Computers vs people
I would like to ask any members if they find the computer to be a major distraction for them and a reason for their procrastination. I know that having grown up with computers (my first was a Commodore 64) that I have always almost 'hidden' behind them. I'm going through my 'looking back phase' here but they have always been a reason for me to remain stationary and away from society. I used to game but never really had anybody to play with so i'd zone out and chop heads off until the evening! Since then if I haven't been 'learning' about computers i've been sitting in front of them to 'design' web sites and the like. I do it only because I can and I went to design college so I don't like the thought of my education going to waste (another story!) I don't know if really I should be in employment that involves me communicating with people more. I enjoy talking to people on the phone and tend to be spurred on by the environment I am in.
I mention this because yesterday I broke the 'drone' while on the phone to the Samaritans and had a bit of a laugh with person I was talking to. It warmed my heart a little and brought me back to life. I thought if it was around that environment most of the time it would bring me back to life.. a lot!! I am trying too hard to become 'professional' in my work and when it comes down to it I can't stand by it and take criticism very well so i've finally gotten around to thinking -'why should I bang my head against the wall, do something else' Everythings a big leap right now because i've become so reclusive. Theres hesitation and procrastination around evry corner.
Anyway, it's Friday and i'm ashamed to say that after a week of more-or-less nothing the pressure (i have put on myself) is off. I'm booked in to see a counsellor because I figure that any sound board is a start to reliving the burden.
All the best
Have a good weekend