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Monday 27 October 2008
Monday...
courage wisdom serenity
I can start I can keep going i can give myself credit for small steps
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kromer 9:20 CI back and freaking out.
Back from weekend trip to California!
Tonight my long-dist bf wants to talk about some relationship issues, which is (understandably) stressing me out...however, web-surfing is unlikely to make things any better :)
I don't think I can manage any heavy-duty thinking tonight, but I think that I can realistically do the following:
*Read bible verse for the day*Unpack
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Email mom*
Deal with email from today and yesterday*
Deal with email from Friday and Saturday*Do 30 min of genetics studying
*Do 30 more min of genetics studying
*Take a shower
*Start making a schedule for the week.
*Go over lect. 14
Deep breath, starting on bible verse and email. I'm going to work in the chatbox and listen to some nice calm music.
Recycler CI 5:45pm EST
Hi!
Somehow I had a good Monday. How did THAT happen? lol. (Actually I feel very thankful about it, so I probably shouldn't joke ;)
Took some things over to new condo in morning. Showered at gym. Went to work. Found out a big boss is leaving. Did projects today. Actually, my project list is looking great! The project list may be manageable for once! ;) [maybe at least temporarily? ;)
Did errand in morning, and paid bill at lunchtime. Replied to some emails. Came home from work and ate dinner.
Next: one of my organizations is having a special event tonight. I want to go to it. I need to take one load of items over to the new condo. Then I can go to the event, go to the last part of my regular support group, then hopefully get a soft drink with my sponsor. I probably won't get to update my CI later, so wanted to make sure I posted now.
Have a great night, everyone! :)
Recycler
Thank you, gals & guys, for being here! :)
Edge's CI - 9:10pm
Crisis situation, going into damage control mode.
To Do:
- Finish two bios and send to S
- Finish unit 1
- Finish half of unit 2
- hmed
- calcium
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Nothing diminishes anxiety faster than action - Walter Anderson
Edge's Closing CI - 11:50pm
I underestimated the amount of work it would take to complete my to-dos =/ Will continue tomorrow. Set the alarm early.
To Do:
- Finish two bios and send to S (one of them almost done)
- Finish unit 1 (half of it is done)
- Finish half of unit 2
x hmed
x calcium
Good luck with your lists, everyone :*
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Nothing diminishes anxiety faster than action - Walter Anderson
m ci 11:20 AM EST
to do:
clock 8 hours
2 hours investigating IE issue
renew library items
review bug/feature list
done:
scarlett CI 10:35 am EST
Good morning, all. I was out sick Friday, so I'm in "catch-up and reschedule" mode.
Ta da:
Eat breakfast
Take pills (part)
Morning routine
Order blank cds
Buy auction ticket
Resched EU mtg
To do:
Resched mtgs (started); AA, WF
KS review
Start proj/task list
GM & AC - complete #s?
Personal:
LTV; Reset password, dl homework
Announce Fri.
Resched appt w/ MS @ HRC
Update budget g-doc; pay bills, add $1,
HG; Check to-do, find MC contact, start g-doc (me, JH, DT), minutes to JH, call DT, email AM & TVS, call MM
& JH
AS re: reading
JF re: caricature
NTTHI3D
contact MC, TCF
The adrenaline you've been living on only leaves you wanting.
scarlett CI 2:35 pm EST
Started out pretty well today, but kind of lost focus after coming back from lunch. I really struggle to shift from task to task.
Ta da:
Eat breakfast
Take pills (part)
Morning routine
Order blank cds
Buy auction ticket
Resched mtgs; EU, AA, WF
Reset password
Buy ticket
Enter contacts
Review NCG info for f/u
To do:
Send spreadsheet
GM & AC - complete #s?
KS review (started)
Start proj/task list
Phone calls; MT (lm),
Personal:
LTV; dl homework
Resched appt w/ MS @ HRC
Update budget g-doc (started); pay bills, add $1,
HG; Check to-do, find MC contact, start g-doc (me, JH, DT), minutes to JH, call DT, email AM & TVS, call MM
& JH
Personal for Tues:
Announce Fri.
AS re: reading
JF re: caricature
NTTHI3D
contact MC, TCF
The adrenaline you've been living on only leaves you wanting.
scarlett CI 3:56 pm EST
That's pretty much it for today. I kept slogging through, so I'm proud of myself.
Ta da:
Eat breakfast
Take pills (part)
Morning routine
Order blank cds
Buy auction ticket
Resched mtgs; EU, AA, WF
Reset password
Buy ticket
Enter contacts
Review NCG info for f/u
Send spreadsheet
dl homework and print
Emailed AA re: GM & AC - complete #s?
Pay bills
Call TG
Upload and label pics
Postponed:
KS review (started): type up, enter
Start proj/task list
Phone calls; MT (lm)
Personal:
Resched appt w/ MS @ HRC
Update budget g-doc (started); , add $1,
HG; Check to-do, find MC contact, start g-doc (me, JH, DT), minutes to JH, call DT, email AM & TVS, call MM
& JH
Personal for Tues:
Announce Fri.
