Tuesday February 21, 2012

Checking in really late because I have been kind of stalled today. I had to drive about 45 minutes to meet with a client this afternoon, then return to the office, and have not been able to get back on track since getting back at 2:30 PM.  I am here physically but mentally absent.  In part it's because I was rushing the last few days to finish the work (one of my big overdue projects) to be discussed with the client today, so I have my usual post-performance letdown wherein I don't want to do anything.  This is a problem because even though I have finished another big overdue project, henceforth designated "bop", I still have 3 more bops to work on, plus my usual load of current work which is always becoming overdue as I fail to (flail to?) keep up. 

I have also been obsessing today over my difficulty connecting with anyone, in large part due to the isolated workcentric lifestyle I have developed. Living in a not-quite-divorced twilight, ambivalent and uneasy about developing a post-marriage social milieu, I find myself thinking about old friends from my past, pre-marriage, when I presumably led a reasonably social life. But this bit of navel-gazing only adds to my procrastination, which in turn adds to my aforementioned work submersion or, more accurately, workplace submersion, just kind of soaking and sulking alone and not getting much done.  Okay, let's try to eke out a couple of hours' worth of productivity.
Goal 1: Work for a timed 30 minutes on some slightly overdue work (7:45-8:15)
Goal 2: Take a timed 10 minute break, working on something for myself other than mindless surfing (8:15-8:30)
Goal 3: Work for 30 minutes (8:30-9:00)
Goal 4: Take another timed 10 minute break, again with the goal of chipping away at something of personal interest (9:00-9:10)
Goal 5: Work for 30 minutes (9:10-9:40)
Goal 6: Leave work at 9:40
Goal 7: Do something for myself at home
Goal 8: To bed by 11:30 PM, so I can come to work early tomorrow and put in a better effort.
Back to report.

Wednesday 9.45 am

Thanks for the starter, lennon.

Well, very glad to report that yesterday was one of my better work days and I can at last see that it is possible to finish my overdue project M. It used to be that I would have stayed up very late or even all night to finish at this stage, but something has changed, whether for better or worse and I can't seem to stay up late to finish things any more. Maybe just getting too old and tired!

Instead I have rescheduled my office day (where I'll be working on a different project) to tomorrow and hope, hope, hope to finish M today. For this to happen I must work consistently again. Praying for the strength to do that.

I am shelving a lot of small stuff but trying to trust that I will get back to that later.

Hi and good wishes, all!

I'm going to use this post as a place to figure out what I MUST do today, versus what I'd like to do (or already have done) in a hypothetical ideal universe.

OK, here goes:

Done:
brush teeth, splint
spray throat and sinuses
eat something before 13:30 appointment (preferably by 11:30)
submit timecard
make sure what I wear to 13:30 appointment isn't stinky
shower, wash hair, etc
aim to be ready to leave soon enough to be on time for 13:30 appointment
13:30 appointment
research ETA for next LMcMB book

In Progress:
P.A. ck-in, bookending, make choices
job work: make progress incorporating S cts
practice having an appropriate part of myself leading the V

use balancer! (did a bunch at chiropractor appointment)

Must Do:
(all must do's for today are done)

Fully Intend to Do:
15 min. Qi Gong
10 min. clearout

Prefer to Do:
get enough done to have a feeling of good accomplishment!
make & eat ginger-garlic-miso-tofu soup & microwaved yam w/ peanut garnish
update clearout goal here at P.A.

Should Do:
load & run dishwasher
pay cell phone bill

Some Options that Move in the Direction of a Better Future:
practice Shiva Nata?
journal: when/how ping KBF?
journal: if Rally, for what?
journal: how might regress to the mean phenomenon relate to procrastination struggles/habits?
do some skimming in library book?

Some Pleasant Options for Later:
read in apa w/ pencil handy?
make progress on getting corrected list of Tai Chi form movements to useful format?

Had very productive weekend. Cleaned kitchen and a few drawers I hadn't touched in years. Started on bathroom and actually threw a few things away.

I have a mound of paperwork that it's going to take me a coupled months to sort through. Spent 2 hours on Sunday dealing with it.

Tasks for today:

Contact Leticia, Margaret Readings

Finish proposal (about 3 hours) noon to 3

Propecting - 3 - 5 pm

Laundry - 5 - 7 pm

Dinner & wash dishes - 7 to 8 pm

Go for walk - 8 - 9 pm

Clean bedroom - 9 to 10 pm

Filing and sorting paper - 11 to 12 pm

Check back in once a day

Ready to start :D. This Pomodoro technique has been a life-saver. Whoah!!!!

Today, I:

- Will go to TD.

- Before that, study Hall Effect.

- Do some pomodoros on playing (this is hard to start, so I will do it right away).

- Some pomodoros on Pd tutorial

- Talk by phone to suspend service.

- Talk by phone to reactivate service.

- Go to pay for V to the bank.

________

Fear is only a thought and as a thought you can ignore it.

The Big 4
PAI
Sleep
Meditate
Stay in touch

Tasks - 12 Total
call M
call N
call NSm
call precinct
insurance
activate cards
Mint
dinner reservations
student ID
Prof S
go through e-mail
sched something with R 

I am hoping for a better Day. I have been sick and depressed. Work up feeling better today.

I may try phone check in if home at 11am. Have never done phone metting  in  not sure to do or say?

Prayer and Meditation

1. Work on M.Plan for Home.
2. Feed and  walk Dog 
3. watch v on Dog trng
4. Clean off PC Desk. 
5. Buy R. stn.
6. take mesayurements for dedecorating B.rm
7. make shopping redor list
8. Clean and put dishes away.
9. put numbers in cell phone
10. emails Cousin A. and L
11. Call Nelsons send in weekly stats
12. Take night time meds
13. Buy Dish scrubber
14. Read destruckafcaton

Hi!

Thanks for the threadstarter, Lennon! :)

6am Up, walk puppy, feed puppy, eat breakfast, take meds.

Goals for today: 8:45 drive to 9:30 therapist appt, After appt, go to craft store. If still feel well enough, go to grocery store. Putter around, nap. Hopefully see friend in afternoon, then Art Class tonight.

So, I have a 2-hour chunk before going to therapist. Maybe I can run the clothes washer? :)

Have a great day, everyone! :)

Recycler

Thank you, gals & guys, for being here! :)