Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.
Back from dinner and test. I am sequestering myself to the following activities:
*scan Country wife for instances of how Phantomina is a female horner, the game Horner is playing, his objectives, control he has over the rules, important differences.
*scan Phantomina for ways in which she is like a female horner, the game she is playing, her objectives, control she has over the rules, important differences.
*write notes, while I'm doing this about the paper.
*print out notes and write paper based on these.
*exercise: either walking 30 minutes or running 5 minutes/walking 1 minute X 5
*leaving to go work on this work outside the house
*French paper, due tomorrow for first draft
*brushing my teeth, flossing, using the endtufted brush, listerine
I had a good day. I am making progress. I still need to focus at work on my PROJECT. Definately tomorrow...
My alarm woke me up at 7:00 am and I hopped out of bed at 7:05 am! I got to work on time again! I wish I had bought those new batteries months ago. I had been relying on my internal clock to wake me up like it used to, but I have changed / gotten older and my internal clock doesn't work anymore. I needed that alarm clock, and now that I bought batteries it gets me up early and to work on time!
I made the bed
I cooked the last 2 eggs (dated March 9) Fried eggs and toast for breakfast
Took out the trash
I walked over to the other side of my cubicle to say "Good morning!"
Made Lean Cuisine for lunch
Drank lots of water
Worked a full day helping with backlog (but NOT on my major PROJECT...)
Stopped near work to get gas INSTEAD of trying to make it home on 1/8 of a tank
FILLED UP tank instead of only buying $10 worth because gas is cheaper near home
Answered phone when I got home
Ate a big salad with dinner
Read from "The WORD among us"
Added newspaper flyers from mail into recycle bag
Continued to read "The War of Art"
"Jesus, I believe that you are Lord! I choose to follow you and hold fast to you this Lent! Help me to be faithful to this choice in all that I do today."
I feel unable to cope with reality. I don't know what's going on. I don't know exactly what day I'm on, but I'm still follwoing through with the no-stalking, no dating sites, exercising each day (or at least making a concerted effort to do so, which counts).
I am freaking out because I really felt defeeated after a fone call I made to someone in program who called me back to ask me if I'd been slacking off for weeks. I told her, "No,that's not the case." But it really was very triggering, like the phone call made me feel like she was just blaming me for my circumstance, which is not at all what I need to hear right now. Like I need positive support in my life. My life is already hard enough.
One of the more uninformed things that she postulated was asking me if I were justa fraid of losing a 4.0, which is utter nonsense, b/c I have not got that, and that's not my fear at all. So I just felt like she was way, way off the ball with that one. I should've just ignored her phone call and wrote about it here or called someone, but instead I called back and felt madly triggered. I guess some clarification is okay, but I think it was clear enough whenI said I was freaked out because of the testing and the papers due. Like....that's not necessarily something you are much better able to deal with even if you do prepare ahead of time, as I had. I mean, even in having done some work I was still freaking out because simply put have FIVE straight days of testing and papers due would be stressful for anyone, and I didn't like that I felt like she was turning this into a self-assesment thing which is not what I need.
This is wayyy too complicated, b/c if I ever do this again I'm going to use 43 things to keep track. It helps to have the scrutiny hear or feel like I'm under scrutiny, but ---eh, I'm dissociating and I have to at least read and prepare for a test. I'm going to brush my teeth a little and get dressed now.
Crazy week here with both my bosses trying to wrap things up before they go away with their families next week. So, next week the rest of us get to breathe . . .!
Today's list is short:
- yoga after work
- physio before bed
Feeling confidant I can pull through the next 4 days. . .it's hard when I'm SOOO excited to get home!
Finished my last classes today. Kind of sad about the one- it was so fun to discuss Greek literature with insightful people.
Things to do today- -Vitamins & #1 #2 #3 #4 -#1 #2 #3 #4 #5 #6
-First developing paragraph!!! -First chunk of paragraph
-Second chunk of paragraph
-Third chunk of paragraph
-Respond to 3 bm emails -Respond to private message on thread -Write check -Make up envelope -Mail it in -Call JR! -Read to Connor -Night time routine as well as relaxing time with long distance friend. :D
Compulsive procrastinating is a lonely activity. The more we procrastinate, the more we isolate
ourselves from other people and the more alienated and different we
feel. We need people, but we do not like ourselves, and we fear that
others will reject us.
