Wednesday, June 24, 2020

Please do not leave comments or feedback.  Silent prayers welcome.  Thank you.

I've been having a lot of fear about checking my email on my work computer.  So going to do that, plus filing for those weeks, I have not filed. I'm also freaked because I haven't got the amount of running/walking that I ought in order to qualify for the highest interest yield at my bank.  I was not last month.  I survived.

My focus has been on how I can acquire food for myself long term without vegetables and fruits spoiling.  I'm having a strong hankering for some good food.I really do not want to go off my diet or exercise plan during my period, but I have found it to be a low voltage experience.  I cannot simply sit here and wait.

Another stressful item is that my doctor's appointment get canceled, so now i need to reschedule that.  I'm simply having a lot of pain, and going in and out of being able to stand up, so maybe should prioritize that over everything else.

Checkin at 2:43pm:

I read "scary" emails.  I think the part I was scared most about was being forced to leave, but nobody is going to do that.  I am going to take charge of my life, and find a job here, and be responsible by replying to emails.

DONE

journaling

requested chat with an advisor 

paid a bill 

ordered groceries 

made soup and tupperwared it 

meditated 

practiced 

cooked dinner 

evening meditation

TO DO 

journaling part 3/contact engineer 

re-establish hydration routine

start re-establishing cleaning routines