Wednesday 29th May 2013

wow, 200 days on this plan, attempting abstinence. I like that the number of days attempting goes up no matter what (even if i fail).

Abstinence from unplanned time.

• The one thing, the only thing, i can do impulsively is write something on my todo list.
• The one thing, the only thing, i can do off plan is recovery, something to maintain my sobriety, when tempted. I have come to believe that it is more important to maintain sobriety than to get things done.

Abstinence from relying on self. AA Big Book says to rely on God. Quoted in my bookmarks : scroll down to "AA Big Book on fears : relying on God not self-reliance:"

:) ci
:) start Instant Boss
:) v task
:) cl
:) time log
:) quiet time
:) r task
:) s task
:) t task
:-( 11am pa phone mtg
:) sort tasks
:) *capture all * tasks here
:) j task
prj task, skip

:) brk: dcux2
:) p job
:) sobriety first
blog f.c. balance
:) brk: biz.td
brk: log c.s.l
brk: ust lb
:) brk: sw
brk: bku lt
:) brk: email b,r,d
brk: *kal busi form added 5/14/2013 - 1 hour
brk: crit art
pud disk install - bill4 - 15 min
brk: pool - 30min

:) brk: ** mci
*lc sign form
*pud raid - 4 hrs
pud av i - 5 hours
g wrk - 4hrs

*tx - 4hrs
*nativ - 20 min
pu wrk - iDev - 2hrs
bill client ku - 30min
kuf wrk - recontact - 15 min
later: ht task
:-( put away clothes
reflection, skip
pre-plan tmrw, skip

3:18pm :
It's been 00days 00hrs 26min since i last got distracted (3min 14:48-14:52 5/29 walk thru room get stuck on tv).
It's been 00days 01hrs 10min since i last went on an off-plan bender >15min (21min 13:47-14:08 5/29 email 4d,3m,1d,6h,3d.2d,1d,4h,1h,1d,12m old,new)
It's been 02days 22hrs 39min since i last went on an off-plan bender >1hr (1hr 30min, 3:09-4:39pm 5/25 youtube q; abs his: 13,1,1,5,6 old-new)
It's been 05days 12hrs 37min since i last went on an off-plan bender >2hrs (2hrs 43min, 11:58pm-02:41am 5/22-23 qtweb; abs his: 5,14,8,6)
It's been 19days 12hrs 34min since i last went on an off-plan bender >3hrs (3hrs 14min, 11:30pm-02:44am 5/8-9 raid work binge, abs his: 25,14; corrected 5/24).
It's been 64 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >4hrs (6hrs on 3/25).
It's been >64 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >6hrs (6hrs on 3/25).
It's been 200 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1day
It's been ~300 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1week
It's been 39days 16hrs 25min since i last relied on self. (abs his: 14)

3:46pm : Day Count reflection: coming up on 365 days, 1 year, since i blew off a whole week. Feels good, but i need to avoid selfish pride. I do not want to credit this success to myself but rather what God has done to me, what God has done for me. It is only the transformation of my mind by him that has accomplished this.

THINGS I COULD HAVE DONE BETTER

THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR (everything i "did well" comes from god, either thru gifts he's given me or the way he's transformed me)

I wonder why it is so difficult to learn that taking action makes me feel good?

OK: I want to shower now and then grab breakfast. After that I will return here for a list of things to do.

respond to S

respond to T  good!

plant rosemary

read for pleasure: 45 min :-)

no dgc before 18

check V overdue!

25 paras   spent 30 minutes and got something on paper. give myself credit for good enough effort!

return library books

groceries - postponed to tomorrow

Z form

EC form yay for not procrastinating on those forms. needed to find information plus scan them and would normally have stalled at each step.

some form of exercise

 check-ins work!

Two of my clients for today have cancelled so I've got more admin time than I thought.  Lets see how far I can get

Fixed events
10.50-12.00 clients
12.15-14.00 meeting
15.00-16.30 client

other

• LAC reports
• phone book
• LAC policy

H.