you, gals & guys, for being here! :)
Getting lots done today. Nothing really pressing, no really big tasks except for the disaster room, which as a whole is big, but can only be organized by doing little things -- it's kinds like untying a knot. You can only get so far, and then you have to jump to something else to clear that up so you can get back to the first thing. But I have spent more time in there today than in all of February, so I feel really good. I need to start wrapping things up though so I can start dinner, and get things ready to make cookies. I find making the dough super easy, its the time in the oven, and so many batches which puts me off. I find it easiest to bake them during supper, instead of in the afternoon or morning or whatever. Silly me!
I had better get on it - need to peel some potatoes to roast on this snowy day!
Nothing is worth more than this day - Goethe
sort out the book shelf
go to the gym
go to work.
not a great day. hardly did 1/4 th of what I intended.
omg, I am so tired today :) I worked so much over the weekend and I am tempted to just coast today, but that thinking will just get me back into the trouble I have worked so hard to get out of! I will get a day off this week so that will help.
My email inbox has 600 items in it , I'm still "on call" until tomorrow and I have some tasks to take care of for that. I have toastmasters at noon and a couple of short meetings today, one of which will take some preparation.
So far, I've been to the gym, checked on Dad, read email and checked my calendar. Next I need to make a very reasonable todo list for the day. I know I am feeling tired, so I will keep the list short and doable.
See ya in the chatbox.
Already accomplished lots today, need to continue :) I will use my timer to alternate between cleaning kitchen, sweeping floors, organizing cupboard above fridge and starting on disaster room.
Hope everyone is having a good Monday!
Feeling pretty wrung out. After a pleasant early part of the evening in the company of Mrs. GS, I was beset by a pair of unrelated, mild but disturbing medical ailments that made it difficult to sleep soundly last night. Nothing requiring a doctor's visit, but completely draining.
Now I'm up and showered and will be beginning my day's work soon.
MIT's are basically to get through as much of my daily task pad as possible. Specifics include several long-deferred projects that need to be advanced. I may update here to elaborate or simply do so in chatbox.
But first I want to post something elsewhere and get feedback.
UPDATE: 8:50 AM
Ok, here's what I posted: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/2010
I'll welcome feedback.
Now to my lists:
I've got a lot of decluttering to do today, but I want that not to take over my day.
I'll be working on project W, Project E, Project M-4, Project S, Project B, and Project M-W.
Tasks include transcription, some outlining, some reading, some thinking.
I'll enumerate specifics as I go along in Chat.
The Hero's Code:
Show up. Pay Attention. Speak the Truth. Let Go of the Outcome.
Have meeting all day so will not be able to do much else. (done) when get home banking (done) clean floor (done) check website (done).
I never celebrate anniversaries in any of my 12 step programs because I would always feel like a failure. When I finally internalized the concept of "one day at a time" it was a pivotal point for me and I developed a concept of "consistency".
Truly, one day at a time, my life has consistently been better than it was before program. Then I feel successful and hopeful.
So today I want to start with the basics (read and write) then walk and make list and pray.
I have appointments at 3 pm and 7 pm tonight, so I need to get things done in the house.
My relationship with my son went down the tubes, but I did make a call to a friend. and I need to "not react".
What I am resisting the most is taking care of banking. So I hope to start before 3.
I don't know the author of this quote, but I always liked it:
“We learn what we see and hear,
We do what we learn,
We become what we do”
Thank you for remembering one day at a time.
I did some tasks that I would normally give myself credit for, but they were not MITs. My focus has been very poor. I'm familiar with good days alternating with poor, so I'm going to observe myself with detachment and think about starting again.
Hi pro buddies,
I seem to be having trouble getting up on time in the mornings. I was doing great all winter because I had to get up to use my sun lamp, but now that I don't need that I'm hitting the snooze button way too many times.
To focus on today:
Have a great day, everybody!
Hmm. . . o.k., I totally didn't do this. Had a reasonably productive day, but was totally resistant to this habit that I'm trying to establish.
Got to get to bed now, but will check in in the morning & see if I can break this down to something smaller that I can get myself to actually do!
o finish sorting a hundred pages of mixed-up copies
0 borrow books
0 scan CW
0 WRITE SCARY EMAIL TOOOODAAAYYYYYY!!!!! (argh, capitals, should talk gently to myself - my thanks go to chickadee for this reminder!)
-need to do some calendar planning before I can write it, but this will only take 5-10min tops
o pick up daughter a bit early so we can hang easter eggs on little tree in front of house
"if i feel guilty about my procrastination, i will get LESS done, if i dont feel guilty, i will get MORE done." - Clement
Up early today with hopes of having a very productive day. I have a load of wash going already.
CI 8:10 Super Satisfied with my am. I exercised today and it really has made a difference in my mental attitude. (Thank HP)
At work now and looking forward to a very happy and productive day. Over the past month and a half I have been in a major "funk". At times I thought I was coming out of it but have not. I have how every continued to press on -- very slow --. So for now that is my goal to continue to press on hopfully at a faster pace.
1st on the list is to
I have a meeting at 9:00 so my goal is to be done by then. Work in chat to stay motivated and focused. Meeting done
CI 9:30 task for next 90 mins
CI 12:00 task for next 25 min'
If I stay up till midnight, I’m going to practice at least making sure my CI for morning is done, so I am work-minded, not just up with no direction!
Word and prayer for the day: Proverbs 3:5 the message
“Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don't try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for God's voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; he's the one who will keep you on track.”
Reading to put into practice:
“If you want to be free, just start doing what God wants you to do, one step at a time, and you’ll eventually walk out of your messes." Joyce Meyer
Music: Natalie Grant, Casting Crowns, tba
My to do list: MIT… PLAN that I can do!
read m.forster autofocus
no school/dd up sick allnite (email teacher) NAP!
call A (well, I texted, but I still count as done!)
didn't avoid a phonecall just now, progress
continue clearing email for day habit! so far so good, wont mark off til end of day tho!
planning next week, jobs/dline schedule
resolve ink question
job 2 email
ck bank account
dd school 2:30p / babysit/playdate(Barney-fest has begun!)
something fun with dd before bedtime
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