Wednesday 13th November 2013

Please do not leave advice or feedback.  Thank you.  Prayers welcome. 

The commitment is thirty minutes of exercise before midnight of any of the following format: running, jogging, a combination of running-walking-jogging, swimming, walking, attending a fitness class, stationary biking, biking, dance class, aerobic class, yoga, karate (or other martial arts).  My ultimate goal is to run a second marathon. In order to do that I need to being able to run for 30 minutes again.  My goal is to complete the running plan by doing it as a 28-week plan, which is a slower version of the eight-week Rodale run/walk plan. I'm going to shoot for doing one unit of the running plan per day, so that I can make some progress in my running plan. But all I have to do for my commitment is one half-hour of exercise per day, of any format above. I am doing this because:

1. I want to be able to wear the clothes in my closet. I don't want to have to be choosey, only wearing the extra-large shirts or things that don't look great on me, b/c of how I feel about my body.
2. I'm sick of feeling sorry for myself that almost no one asks me out on a date; I'm sick of attributing that circumstance to my appearance. It's not about my appearance.
3. I don't want to be the “ugly one” in the photographs at work. I want to take pride in the way I look and have the means to do that via the clothes I wear.
4. I feel that running or exercise will give me the strength I need to show up to other commitments in my life. Challenges in the running sphere require me to meet other priorities in my life so that I can exercise unimpeded and feel good that my investment in myself is going somewhere.
5. I want to feel good about myself when I go outside or meet people.
6. I don't trust myself to exercise at the end of the day or at some point before midnight unless I make the commitment here to do it. Being accountable to others by making a commitment here, helps me to be accountable to myself. Making a commitment here, helps me to have the faith in myself that at some point in the day the exercise will get done.
7. Practicing being on time for this commitment will assist me in being on time for other appointments, projects or time-sensitive communications in my life. Running is a practice in self-accountability.
8. Running or jogging helps me to practice willpower for other activities that require energy.
9. Exercise helps me to feel comfortable in what I am doing, b/c I am not constantly fidgeting at my desk or feeling like I SHOULD be running/swimming/walking or getting out in the sun or that I SHOULD have done those things last night.
10. Exercise helps me to avoid feelings of not being adequate, because I have confidence in myself as a person interacting with co-workers, managers and figures of authority.
11. Exercise helps me focus on what's most important to me in the moment and helps me avoid unncessary or counter-productive confrontations or interactions.
12. Exercise makes everything tighter, which makes me feel more comfortable with myself, helps me to be able to live with myself.

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 I notice I procrastinate on excercise, just to procrastinate on running, but I notice if I do it earlier, get enough fluid ahead of time, get enough food as fuel, it really helps.  Also, if I stick to the running program, it's easier to keep on jogging, rather than to go back to it, after week off.  Only by running, does running get easier, and it really helps me to feel comfortable with myself and my body.

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Today I have already

• Had breakfast
• Had a shower
• Written a to do list

Thank you for the starting image jalla. I know if I am gentle with myself I get more done and yet it is so hard to do. Woke and better but still tired and so very much to do.

x Up prayer and reflection
x Check emails and posts
x Make and post this list
x Rinse and hang up washing
x Prepare stuff for going out
x Out to shops to look at washing machines
x Onto new flat and check things there
x Home and relax for a bit
Contact agents and builders re new flat

Then if energy and I'm not sure I will have:-

Letter to HOS
Letter and enclosures to counselling service
Letter to bank
Letter and enclosures to second bank

x Write journal
Prayer and reflection
Bed and sleep

Check out 22.10 When I got home friend came round and I spent rather a long time with him and did not get much else done and I was glad to see him.

Peace Rexroth

1. Email Elena
2. Thank you JM re ESL Skype
3. Review 2007 & 2009 taxes
4. Print 2010 tax return forms & start return
5. Call TESL Ontario re volunteer opportunities
6. Apply to ESL Russia
7. Make membership phone calls
8. Wash dishes
9. Recycle 2 batches of newspapers
10. Call MO