State Bar Exam - Chatty
I did not make my goal for the State Bar exam. What's important to share is that I have no regrets about withdrawing from it. I feared I would, but I don't at all. I was completely burnt out and this did not give me a fair shot at absorbing the material. I get that now. That said, I have taken a solid week off. I have placed some higher priorities to lower my resentment toward the material: Namely losing the 40 lbs I have put on. Restoring some hobbies and personal interests that apparently mean a great deal to me (all of which were put on the back burner these past couple of years). I am capping the amount of time each evening that I will put toward this goal. I have made a deal with myself that if I stick to this program and my body and mind is responsive to the material then I will sign up for the July bar. But, I'm not going to sign up unless I'm absolutely convinced that my body and brain is up to the tasks and I'm comfortable with the progress that's been made. I don't lack discipline as it turns out. I do have a 44 year old brain. It needs more than an onslaught of law thrown at it in order to be happy. I'm learning to throw it a bone instead of forcing it to sit in a chair and do something that it doesn't want to do. That proved fruitless. It gets back at me by not memorizing what I'm throwing at it. So, the goal is team work via balance. I will let you know how it goes. Beef stew!!