Thursday May 31, 2012

Finally! Thanks to everyone for your encouragement -  Got my mammo, fasting bloodwork, and 4-hour glucose tolerance test DONE! omg that was SO hard to face - my last primary care doc ordered those tests in Jan 2010 and I blew off everything but the mammo.  I have not had sugar in my body (nor honey, maple syrup, molasses etc) since 1998 due to my eating disorders, and I was terrified I'd be like "Reefer Madness" on a 75mg beaker of the pure stuff.  I did in fact get high as a kite but the feeling was quite uncomfortable - and way too short-lived for the misery that followed when my blood sugar dropped to 51 in the fourth hour.  I couldn't wait to feel "normal" again!  And as soon as I was able to eat a little and start getting better, the crazies came on for a short while: childhood flashbacks, crazy emo, crying jags.  Fortunately nobody had to see this but God and J, both of whom have seen it before (and both of whom are glad as HECK that I don't use sugar anymore, lol!).

Anyway, anticipating that yesterday, I prayerfully set reasonable expectations for today and have been meeting them so far: 
DONE! Show up for lab work
Finish the maps (5 down, 3 to go)
DONE! Breakfast (ate 2pm after labs)
Start the listserve
Lunch (5ish)
Timecard
Check email
Return calls
OA meeting
Dinner (9ish)
Pay 3 bills
Bed 10:30

I still have another round of bloodwork to schedule Monday when the specialist's phleb returns from vaca, and an ultrasound to schedule if/when the doc, lab and insurance company can come into agreement.  With apologies to fellow PA's in these professions, the medical/insurance industries absolutely topped my 4th Step resentment list for 20 years.  Only when I finally conceded that they were keeping J alive, did I relent even a little - evidence that my resentments, fears and guilts, real or imagined, underlie my compulsive procrastination. Ergo the sheer genius of these 12 Steps. Thank God for this way of life!

"My boundaries enclose a pleasant land." Psalm 16

may JOY be with me and help me push through

Starting work a little late, but that's OK.

I am still trying to get M's data analyzed with various thresholds. This has been going for 2 days, so I really need to get through it. 

Basically, I just need to keep grinding through the thresholds. I have 5 more to do. Back after each one. (1 done! 2 done! 3 done!)

Update 3 pm:
I have finished looking at all the thresholds. I just need to make a summary graph and I will be done with this.
I also have collected RA samps

Next up, I guess I should:
Make a step-by-step plan for analyzing array data
Make an R8 plan
ID and download an RNA-seq dataset for ES cells.

3:45 am PT

Thanks for the nice starter, Lennon.

Here's my "critical" tasklist for today:
1) Followup on notices and contacts

2) Two Articles promised for Newsletter A
3) One article promised for Newsletter B

4) Evening event

Main trick is to handle 1-3 before having to leave for 4. 
Main pitfall are all the other 2do's not listed above. Important but less time-sensitive.

Followup 4:25am 1 Jun 2012 ("end of day")

Results:

1) Not as much as hoped but one potentially significant contact
2) Punted to next day (third excuse, about a week late)
3) Going to have to handle first thing in morning (this one less flexible)
4) Made it to evening event, a bit late for reception but in time for main program. 

So Friday priorities start with overflow from Thursday.