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So angry with myself...

Well, it seems like I only post here when I am in a seriously bad situation. This is definitely one of those times.

I have a 10000 word masters dissertation due on Tuesday (though really needs to be done by Sunday night) and, so far, have less than 1000 words written. Why do I let this happen to myself? It is entirely predictable, yet I don't seem to have any control over my behaviour. I only have myself to blame.

At the moment, I don't know if I am going to be able to get enough words on paper - never mind a halfway decent piece of work. And then there are all the people I will have let down by failing... That is the worst part.



I love proof-reading!

Hey Caroline

That's a lot of words. I'm glad you are 10% done. I hope you have sketched out a rough outline of how you expect the rest to go. But then this won't be the first essay you've written so I daresay you're quite well accomplished at that kind of thing. Smile

I don't know if this will be of any help, but I have done a LOT of proofreading (including for PhD and Masters' dissertations) over the years and would be willing to help during Saturday and Sunday daytimes, depending on what you've got done. I may not be available on Monday and Tuesday (I don't know yet), but who knows, maybe some help in this regard will mean you can focus on just bashing out the content, knowing you have someone on the team with good grammar and spelling and a nose to sniff out the bits that become clear as mud.

Yes, you've done a stupid thing. But FGS, don't make it worse by beating yourself up about it NOW. There simply isn't time for guilt-tripping. I will help if I can. Oh, and I mean gratis. You never know, you might just manage it yet! Chin up. 

"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom." (Anais Nin)



Hello Caroline. I just wanted to say that I totally understand what you're feeling. I have a master thesis due soon too, so far since I handed in last sort of draft in june, which had way less words than the minimum required, i havent been able to write a single word. I´ve been 3 months with excuses with tutor, I even have had several appointments with tutor and graduate dept. director, in which they have asked what the hell is going on with me haha and why i dont make any progress. Honestly, I dont say much, I just say Im doing the best I can, and it's hard for me to write, period. Everytime a new deadline approaches (i keep promising I will hand in SOMETHING every 2 weeks, it hasnt happened so far) I experience so much panic and helplessness, that in order to calm down somehow I want to believe i can write a whole chapter in 2 days, but when i do that, i usually get sick with stress. Then I go to a 12 step meeting or clear my mind with exercise, and i come back to reality: I cant write half a thesis in 2 days. Now, instead of beating myself up and thinking im irresponsible or immature or stupid or whatever, instead of hating myself, recently i've tried 2 things, both with myself and the people I usually let down (ie advisor and such): acceptance and negotiation. And one day at a time. I accept I cant write so much in so little time, I accept that I might get naggings from tutor, I accept i might even be threatened with being kicked out of the program. But i also accept that I have the possibility to negotiate with them. If they force me to hand something in, I hand in an edited chapter with some minor changes. If they allow me an extension, then I do the best I can, even if its writing one new page, or anything. Or nothing. Some weeks I just go there and ask for a new extension. They get furious, yes, but they allow it in the end. And I accept that from this day on, I have the possibility to write something. I forget about the chapter, and think in terms of reading one reference article, writing one line, working 5 or 10 minutes (with timer, preferably). Thats manageable. Then I ask for an extension, as many as necessary and as many as tutor can stand, and focus on tiny accomplishments. I havent been kicked out so far. Tutor is very angry and thinks im irresponsible, yes, but hey, she's still there, and she can think whatever she wants, I know who I am, and I know I dont procrastinate because Im lazy or I want to. Thats all that matters. Today is a new day and I have the hope that i can work on my thesis 10 or 15 minutes. I have faith i will make it. If i keep coming to PA. And you can too. Keep coming :) 

sending best wishes

Hi carolinemw
I'm procrastinating a bit on getting an urgent writing task done. You're not alone! At least posting on here is getting some light in and on your situation.
In the short term, if you can get the bulk done by Sunday evening then perhaps you can confide with your tutor about this situation and your progress.
And if somehow your anger can be channelled or transformed into action then maybe this can help serve you. I'm finding the following post on this website helpful:

Tips for Getting Schoolwork or Writing Done

Plus maybe the using the check-in options on this site to break down your tasks to start tackling dissertation for today might help.
Thinking long term, I suggest not worrying about this until after you've met your currrent deadline, and perhaps using this as a wake up call to use the resources that P.A. etc can offer to help you with the recovery process and moving forward.  
Good luck!


Thanks for replying Jack. It feels a little bit better knowing that I'm not the only person in this situation.

Good luck with your writing too.




Hi Caroline

How are you getting along?  I'm procrastinating a bit on my writing today, but will log off to soon to try and get started!