New to PA and I need help! I am in trouble =/
As people would say "crazy in debt" I am basically in a situation like that. I am a High School senior and unlike most high schools we have crazy amount of work. It wouldn't actually be that bad if I had time managed and started my work ahead of time but I procrastinated so hard that I am basically what people would say "in debt"
I owe teachers soo many assignments its not even funny. I there is a little over a week until the marking period is over and when i have to have all my stuff in. I keep telling mysel that I can do it and complete all my assignments but either I am too tired and just give up and or I start working on it and realize how in over my head I am and then give up because I am so overwhelmed.
As a result of this, I've skipped many days of schools (I am at the limit, I am afraid that if I miss any more days I'll get in serious trouble with the school) - I dont want to get my parents in trouble because this isnt their fault. It is mine, I should be more responsible and I know I am better than this but I am in such a rut that I just lose all hope.
Its not as easy as just telling me just to go to class because I am avoiding all my teachers. My god =( the situation is soo bad. I feel so bad for my parents because they are so proud of me. I got into all the colleges that I heard back from and they think that I am working really hard. If they find out that I was skipping school and missing assignments it would just destroy them. They would be so dissapointed in me and they would loose their trust in me for a very long time. Im finally in a good place with my parents and I dont want to ruin the relationship we have now. If they found out I would lose my car and my driving rights, my job (i keep teIlling them that I can handle both school and work -which i probably can- but screwed up and now im in over my head)
I am so overwhelmed and Im depressed but I just need to get out of my current situation and then i'll be okay.
and I think to myself. Once i get out of this situation, i will learn from this mistake and never let a situation get this bad. but then im worried - what if I ever "relapse" and find myself in a similar situation but worse!?!
I've always been a procrastinator. I put off my work until the last minute but back then i was still able to get my work done. Now I can't even get it done! AH HELP!
I know compared to other people my situation doesnt seem that bad but I am so stressed by this. I have lost all confidence. All my peers at school have a running joke that I am never in school, that i must have moved or something. and on the days that i return back to school i feel so unconfident and self concious.
PLEASE HELP! I AM SO DESPERATE!