Sunday 14th April 2013

Please do not leave advice or feedback.  Thank you.  Prayers welcome. 

Ideally I'd like to commit to longer than 21 days of exercise, but this is a length of time I have satisfied on at least one prior occasion, so I will start with what I know is possible for me to do.  The commitment is thirty minutes of exercise before midnight of any of the following
format: running, jogging, a combination of running-walking-jogging,
swimming, walking, attending a fitness class (something that requires me
to leave the house), stationary biking, biking, dance class, aerobic
class, yoga, karate (or other martial arts).  I am doing this because:

1. I feel that running or exercise will force me to own up to other commitments in my life, because challenges in the running sphere force me to have other commitments in my life met so that I can exercise unimpeded and feel good that my investment in myself is going somewhere.
2. I want to feel good about myself when I go outside, and
3. I don't trust myself to exercise at the end of the day or at some point before midnight unless I make the commitment here to do it.  
4. I want to move forward with my running/jogging plan to be able to run/jog for 30 minutes at a time.  I want to run a marathon at the end of this year or January of next.  (I have always wanted to run the Honolulu Marathon; I don't even know if this is something I can do, but I want to do it.)  I have year after year pledging to do another marathon and have not, b/c I did not make headway on my running plan.
5. Being accountable to others by making a commitment here, helps me to be accountable to myself. 
6. The objective is to stick to the running plan by doing at least one training unit per day of the 28-week running plan I came up with, which is a slower version of the eight-week Rodale run/walk plan.  
7. practicicing being on time with this commitment, will assist me in being on time in other areas. 
8. It will also help me to practice willpower for other activities that require energy.
9. Exercise helps me to feel comfortable in what I am doing, b/c I am not constantly fidgeting at my desk or feeling like I SHOULD be running/swimming/walking or getting out in the sun or that I SHOULD have done those things last night.
10. Exericse helps me to avoid feelings of not  being adequate, because I have confidence in myself as a person interacting with others.
11. I want to build trust in myself by committing to something small that positively affects my whole life.  Since I'm making a promise here to do it, that's going to help me to keep my promise to myself so that I have faith in myself that at some point during the day I will exericse, instead of feeling like crap because I don't even trust myself to get to the gym or go on a walk.
12. Exercise makes everything tighter, which makes me feel more comfortable with myself and helps me to be able to live with myself.
13. I want to be able to wear the clothes in my closet, and throw out the ones that are not useful to me.

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(Ran 1 minute + walked  2 minutes) X 10 + biked four minutes forward and back)

• Go for a run
• Run dishwasher
• Wash and hang out clothes while good weather lasts
• FINISH at least one hat
  • sew in edge wire
  • bind edges
  • design trim
  • add trim

Show up(done), exer. plan

Thanks for starter Jalla, I am so grateful. In my prayers yesterday, HP said to me "and what about all I did for you..."

"Recovery  is an individual
process that necessitates making mistakes, struggling through problems,
and facing tough issues.

Expecting
ourselves to be perfect slows this process; it puts us in a guilty and
anxious state. Expecting others to be perfect is equally destructive; it
makes others feel ashamed and may interfere with their growth.

Today, I will
practice tolerance, acceptance, and love of others as they are, and
myself as I am. I will strive for that balance between expecting too
much and expecting too little from others and myself."
From The Language of Letting Go by Melody Beattie

Hello!

What a beautiful threadstarter!

About a month ago I felt like things were going great.  I was maintaining my workload, I had a few hobbies and social groups that I was very active in, and eventhough I procrastinated about being involved-I was doing it.  Then I broke my leg and for the past month I have not been able to get myself to do the simplest things.  Here and there I have felt motivation, but as much as I try, I have had a really hard time, and am procrastinating as a way of life.  I need to do so many things now, because my break was bad, so I still can't work, or walk on it for almost 2 more months.  But, all of the medical bills are piling up.  There are odd jobs that I could do to contribute to paying , but I just feel sick when I think about them.  I have different hobbies I love to do, but I am procrastinating about them too.  I have 2 reports that are so overdue it is terrible- I have time and am sitting a lot now- I should b doing these.   Actually, if I could just get reports off my plate that would be a huge help.  I have been up worrying about them at night.  I just feel like a deer caught in the headlights everytime I even think about them.  So,  at least I am here and am trying to get my act together.  I know it would be really helpful if I were more consistently checking in, so that is another goal. Last, I should push myself to do at least a few minutes of a hobby each day...oh and the real last is, I need to do the rehab. exercises they are too important to put off eventhough they are rotten.  OK, onward- and thank you PA!

Thank you lovely jalla and wise Maya Angelou (there are interviews with her and some of her journals being read on the BBC iPlayer at the moment - available online for a few more days I think).

i didn't checkin Friday night and completely missed yesterday.  Checking in is grounding and I soon lose my anchor if I don't.

my routine was thrown this morning. cafe on winter hours, the alternative market missing this week. Usuall y by now I am back home and contmplating my week's veggies and getting the pick of them for lunch.  So now

Food shop

lunch

make list of things that need doing this week - and month

email curriculum to H and S

get green stuff out for kerb ccollection

rake new bbeds 

bring in washing 

4.30 walk with B

email L re next Sat

pay J's m

Feed Away file

eat

Check in 

relax

bed by 11 

THINGS I DID WELL TODAY

Tenored well and took pleasure in it. 

Washed up and put food away 

THINGS I COULD HAVE DONE BETTER

i've procrastinated about several things on my list. Paying a bill that would only take five minutes, putting the washing away - about ten minutes, putting the green out, about 5 minutes, forwarding an email and writing about a 10 word text. All really small easy jobs. I could have just about done them in the time it has taken to do this check in.

doing it better? What strategy can I use to take the wind out of the sails of my inner demand resister? 

THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR 

cool weather,MN, honking the washing line,  

edward Hopper program last night.  

WHAT I AM REALLY REALLY GRATEFUL FOR IS THIS SITE AND THE IDEA OF BOOK ENDING THE DAY, BECAUSE AFTER WRITING WHATI COULD HAVE DONE BETTER - I paid the bill, and forwarded the documents, and I also remembered that I had done a weekly review that wasn't on the list .

so now I can go to bed a little bit late but feeling much better about myself. 

people say motivation won't last. neither does bathing, that's why we recommend it daily

zig ziglar

shopping list/ decide for week/ decide order supplements

COMPLETE NOTES

read solicitor notes carefully

email sol

INK FOR COPYING

get dressed and put make up on

relist ebay

kitchen

wash clothes

arrange lift to drop notes & get HAT

go to bed at a reasonable time, start working towards a routine

REALX