Monday, 7th October 2013

Back home after traveling for several weeks. I feel it is an opportunity to get into better habits. Today the most important thing is to abstain from mindless internet browsing. 

-invoice

-email DW

-email A

-gym

Totally exhausred from working an 8 hour day yesterday. Couldn't get to sleep when I went to bed because of the thoughts racing through my head about my financial situation and worrying whether I'll ever get a decent job again.

I feel very discouraged. I talked to someone last week who got a job I went after. I'm not sure why he got the job, however, he's 35 years younger than me. I know he's would be good at the job. I would feel worse if someone I knew got the job who was not very good.

I know I should push myself to do something about my business, rather than wait until I feel better but it's so hard!

I've got three things on the go. My terrible part-time job that doesn't pay the rent, my business that I've been neglecting and my search to teach English as a Second Language. I don't have any clients now except for one on hold that I don't want to work with any longer because I waited too long to establish a fee agreement and I low-balled her to get the work. Much of the work I did for her was on speculation. I learned my lesson. If a client balks at your fees and doesn't have a legitimate reason to pay you what you deserve (such as established budgetary constraints) then walk away!

For four clients, I charged per project and end up working for less than minimum wage as either they were so demanding by changing their mind or knew they could get someone willing to do the job for next to nothing on the hope of future work.

The good clients I've worked with either don't have any need for my services or my contact has moved on or there are political reasons why I can't get the work.

Now on to today:

1. Thank you notes for interviews (did one)
2. Call employment services to book appt for interview practice (line busy, postphone until Tuesday morning)
3. Return phone call for volunteer position
4. 3 hours prospecting
5. Call MD for skin appt
6. Call PWAC re membership
7. Prepare expense report
8. 1 hour procrastination book
9. Respond to email re Thursday meeting.
10. Run
11. Go to sister's for clothes and coupons (not home)
12. Finish reading newspaper
13. Recycle
14. Write letter to credit card company
15. Wash dishes




16. Hand laundry




17. Pack for Tuesday




18. Book bus tickets




19. IABC membership info
20. Phone super re key fob
21. Email Stefan re apartment vacancies

Good morning! I missed a few days of check-ins and want to re-establish this healthy habit. Today it seems these are God's plans for my day:

• Grant summaries, roles and responsibilities to team
• 930 chiro
  
• Agenda for tomorrow's meetings
• 2pm mtg with VH on C19
  
• 
  Grant writing.  Good progress made;more needed.
• eat on time at 730, 10, 1230, 3, 530, 8
• 5pm stop working, pack up for office tomorrow
• walk TJ, then feed him
• prep and eat dinner with J
• pay bills
• attend online Alanon meeting
• 930 bed

Mole, thank you for the starter. It made me cry, the part about remember we are all behind you. Exactly what I needed to hear right now. I'm feeling overwhelmed this morning but now I am going to put away the ipad, breathe deeply, and go start the project I am dreading. Where would we be without each other and PA? Thank you! 

Woke tired and anxious and I almost always wake that way.

Thank you for the starter Mole.

Today's list

x Prayer and reflection
x Sort purchase of new flat - main focus of today and I've no idea how long it will take
x Wash up and tidy up from yesterday
x Put on washing machine
x Take some more time to look at the things that are worrying me and do some CBT work on them
x Go out 4.30 is to homeless drop in and work there
x Buy wineglasses on the way - shop shut on Mondays
x Write journal
x Prayer and reflection
Bed and sleep
and I'm sure I've forgotten something

update 10.14

I feel confused muddled and feel I have forgotten something which is vitally important. I got all the new flat stuff done very quickly and efficiently. Now I am having a break before moving on.

update 22.40

actually I had forgotten to note checking emails and post. I also dealt not very well with my building society phoning and suggesting I was lying to them. I shall rest before dipping my pen in acid and writing to them. I am going to spend a little time reading helpful info on this site and otherwhere and them go to bed.

Peace Rexroth - who does not sound very peaceful

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.

I want to thank Mole for starting this trend.

Things I will do today

1. Go to the 5:45 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

2. Go to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting

3. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

4. Take shower

5. Go to the 8:30 a.m. telephone UA meeting

6. Go to the 9 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

7. Go to the 9:45 a.m. telephone CLA activity line

8. Cook and eat breakfast

9. Go to the 11 a.m. telephone PA meeting

10. Prayer and meditation morning and evening

11. Go to the 12 noon telephone ACA meeting

12. Go to the 1 p.m. telephone CLA activity line

14. Warm up and eat lunch

15. Go to the 3 p.m. telephone UA meeting

16. Prepare and eat dinner

17. Get dressed

18. Go to friend's apartment and scoop the poop and feed and water cats

19. Go to work at 5:30 p.m.

20. Go to the 9 p.m. online EA meeting

Thanks for letting me share

Oh thanks Mole, I'm going to be repeating that to myself as I drift off to sleep (it's Sunday in the UK). Had Wed-Fri off sick and still wasn't that well yesterday. Now going back to work feels really overwhelming, i'm so behind. I think I'll map out Mon - Weds here to make it all feel face-able.

pre-Monday: 

Pack stuff from G for CD class

Get clothes ready

Pack book to copy extract from for TA session

Make breakfast ready for morning

Send self ppt for CD class

and send Plan for CD class

and send B's wk

Do List!

Monday

Up early, into work

Get together Gen stuff

Quick re-read of CD reading

Get laptop (borrow thru to Weds)

Quick go throug ppt for CD

Take CD class

OH. 

TA/OH

If no-one comes to OH, read B's wk.- too ambitious

Get all MRs and ME summaries for P report

WRITE P REPORT- good progress made but not finished

Plan TA session

Run TA session

Copy stuff for G session - scenes from MA, scene from AaC

Get JT CD for watching on Tues

In evening - finish P report if not finished. 

Send P report to committee-having worked a 7.30 am til 7pm day I just collapsed so this isn't finished!

Write to K explaining you can now go to her meeting

re-buy theatre tickets

Write to J re. reading his work

Ditto C