What a relief to find a group of other people with the same problems and
feelings! We are accepted, understood, and loved. We find that we are
not so different after all.
The PA fellowship exudes a sense of warmth and support. It is a safe place
to put aside masks and express honest feelings. There is healing and
strength. Meetings, online chats and phone calls have given many of us a deeper
experience of belonging than we have found anywhere else. We are all
accepted as we are and where we are in our personal development.
No one tells us what to do in PA. Through the fellowship, we learn what
has worked for others and we find relief from our loneliness.
Bless our fellowship, Higher Power.
Adapted From Food for Thought: Daily Meditations
BASICS:
MY BASICS: checking in; support calls (1x); affirmations; gratitudes; reading; check calendar; email my 6 most important tasks; voicemail;
exercise #1; manage A; manage D; use "tracking time"/unschedule worksheets and timer; use timer
Was out of town in San Francisco on business yesterday. Got 4 hours sleep the other night which I can't do that well any longer - downside and upside of getting older/wiser. Makes me feel hungover the next day. Sleep and eating healthy is so critical to my staying on plan and resisting impulsivity.
Affirmations (said aloud as well):
I choose to show up and start my projects, 15 to 30 minutes at a time.
I set my mind to things and I complete them -- in 15 to 30 minute periods.
First, thanks to 11th_hour for the props. It's much appreciated. By the way, I do read others' posts here. I don't comment much, because of the way it complicates you updating your posts. But I think about you, admire you and wish you the best.
Yesterday was a good day. I checked off all my daytime tasks, including the grueling workout. I wound up doing a little over 4 miles, including two 1-mile speed repeats. I didn't quite get to 7 minutes on either one, but I was a lot closer than I've ever been, and a lot closer than I expected too. Apparently, there is something to these training programs. It'll be interesting to see if I can actually beat my personal best in the 5k. I haven't picked a race yet, but it'll be in three or four weeks, I imagine. On to it...
Today I woke up at 9:30 am and I am writing this CI at 10:30 am, a vast improvement to actually see the morning. Yesterday was a washout, a guilty, miserable under-the-duvet day. I am determined that today will be better. I have a volunteering meeting at 1pm and attending that will be the triumph of the day. I will work on my production goal (see below) but I will also be gentle with myself as I work. Easy does it but DO IT!
Goal : 4 hours
Work completed 4 hour(s) 0 minutes YAY
Including (* = priority)
***Study extension (20 mins) DONE
*** Meeting 1pm (2 hours)
***Email re Sunday trip (20 mins)
**Email S
***Decorating (20 mins)
*Poetry (1 hour mins)
**Job hunting (20 minutes)
**Study (20 minutes)
**Paperwork (20 mins) - Sort through and list tasks
Morning routine (20 mins)
To do (non work)
* Morning routine: Schedule/Brunch/Dressed/ Teeth << Current task
Finding a way late check in
9.10 pm Friday
At the end of a fairly productive day at my client's office. Managed to reconcile some deadlines and work that was overdue.
Making some progress now on domestic tasks even though I am pretty tired.
And feeling more optimistic about some difficult family stuff.
The chat box was so much help yesterday, thanks to everyone who has supported me. It's just great knowing I'm not alone in this.
fudoshin: checkin 8:58pm
Please do not leave advice. Thank you.
Back from dinner and test. I am sequestering myself to the following activities:
*scan Country wife for instances of how Phantomina is a female horner, the game Horner is playing, his objectives, control he has over the rules, important differences.
*scan Phantomina for ways in which she is like a female horner, the game she is playing, her objectives, control she has over the rules, important differences.
*write notes, while I'm doing this about the paper.
*print out notes and write paper based on these.
*exercise: either walking 30 minutes or running 5 minutes/walking 1 minute X 5
*leaving to go work on this work outside the house
*French paper, due tomorrow for first draft
*brushing my teeth, flossing, using the endtufted brush, listerine
*shower
*eating/drinking/taking vitamins
(fudo_shin)
Prayers for you, and good wishes for your papers and tests.
