Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.

Sunday 28th July 2013

24 July, 2013 - 6:47pm - jalla

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Mega-Avoidance Bender: RisingUp Checkin Sun. 7/28

RisingUp - 28 Jul 2013 - 1:03pm

 

Hi all, I'm back. Long time, no post. I've been busy working my contract job, almost 3 months now. 

Though things are better overall -- I am now dealing with yet another run of mega-procrastination. This time it is dealing with all of the TONS of important things I didn't face while I was in survival mode being homeless and jobless. It's all piled up. I want to just run. The weekends come after a full week of work, and all I want to do is stay in my room and not come out, not do all the many things that I only have time to do on the weekends!

Things like food shopping, car maintenance (I avoid this the worst: need brake repair, need oil (already 10,000 miles since last oil change: yikes! Worst ever), doctor appointments (I avoided these, and now my insurance changed meaning I now have deductible to meet and have to pay out of pocket for everything). The list goes on ... 

So I'm spending my Sunday on the computer obsessing about certain products I want to buy ... hemming and hawing about them, while the day slips away and more important errands go out the window. 

Ugh, I hate having to face my powerlessness YET AGAIN over this compulsion to avoid. 

I've slipped away from recovery PA, UA, etc. and since my church recently closed down, not reading my Bible much these days either. Not good. 

I need to do a Step 1 again. I need to find the PA Tools again. 

Thank you for all still being here despite my absence. Always grateful for the support and understanding. 

RisingUP

:-?

p.s. Sign of procrastination out of control: post-it notes everywhere, piling up with the SAME lists of things to do, over and over ... I have overwhelmed myself and clearly need to break it all down. But how? It ALL seems like first priority!!!! Esp. after piling up so long. The perfectionism strikes again. 

WB @RisingUp !!!!

clement - 30 Jul 2013 - 10:24pm
the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748

fall down seven times, get up eight - japanese proverb

bookmarks

Re: WB @RisingUp !!!!

RisingUp - 3 Aug 2013 - 1:31pm

 

Thanks Clement! :-)

 

(rising up)

vic - 28 Jul 2013 - 6:09pm

Welcome back, and sharing, you are soooooooooooooooooo not alone .

I completely identify,.... with some added resentment for always seemingly have the responsibility of having to put others first and no time for myself, which is a flat out lie because I did the same thing  even when I was alone, just easier for me to blame someone else and justify my angry feelings.

I don't know what I want, but I don't want to be where I am. Iknow I can not will myself to be better, but I can sure give up and make things much worse (the start tomorrow thinking which never happens.) I am just grateful to know we have a place to be understood and accepted, I have never found a place like this anywhere else.. thanks.

 

 

Re: (rising up)

RisingUp - 3 Aug 2013 - 1:39pm

 

 

Hi Vic,

Thanks for your post. 

Definitely helps to be reminded that I am not alone. I've been very frustrated this week, because I've tried to move certain things forward and came up against some bad luck (which just makes this whole issue that much harder). 

I've had that too, where I'd blame someone else but even alone I would avoid things. 

Yes, this is the only place I've known where this issue of avoidance and putting things off is truly addressed. I feel like this behavior is in the minority. I think I've mentioned it here in the past, but this issue seems to go along with being an introverted personality for me at least, I don't know about others here. I just see how others at my workplace interact with each other, and how they so easily face things/each other, while I stay in my own space and generally stay away. It does make me feel like I'm more different than most. 

Anyway, thanks for the welcome :)

RisingUp

clement ci - day 260 attempting abstinence, 180 from self

clement - 28 Jul 2013 - 12:01pm

@VIC thanks for the idea of the life jacket of God. I believe that. Altho in the midst of my life, i often totally forget.

I'm going to stop everything and just listen for 2-3 min to one of the songs i've put in my "Open in case of discouragement" playlist.

Abstinence from unplanned time.

  • The one thing, the only thing, i can do impulsively is write something on my todo list.
  • The one thing, the only thing, i can do off plan is recovery, something to maintain my sobriety, when tempted. I have come to believe that it is more important to maintain sobriety than to get things done.

