just getting started
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Hello everyone, you will have to forgive me if i have posted to the wrong place
My name is janet and i’m new to this web site. I am a cronic procrastinator. I have been like this sincve i was 7 or 8. I've spent most of my life covering my but and or lying about what i've done or not done for the day. I've acted dumb or sick or have some excuse as to why i'm not taking responsibility and doing what i supposted to do. I feel sooo much shame about being this way, and not being able to stop. I know what is nessary for a happy and productive life, but can not stop putting off and making excuses. I tell one lie after another so no one willl catch on to what is going on in my life or should i say what is not going on. I'm not talking about little things, because that's part of it too, i'm taking about very serious life altering situations that i'm not attending to. I’am pretendinmg all is ok, and i'll get to it tomorrow. The tomorrows have run out. Some things that are pressing are 7 years passed due. I'm behind in my taxes. I said it. Yes, that many years. And other things just go away. Yet other thigs i loose out on. Like a home, love relationships business opportunties, lots of money, serenity, piece of mind, feeling safe, and the list goes on and on.
I have got to trust the 12 steps, because i've tried everything else. Self- help books, dr's, medication, forcing myself, will power, behaviour modification, religion and it all ends the same way, i 'm procrasting more that ever. It's like when i really try, that's when it's the hardest.
I would love to get emails from anyone that would like to write. I would like to hear from people that are using the steps to get beyond this illness.
This is my thinking on the use of the 12 steps, if the 12 steps can get a drunk sober, an drug addict clean, than it has to work on procrastination. Nothimg else has.
Have a great day.
1) oh yea, i’m going to get my call list orgaized so i can start to call on my clients tonight.
2) i’m going to read the 1 step in the big book of aa
Thank you for being here