11th_hour March 10
I had a good day. I am making progress. I still need to focus at work on my PROJECT. Definately tomorrow...
My alarm woke me up at 7:00 am and I hopped out of bed at 7:05 am! I got to work on time again! I wish I had bought those new batteries months ago. I had been relying on my internal clock to wake me up like it used to, but I have changed / gotten older and my internal clock doesn't work anymore. I needed that alarm clock, and now that I bought batteries it gets me up early and to work on time!
I made the bed
I cooked the last 2 eggs (dated March 9) Fried eggs and toast for breakfast
Took out the trash
I walked over to the other side of my cubicle to say "Good morning!"
Made Lean Cuisine for lunch
Drank lots of water
Worked a full day helping with backlog (but NOT on my major PROJECT...)
Stopped near work to get gas INSTEAD of trying to make it home on 1/8 of a tank
FILLED UP tank instead of only buying $10 worth because gas is cheaper near home
Answered phone when I got home
Ate a big salad with dinner
Read from "The WORD among us"
Added newspaper flyers from mail into recycle bag
Continued to read "The War of Art"
"Jesus, I believe that you are Lord! I choose to follow you and hold fast to you this Lent! Help me to be faithful to this choice in all that I do today."
May God bless all of us this Lent.
fudoshin: checkin : 1:55pm
Please do not leave advice. Thank you.
I feel unable to cope with reality. I don't know what's going on. I don't know exactly what day I'm on, but I'm still follwoing through with the no-stalking, no dating sites, exercising each day (or at least making a concerted effort to do so, which counts).
I am freaking out because I really felt defeeated after a fone call I made to someone in program who called me back to ask me if I'd been slacking off for weeks. I told her, "No,that's not the case." But it really was very triggering, like the phone call made me feel like she was just blaming me for my circumstance, which is not at all what I need to hear right now. Like I need positive support in my life. My life is already hard enough.
One of the more uninformed things that she postulated was asking me if I were justa fraid of losing a 4.0, which is utter nonsense, b/c I have not got that, and that's not my fear at all. So I just felt like she was way, way off the ball with that one. I should've just ignored her phone call and wrote about it here or called someone, but instead I called back and felt madly triggered. I guess some clarification is okay, but I think it was clear enough whenI said I was freaked out because of the testing and the papers due. Like....that's not necessarily something you are much better able to deal with even if you do prepare ahead of time, as I had. I mean, even in having done some work I was still freaking out because simply put have FIVE straight days of testing and papers due would be stressful for anyone, and I didn't like that I felt like she was turning this into a self-assesment thing which is not what I need.
This is wayyy too complicated, b/c if I ever do this again I'm going to use 43 things to keep track. It helps to have the scrutiny hear or feel like I'm under scrutiny, but ---eh, I'm dissociating and I have to at least read and prepare for a test. I'm going to brush my teeth a little and get dressed now.
checking in late
Crazy week here with both my bosses trying to wrap things up before they go away with their families next week. So, next week the rest of us get to breathe . . .!
Today's list is short:
- yoga after work
- physio before bed
katia 3/11
Feeling confidant I can pull through the next 4 days. . .it's hard when I'm SOOO excited to get home!
Finished my last classes today. Kind of sad about the one- it was so fun to discuss Greek literature with insightful people.
Things to do today-
-Vitamins & #1 #2#3 #4-#1 #2 #3 #4 #5#6-First developing paragraph!!!
-First chunk of paragraph-Second chunk of paragraph
-Third chunk of paragraph
-Respond to 3 bm emails
-Respond to private message on thread-Write check-Make up envelope-Mail it in-Call JR!-Read to Connor-Night time routine as well as relaxing time with long distance friend.:Dtracy-la check in thurs march 10
READING
Fellowship
Compulsive procrastinating is a lonely activity. The more we procrastinate, the more we isolate
ourselves from other people and the more alienated and different we
feel. We need people, but we do not like ourselves, and we fear that
others will reject us.
What a relief to find a group of other people with the same problems and
feelings! We are accepted, understood, and loved. We find that we are
not so different after all.
The PA fellowship exudes a sense of warmth and support. It is a safe place
to put aside masks and express honest feelings. There is healing and
strength. Meetings, online chats and phone calls have given many of us a deeper
experience of belonging than we have found anywhere else. We are all
accepted as we are and where we are in our personal development.