Abstinence from relying on self. AA Big Book says to rely on God. Quoted in my bookmarks : scroll down to "AA Big Book on fears : relying on God not self-reliance:"

  • I have come to believe that it is more important to maintain sobriety of relying on God than to get things done.
    • "15 Points" point 5 says:
      5. Develop and rehearse a daily plan of thinking and acting by which you will live that day relying on God, regardless of what may upset you or how hard the old urge to rely on self may hit you.

      My Plan is this:

      1. read "15 Points"
      2. Meditate for 5 min on the attributes of God

:) ci
:) start timers
v task
:) cL
time log
quiet time
r task
s task
t task
9am church
sort tasks
j task
do tasks
put away clothes
abstinence day counts
reflection
pre-plan tmrw

12:12:54 [clement] i am on plan, but life sux
12:37:44 [clement] i listened to 2 songs partly while waiting for the 12:30 phone checkin (nobody showed) and the songs encouraged me. Now i feel neutral ;^)

12:44:03 ‹clement› i'm out of strength, so i'm gonna do my plan: 1. 15 points. 2 meditate on the attributes of god

13:01:05 ‹clement› "Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life because of me will find it." -Jesus in Matthew 10:37

When we retire at night, we constructively review our day (BB).
  • Were we resentful, selfish, dishonest or afraid?
  • Do we owe an apology?
  • Have we kept something to ourselves which should be discussed with another person at once?
  • Were we kind and loving toward all?
  • What could we have done better?
  • Were we thinking of ourselves most of the time?
  • Or, were we thinking of what we could do for others, of what we could pack into the stream of life?

THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR (everything i "did well" comes from god, either thru gifts he's given me or the way he's transformed me)

the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748

fall down seven times, get up eight - japanese proverb

bookmarks

@Clem

vic - 28 Jul 2013 - 6:10pm

Thank you. Just wondered if it would be possible to share some of your "Open in case of discouragement" playlist? thanks.

Open in Case of Discouragement

clement - 30 Jul 2013 - 10:23pm

Many of these are songs with re-affirming messages. Some are just up-beat and usually get me going. A few are hard rock.

If you want any of these songs, i have all the mp3s. probably easiest is to contact me thru this website contact form. I could also post them somehow / somewhere. They're all on youtube.

Colton_Dixon_Love_Has_Come_for_Me_Lyrics_hd720.mp3
Plumb___God_I_need_You_now___large.mp3
Chris_Tomlin___Whom_Shall_I_Fear_God_of_Angel_Armies_Lyrics_2.mp3
TobyMac_Steal_My_Show_Lyrics_hd720.mp3
Kari Jobe - Revelation Song.mp3
TenthAveNorth.YouAreMore.mp3
Lincoln Brewster - Everlasting God.mp3
Sanctus_Real___Forgiven__Slideshow_With_Lyrics.mp3
Tenth_Avenue_North_By_Your_Side_with_lyrics_HD_audio.mp3
Mandisa_Good_Morning_Official_Lyric_Video.mp3
Natalie_Grant_I_Will_Not_Be_Moved_Official_Music_Video_ptracking.mp3
Mandisa___He_Is_With_You.mp3
Toby_Mac_Jesus_Freak.mp3
Casting_Crowns_Courageous_Video.mp3
Matthew_West__Strong_Enough.mp3
Tenth Avenue North - Hold my Heart.mp3
Casting Crowns-Lifesong-02-Praise You In This Storm.mp3
Casting Crowns-Lifesong-06-Set Me Free.mp3
Casting Crowns-Lifesong-02-Praise You In This Storm.mp3
Carrie_Underwood___Temporary_Home.mp3
Kerrie_Roberts___No_Matter_What___With_Lyrics.mp3
Laura_Story___Blessings___with_Lyrics.mp3
Laura_Story___Blessings___with_Lyrics.mp3
Skillet___Awake_and_Alive__Official_Music_Video.mp3
Skillet___Savior__Official_Music_Video_HD__Option_Subtitles__English__Español.mp3
Francesca_Battistelli___This_Is_The_Stuff_Lyric_Video.mp3
Casting Crowns - East to West.mp3
Newsboys-Stay Strong.mp3
David_Crowder_Band___Never_Let_Go.mp3
Skillet___Hero__Lyrics.mp3
Toby_Mac___Get_Back_Up__Lyrics.mp3

the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748

fall down seven times, get up eight - japanese proverb

bookmarks

KF little check in Sun 28th July 1:30pm

knitfisher - 31 Jul 2013 - 2:58am

Hi,

Feeling quite low a the moment due to worry about certain things. Hoping I can reduce this by getting a coupl of things out of the way.