JF re: caricature
NTTHI3D
contact MC, TCF
The adrenaline you've been living on only leaves you wanting.
Scarlett rockin'
You're an inspiration today - thanks!
glad it was helpful
we all take turns needing inspiration and providing it.
The adrenaline you've been living on only leaves you wanting.
ScottK CI 9:22
A little too much goofing around so far this morning. Must do the following before I leave for Seattle this evening:
Review & turnaround ML presentationDraft web versions of releases & submitReview & turnaround RB estimateDraft PR talking pointsFinalize interview listWrite press briefing packageNew client phone pitch (12:30)Free up space on serverNow it's all written down, I'll forget it and focus on just the first item on the list. Thanks for being here, everybody.
Great Job Scott
Great Job on cleaning you to do list.
hope-faith
have a good trip, Scott
Congrats on getting all your list done!
GeorgeSmiley 8:15 AM plus updates
Hello all.
An aside: A message for the community at
http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1725
Another aside: The infamaous Project R is out, and I've gotten an amazing amount of positive feedback on it. But I tell myself: Wow, what if I'd done it RIGHT to begin with? How much better it would have been then!
Today:
MIT#1: Complete project L, which was due on Friday.
MIT#2: Re-align my task list
MIT$3 (Ongoing): Check in here regularly.
Update, 9:34 AM
by fits and starts, working on MIT#1. some distractions, but all related to administration and list updating, not my usual escapes. Continuing to pursue MIT.
Update 12:37 PM
Still working on MIT #1, with occasional distractions relating to other outstanding projects.
Update 2:19 PM
Continuing to work on MIT#1.
The Hero's Code:
Show up. Pay Attention. Speak the Truth. Let Go of the Outcome.
Update, 6:30 PM; 10:30 PM
I had to take a break around 3:30 to do things like fix supper for my boys and help Mrs. GS get ready for her book club tonight. Now I'm washing dishes but just checking back in. I will end up doing more work tonight on Project L.
And thanks for the many warm wishes of support and comfort and encouragement.
More later...
Update 10:30 PM
Well, I spent a little time tonight on Project L but not enough to finish it. I was going to try to stay up but I am too tired. I'll resume early in the morning.
The Hero's Code:
Show up. Pay Attention. Speak the Truth. Let Go of the Outcome.
gentle, George
<<<But I tell myself: Wow, what if I'd done it RIGHT to begin with? How much better it would have been then! >>>
I, too, have this kind of critical self-talk, in which "completion" is never quite "perfection" or even "very good." Yet, the Steps call me to believe the voice of my HP above all others - and that my HP "cares" for me (Step 3). Certainly, we in this community care for you enough to celebrate your Project R completion - congrats, George! Give yourself a few seconds to feel good about it - you really pushed through, and you were just beginning your recovery work here when R began - so, way to GROW!
Thank you...
I will hve more on this to say over in the other message thread I started, the one about my relapse.
The Hero's Code:
Show up. Pay Attention. Speak the Truth. Let Go of the Outcome.
Hope-Faith 9:05
Well did not check in yesterday and Sat. was not much better. I have an excuse for Sunday. My family and I went to an amusement park. Now I have to get on the ball and get lots done.
End of 9 week grading period. (Teacher work day)
Today I have to:
Grade papersEnter gradesPost gradesDone my next step is to file all the paper and then leave.Initally I had planned on getting alot accomplished today. However, everyone in the school system was in our on-line grading system so is was super slow. I should have anticipated and and and .......
I live in a very samll town and the electric company needs to do some work so in about 30 minutes they will be cutting off the electricity so I only have about 20 mins to file and unplug all of my computers. Then I have to leave. So much for all that I wanted to accomplish. I have finished my grades so I will celebrate that.
Once I get do with these I will come back and post my next step.
A little later .......
I have so much to do I am having a very hard time focusing on what needs to be done. But now I will try.
Fix supperClean up after supperGet clothes out for tomorrow, Golf and BalletPut one clothes basket of clothes away(Clothes are still not put away I wish my fairy godmother would come and do it.)Sort through quartersDone and this is an accomplishment because my kids did it for me. They are 7 and 8 and are not very good helpers.Create Iron on Transfer for son's Red Ribbon week shirt.Iron TransfersFirst time in 4 years that I have my sons Red Ribbon week custome finished 2 days in advance. I am usually up until late in the night the night before. Yea Mehope-faith
e's monday
good morning, all! It sounds like everyone had a pretty good weekend. Saturday was highly productive, which lead to yesterday which absolutely was not. I am thankful to be here early this morning and intend to spend some time chipping away at the things I thought would be long done by now. First off: the same box of office supplies is sitting in the living room with another couple of bags next to it.
MIT: box of office supplies
MIt: financial aid
MIT: resume
meds, water, breakfast done.
shower, cream, strip bed, vacuum and dust, do it now list will help as will the chatroom....
setting up do it now, now
Update: 6:30 PM
it was a decent day, but not because of me. My older son is out in the western part of the state and is applying for work there. That feels good. My birthday is tomorrow and my mother is taking me out. My spouse asked me to edit a cover letter and I did. I was able to go through a pile of books on the floor and get rid of two. The living room is slowly looking better. I think I might get the dining room table from my sister so I can start sorting out crap there.