No one tells us what to do in PA. Through the fellowship, we learn what
has worked for others and we find relief from our loneliness.
Bless our fellowship, Higher Power.
Adapted From Food for Thought: Daily Meditations
BASICS:
MY BASICS:
checking in;support calls(1x);affirmations; gratitudes; reading;check calendar; email my 6 most important tasks; voicemail;exercise #1; manage A; manage D; use "tracking time"/unschedule worksheets and timer; use timer
Was out of town in San Francisco on business yesterday. Got 4 hours sleep the other night which I can't do that well any longer - downside and upside of getting older/wiser. Makes me feel hungover the next day. Sleep and eating healthy is so critical to my staying on plan and resisting impulsivity.
Affirmations (said aloud as well):
I choose to show up and start my projects, 15 to 30 minutes at a time.
I set my mind to things and I complete them -- in 15 to 30 minute periods.
Have a fabulous Thursday
tracy-la
I have relaxed and got a
I have relaxed and got a few things done.
Vic 3/10/11
Showed up on Wednesday by mistake, posting here to make it "official" .
kromer 10:10 CI
OK, another busy day!
Need to:
*Check on expts
*Genotyping PCR + gel
*order primers
*Start staining
*Send out NEJM, work 30-40 min on other journals.
*Email S, call D
Scribbler's Thursday CI 8:26 a.m.
First, thanks to 11th_hour for the props. It's much appreciated. By the way, I do read others' posts here. I don't comment much, because of the way it complicates you updating your posts. But I think about you, admire you and wish you the best.
Yesterday was a good day. I checked off all my daytime tasks, including the grueling workout. I wound up doing a little over 4 miles, including two 1-mile speed repeats. I didn't quite get to 7 minutes on either one, but I was a lot closer than I've ever been, and a lot closer than I expected too. Apparently, there is something to these training programs. It'll be interesting to see if I can actually beat my personal best in the 5k. I haven't picked a race yet, but it'll be in three or four weeks, I imagine. On to it...
Prep
Get upat 6 (6:30)Make bedExercise
Coffee, paperHealthy breakfastCheck-insSightreading practiceMorning
Update QuickenSend queryMusic marketingCall 1 re: new11Call 1 re: cruiseCall 1 re: govtexitAfternoon
Healthy lunchDraft GMP/u B at 2:45Evening
My Day Today
I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.
I want to thank FindingNewStrength for starting this trend.
Thing I have done today
Went to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meetingThings I will do today
1. Test blood sugar twice
2. Prayer and meditation morning and evening
3. Take shower4. Get dressed5. Make bed
6. Finish Chapter 8 work
7. E-mail my instructor for help with the Excel chart8. Send out Al-Anon literature for today9. Eat brunch10. Eat dinner11. Go to the Internship12. Go to the 8 p.m. face to face NA meeting13. Clear the couch and chairs
14. Clear the tables
15. Clear the floors
16. Go to the 9:45 a.m. telephone CLA meetingThanks for letting me share
Its been a long time
6am-Work
2pm- home, vacume
2:30 wash dishes
3:00: work out
4:00: fix dinner
short and simple for now
FindingNewStrength CI
Today I woke up at 9:30 am and I am writing this CI at 10:30 am, a vast improvement to actually see the morning. Yesterday was a washout, a guilty, miserable under-the-duvet day. I am determined that today will be better. I have a volunteering meeting at 1pm and attending that will be the triumph of the day. I will work on my production goal (see below) but I will also be gentle with myself as I work. Easy does it but DO IT!
Goal : 4 hours
Work completed 4 hour(s) 0 minutes YAY
Including (* = priority)
***Study extension (20 mins) DONE
*** Meeting 1pm (2 hours)
***Email re Sunday trip (20 mins)
**Email S
***Decorating (20 mins)
*Poetry (1 hour mins)
**Job hunting (20 minutes)
**Study (20 minutes)
**Paperwork (20 mins) - Sort through and list tasks
Morning routine (20 mins)
To do (non work)
* Morning routine: Schedule/Brunch/Dressed/ Teeth << Current task
Post for list
Yoga
Tomorrow
Collect P.