 

  • Send decision email to WT - inc things needed
  • draft other emails and save. MLR.
  • Budget and trf money
  • 15 mins in LR
  • 10 min in Kitchen
  • 2 x 10 mins on office piles
  • hang out washing
  • do 2 poms of study (in the garden?)
  • Lunch
  • review solicitor letters and email and make replies 

Vic 7/28/13

vic - 28 Jul 2013 - 7:35am

 Show up (done), exer, plan, follow through

USE THE TOOLS THAT WORK!!!

Thanks Jalla, just what I needed to see. Started feeling anxious, How did it get to be JULY 28THth? Lots of family changes going  and feeling like I need to make up for lost time and start an all night marathon to make up for things undone, which worked many decades ago but today I need to be humble enough to use the tools that work today.

Grateful to have a place to connect and "show up" what a miracle...thank you pa(ers).

Wishing everyone recovery today.

 

"Don't panic.

Problems
were made to be solved. Life was made to be lived. Although sometimes
we may be in over our heads - yes, we may even go under for a few
moments and gulp a few mouthfuls of water, we won't drown. We're wearing
- and always have been wearing - a life jacket. That support jacket is
called "God."

Today, I will
remember to take care of myself. When I get in over my head, God is
there supporting me - even when my fears try to make me forget."
From The Language of Letting Go by Melody Beattie
©1990

Elvira's Sunday

elvira - 28 Jul 2013 - 7:54am
Today's goal: tidy living room
  • put away Newmarket stuff
  • put away luggage from last trip
  • organise millinery stuff
  • do accounts and clear table 

jays sunday 28th july

jay - 28 Jul 2013 - 2:48am

people say motivation won't last. neither does bathing, that's why we recommend it daily

zig ziglar

thank you jalla, i wish i could believe that!

i must make a tight shedule for today

8.46 now

by 9.30 have eaten and pics from pc ready

collect together items on pc and list

take more pics keep listing using timer

tonight bath, need to be out early tomorrow

tomorrow morning email soliciter

I am ill because my mind is in a rut and refuses to leave.

Working - 28 Jul 2013 - 11:50pm


1. Heathers

2. Throw boxes down

3. Read newspapers and put them in a box.

4. tidy up room finally

5.  Gym at home?

6. Make a diet and workout chart.  

Mole's check in

Mole - 27 Jul 2013 - 7:16am

 

 Thank you for the thread starter lovely jalla

Still exhausted. And completely thrown by unexpected change in Sat schedule... Sunday...

breakfast 

market? Or K pick up 9

 ring til 10

F til 11 - order bks for S and G

bus home

12.30 walk to NH meet G take patch and bk 

2 walk home - buy groceries on way

Take stock and check in again - really need to schedule things that have fallen behind.

 

6.30 eat

skype R?

check in

bed by 11

THINGS I DID WELL TODAY

THINGS I COULD HAVE DONE BETT

THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR 

My Day Today

lennon - 28 Jul 2013 - 5:44pm

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.

I want to thank jalla for starting this trend

1. Go to the 5:45 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

2. Go to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting

3. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

4. Go to the 8 a.m. telephone OA meeting

5. Go to the 9 a.m. telephone DA meeting

6. Go to the 9:50 a.m. telephone CLA activity line

7. Eat breakfast

8. Take shower

9. Get dressed

10. Prayer and meditation morning and evening

11. Test blood sugar twice

12. Go to the religious meeting at 1 p.m.

13. Go to the 3:30 p.m. online PA meeting

14. Go grocery shopping

15. Eat dinner

16. Go to the 5:30 p.m. telephone DA meeting

17. Go to the 6:45 p.m. telephone OA meeting

18. Go to the 7 p.m. online EA meeting

19. Go to the 8 p.m. telephone CLA meeting

Thanks for letting me share