T12: Vision for My Recovery

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Here is my vision for myself:

1. I have maintained day-to-day sobriety from obsessive skin picking and pulling.
   1. I am not near doing this. The best I can do is attend an ospa meeting weekly.
   2. What has worked?  Stepping away from stress-inducing situations.  This has required maintaining distance.
2. I wake up at 6am or early enough to attend my gym appointment.
   1. Part of this is just making sure to go to bed on time.  
3. I am following a running/jogging plan.
   1. I think this may mean that I either 1) set gym times in the evening when I'm more likely to get on the treadmill or 2) make sure I wake up at least an hour before gym appointment to cook breakfast.  When I have trouble doing something, I think to myself, "What would I do if I were going to do this?  Not that I have to, but what would I do if I did do this."
4. I am working 8 hours a day, preferably before engaging in outside media.  Exceptions: media used for PA or to attend a scheduled 12-step meeting or event for which I've applied for PTO, media that is audio-only used during downtimes, such as making a meal or eating, media that is for exercise.  Does this include Twitter posts for exercise? No, it doesn't.  Is journalling okay?  Yes.  
   1. The best way for me to do this is hold myself accountable in the channel, and to time myself.  I have been timing myself, which is what I am doing well.  What I'm not doing well is getting lost in social media or this one person.  If I want I can create a list of things to look up later, and then decide if it's worth it later.
5. I do my self-care routine daily, which usually pertains to brushing my teeth, exercise (cardio video X2 + steps for the day), breakfast, vitamins.
   1. How can I do this more successfully?  Waking up earlier, which means going to bed earlier. 
   2. Prioritizing the routine over getting lost in "this one email" or "this one shopping item." Nope nope nope.  I think when I timed myself in chat this worked well.
6. I brush and floss my teeth before bed.
   1. What has helped is when I do the dental routine first before whatever else I think I need to do at night after bedtime, which is usually midnight.
7. I eat vegetables at least once a day.  I maintain as close as possible to a paleo/ketogenic diet, which means *not* eating ketogenic sweets, b/c that's not really the point of keto.
   1. One thing I did in the past to accomplish this is eating the vegetables during breakfast so I got it done early in the day.
   2. Something that has helped me during this time, as I have had no car is to go to a restaurant where they are serving veggies.
8. Get a therapist, who is actually a good fit (intellectually nuanced, can follow a conversation) and understands OCD, who deeply understands transgender/non-binary issues.  
   1. I can see if there is a therapist who matches up with my EAP/health plan and is approved by the OCD foundation I got links from.
   2. I could see this one gender therapist, splurging on the money, but billing my health plan for reimbursements.