On the not-so-hot side: I was back asleep again and slept until 2. I was reading something that felt upsetting and my body literally shutdown. I did not work on financial aid. I did not work on my own resume or apply for work. But dinner is on the way and I feel good about that. Dishes are done. Child 2 is not allowed on the computer and that feels good: he is playing guitar and reading instead. Also, he got his extra credit project in. Why is it that other people's accomplishments seem to be mine? I don't know, but they do motivate me to make little microbursts in the right direction. Sooooo... to do: move tv to other side of the room. go back to now do this and do something now. clean potatoes and onions and cabbage for boiled dinner.
next.....
Journey 7:23
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Agnus 6:45
G'mornin' all! Starting this beautiful new day that HP has given us, with a sense of adventure! Already talked to sponsor, planned the day's food, and now am off to a 12 Step meeting. Next will do Step 11 and check in with the day's 2do's and MIT 'em.
Ag 2 pm
Much later check-back than intended but I had forgotten about a 10 a.m. conf call...so...in addition to my accomplishments listed above, I have met briefly with a sponsee, exercised, cleaned the kitchen, talked to Mom, cooked J's breakfast, did the 10 a.m. conference call, wrote a report relevant to it, took another 20-minute call on the same project, trouble-shot and rescheduled a major event due to too many people being out sick today, and reduced my Outlook Inbox from 60+ items to a mere 20. However, they are the most challenging 20!
Up next: Make and eat a healthy lunch. Recheck my Inbox and actual to-do's (resist letting the Urgent overtake the Important!). Prioritize my afternoon. This has been a productive morning but it's been reactionary and just plain lucky rather than planned. Such days have a tendency to get away from me later in the afternoon, so my intention is to return from lunch proactive.
Ag 5:10
Did the healthy lunch, and made J a nice one also. Jumped right back into creating a to-do list and a plan, but got interrupted by a phone call from a friend who has an emotional week ahead, so I felt that talking with her was the right thing to do. But as often happens, I fell prey to a side-game of Free Cell while conversing. It was a tough one - and when I still hadn't solved it after the phone call, I didn't give it up right away. Instead I worked at it with all the concentration I should be applying to my to-do's...sigh. Of course I finally solved it. And I am still so addicted to procrastination since my slip, that I can't honestly say I'm sorry...
However, I now have only 15 minutes left to work before TJ the Wonder-Puppy begins begging irresistably for our walk in the autumn woods...what to do? I am tempted to blow off my favorite 12-Step meeting tonight, since I went to my another favorite one this morning. But I get so MUCH from this meeting...aargh. Why can't I make simple decisions like normal people? Going to phone my sponsor and ask for help figuring out the next right thing.
Ag 8pm
OK, with HP help and the simple act of calling sponsor (even though I got voicemail), I finally pushed past the next-right-thing anxiety. Walked the dog and myself. Made healthy dinners for J and me. Cleaned up the kitchen.
Looking at my to-do list, the most anxiety-producing items are paying bills, booking Saturday's trip (4 days from now, no plane reservation yet), getting a cameo Team Member for Friday's event and therefore tomorrow's rehearsal, and creating my September invoices.
God, please help me pay bills now. Thank you. Amen.
Ag 11:30 pm finale
Bills are paid! Assorted paperwork piles are straightened. Tomorrow still looks scary but major progress was done tonight, thank God (literally...no way I could do that myself).
Big Book says that upon awakening, we review our plans for the day. That assumes I'll have some by then! So, I'm going to try actually drafting a plan tonight for the next 24 hours:
Read the Inbox items I printed and schedule action items
congrats Ag!
Good job getting past your anxiety :)
chickadee ci
Starting on UT left from yesterday, a, b, c
a is done; i let it take far too long because it was picky and some things about it were irritating. (I would like to detach myself more and then I could disregard the irritation). Now onto b and c
I feel like I am not fast enough, so I remind myself that I am doing way more than a year ago to balance work, house, other chores, looking after myself well.
Chick update, Tuesday CI
I got up early and finished off b and presentation of a, easily and with peaceful attention and good concentration; now onto c.
in the midst of c, but now I have to abandon it for todays MUT and meetings. I lost a bit of time with the transition to c, and then with the decision to move onto MUT --okay, now enough of the MUT is done for use today, but it's still not finished off.
I think a way forward for me is to realize that the precious best hours of work are finite--I need to make best use of them, not let the tasks that should be done then spill over into late times when I am tired, do not work well, and resent having too.
Affirmation to HP: Help me to find and accomplish what I need to do, at the time that I am best able to, with a willing heart.
I did not get much done in the evening; c is still left. I will do some on it now. Being realisitic, I think it's right to take a break when I get home if I have been working since 6.30 am. I didn't really use the time off well though. I to keep focussed on all my goals, work and personal, and not be aimless in free time.
i relate chickadee
i can relate to all of this: taking too long by being picky, tasks being irritating, not fast enuf, needing to balance that talk w/ recovery progress. i could have written this post! :)
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