I've come to realize that my frequent lack of motivation to do stuff like practice, is because of loneliness.
Whenever I'm around inspiring people, I don't really have problems doing what I should. But I live alone and most of my study time I plan myself and do in surroundings where people come and go a lot, so theoretically I could go days without meeting anyone. Things are not that bad though. I do have a couple of good friends, and I'm also somewhat included in a larger group that throws parties and hangs out every now and then.
But I do feel that I spend more time alone than I want to. I'm somewhat afraid of asking the people I know if they want to go do something, because I feel like they have other things to do. I know they like me, but I don't always feel like I'm a priority in their lives. I'm also vulnerable when it comes to rejection, because I fear that my friends might ditch me, if I get too pushy.
That's the situation.
What I want to do, is to become more proactive and take more chances. It's so easy thinking that people should come to me, but that's not how the world works for of right now.
Be around more people
Be an attractive person (in general, not just appearance)
Have social skills, so I can get in touch and connect with people
Stay in touch (especially with new people: remember to get contact information)
My plan is to work on one of the steps at least a few times a week to start with. The 'being attractive' step is sort of already in progress, as my daily routines are things like studying what I love, working out, eating well, earning money, reading interesting books and so on. These are things that I do for their own sake, so I'll not mention them alot in this thread.
I hope this log will be a helpful tool in my social progress.