Sunday 10th November

Please do not leave advice or feedback.  Thank you.  Prayers welcome. 

The commitment is thirty minutes of exercise before midnight of
any of the following format: running, jogging, a combination of
running-walking-jogging, swimming, walking, attending a fitness
class, stationary biking, biking, dance class, aerobic class, yoga,
karate (or other martial arts).  My ultimate goal is to run a
second marathon. In order to do that I need to being able to run for
30 minutes again.  My goal is to complete the running plan by doing it as a 28-week plan, which is a slower version of the
eight-week Rodale run/walk plan. I'm going to shoot for doing one unit of the running plan per day, so that I can make
some progress in my running plan. But all I have to do for my commitment is one half-hour of
exercise per day, of any format above. I am doing this because:

1. I want to be able to wear the clothes
   in my closet. I don't want to have to be choosey, only wearing the
   extra-large shirts or things that don't look great on me, b/c of how
   I feel about my body.
2. I'm sick of feeling sorry for myself
   that almost no one asks me out on a date; I'm sick of attributing
   that circumstance to my appearance. It's not about my appearance.
3. I don't want to be the “ugly one”
   in the photographs at work. I want to take pride in the way I look
   and have the means to do that via the clothes I wear.
4. I feel that running or exercise will
   give me the strength I need to show up to other commitments in my
   life. Challenges in the running sphere require me to meet other
   priorities in my life so that I can exercise unimpeded and feel good
   that my investment in myself is going somewhere.
5. I want to feel good about myself when I
   go outside or meet people.
6. I don't trust myself to exercise at the
   end of the day or at some point before midnight unless I make the
   commitment here to do it. Being accountable to others by making a
   commitment here, helps me to be accountable to myself. Making a
   commitment here, helps me to have the faith in myself that at some
   point in the day the exercise will get done.
7. Practicing being on time for this
   commitment will assist me in being on time for other appointments,
   projects or time-sensitive communications in my life. Running is a
   practice in self-accountability.
8. Running or jogging helps me to practice
   willpower for other activities that require energy.
9. Exercise helps me to feel comfortable
   in what I am doing, b/c I am not constantly fidgeting at my desk or
   feeling like I SHOULD be running/swimming/walking or getting out in
   the sun or that I SHOULD have done those things last night.
10. Exercise helps me to avoid feelings of
    not being adequate, because I have confidence in myself as a person
    interacting with co-workers, managers and figures of authority.
11. Exercise helps me focus on what's most
    important to me in the moment and helps me avoid unncessary or
    counter-productive confrontations or interactions.
12. Exercise makes everything tighter,
    which makes me feel more comfortable with myself, helps me to be able
    to live with myself.

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 I notice I procrastinate on excercise, just to procrastinate on running, but I notice if I do it earlier, get enough fluid ahead of time, get enough food as fuel, it really helps.  Also, if I stick to the running program, it's easier to keep on jogging, rather than to go back to it, after week off.  Only by running, does running get easier, and it really helps me to feel comfortable with myself and my body.

Needed that starter today. I want to feel good about submitting a chapter yesterday and not tell myself that it should have been better and that I should have started earlier. I want to keep moving forward.

Right now I am going to take a nice bath. Then I will do some gardening and cleaning (feels like a reward!).

Write to R and D

Call mother

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone meetings, and my life.

I want to thank jalla for starting this trend.

Things I have done today

1. Went to the 5:45 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

2. Went to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting

3. Went to the 7 a.m. telephone DA business meeting

Things I will do today

1. Go to the 8 a.m. telephone OA meeting

2. Cook and eat breakfast

3. Take shower

4. Get dressed

5. Go to my mom's apartment

6. Go to the store

7. Write questions for tonight's meeting

8. Clear table

9. Wash dishes

10. Test blood sugar twice

11. Warm up and eat dinner

12. Go to the 7 p.m. online EA meeting

13. Go to the 8 p.m. telephone CLA meeting

14. Go to the telephone PA workshop at 9 p.m.

Thanks for letting me share