Wednesday March 11th, 2009

• more homework for tonight( cant seem to find any will to do this... so much time left until monday...)

• cleaning my room (for real this time) 

Yesterday was a bad day... I hope today will be more productive

The quote on the starter was a monumental help to me this morning.:) I was so overwhelmed with my Thur. and Fri. projects this morning that I felt nauseated.:( But then I read that quote and I thought just keep moving, and that's all I need to do. It gave me a lot of strength. Anyway, as I was working on project for Thur. this morning, it was resolved so I can concentrate on Fri. project. I am going to grab some lunch then work on list for Friday project. Thank you to everyone who keeps posting their experience strength and hope!

-go thru W's

-anticipate o s

-review theory

I've been working, after a fashion, since  7:45 this morning.

But it's been all busy work. Administrative BS that I impose on myself, much of it non-essential.

Some of that I justify because I've been in crunch mode a lot the last few days.

But I've got more deadlines to meet and need to get back on track.

MIT#1: do the research and outline for Project W-M  Mostly finished

MIT#2: Catch up on Project S No progress

MIT#3: Pick up several small but long-delayed adminisrative items on my task pad Several taken care of

The Hero's Code:

Show up. Pay Attention. Speak the Truth. Let Go of the Outcome.

1150 am, and had a busy morning where nothing really got accomplished.  Well, something got accomplished - I watched two hours of Sober House.  I know its edited to s***, but I get something from seeing the days progress in these individuals lives.  Rodney King, I think, is the most inspiring.  Maybe just because I vividily remember the video of his beating 17, 18 years ago.  So to see him now, accepting and slowly moving past --- not only that horrible act , but the fact his name and face are apart of recent history --- is so monumentally huge.  That is inspiring to me.               The show may be edited, but I don't think much of it is scripted, these people are living their lives and going through rollercoaster emotions and learning to live it all sober.  They have meetings with Dr Drew, he seems pretty down to earth, and I try and take what he says and apply it to my situation - it usually applies in one way or another!

Anyway, got grocery shopping done and kids had lunch.  I had a coffee, and now am jittery!  I have cut my coffee intake down severly, drinking green tea instead.  Today I thought I would have some to give some oomph to my get up and go...

I wish to accomplish these following things

- unload and load dishwasher, wipe counters and clear table 1/2 hr (talking with mil)

- start laundry, that took 5 min, fold clothes, reboot laundry and fold that load

- clear floor in living room, put away items that don't belong in there  5  min

- quick clean in kids room

- quick vacuum of main floor and upstairs, and all stairs  45 min - not so quick but then again I didn't realize just how....hairy...it all was!!  And I did the couch and chair as well.

- mop kitchen  I forgot to time myself, but I mopped the kitchen diningroom, upstairs bathroom, and I did the litter...it's now 3:45, and I am starting dinner, once that it is in the oven, I will take a shower - vacuuming worked up quite a sweat... oops, sorry, glow !!

I will be using my timer, and recording the time it takes to do a chore

in a bit, then.... 

I worked with the timer today, and watched the clock.  My son and I used the timer so he could complete a writing project he had to do for tomorrow.  It has been a good, productive day, I was able to fight off the negative voices.  I think it helps that my music was on, not the kids shows! 

Til tomorrow  :)

Nothing is worth more than this day  - Goethe

altho i'm not feeling it, i will write it down.

look for god in this my very uncomfortable and down place, not an exit.

hmm, crack of light, maybe

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the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748

"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb

That quote is so true!

Right, so I've managed the things that were on top of my to do list for today - getting up early and wasting three hours online in a ticket competition. However, the next two hours have been completely useless... and I need to focus now, because those essay deadlines are coming closer...

So for the rest of the day:

:smile: Put up CL

:smile: Shower, brush teeth

:smile: Knee exercises

:smile: Essay work 13.00-16:

*Open Words

*Put down title

+If you can't concentrate try thinking why that is, what you'd rather be doing...

*Write bibliography

*Phrase an introduction

*Write down a section on first argument

-- it doesn't matter that you haven't read anything, you can do that while you write, so just get that started. It doesn't matter if it's perfect, it matters to get it done!

:smile: Knee exercsies

:smile: Make dinner

:smile: Wash dishes

:smile: If unproductive on essay earlier this is the time to catch up otherwise relax

Though this be madness, yet there is method in't ~ Polonius (Hamlet)