Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.
It has been eight (8)months since I checked-in. Occassionally, I will continuiousy check in for a few weeks then something occurs and I'd cease. It has been (3)three years (43) fourty-three days since I became a member. Becoming a member enabled me to understand myself better, by looking back, without literally going back. The change is necessary for the future. The fisrt thought is how I can openly give to others, but avoid myself. This isn't so strange to conclude, because when I review the prior check-ins, it is clear what was going on. Therefore, becoming a member has certainly been a blessing. Changes begins today.
I just completed a task I've been procrastinating on for nearly two years. In under an hour. *face palm*
Trying to see it as a victory, "Yay, I did this!" and not an opportunity for negative self talk. But the negative self talk is really trying to creep in.
Studies have shown that procrastinators who forgive themselves fare better than those who dont.
It is a victory to overcome procrastination, task by task. Do a victory lap of the staduim. You are a hero/heroine, particularly because you finally defeated one of your old foes in battle. The war hasn't been won yet so keep at it but do celebrate, you deserve it!
Thanks (((Phylomom))) for starting us!!! (((Katia))), you and (((Connor))) are in my thoughts & prayers.
Took a mental health day today from work and really needed it. My bosses are........., and I'm angry at myself for letting them get to me.
Don't think I have the will to go find "snowy/toughy" today.
I am in the midst of a problem with my thinking. I feel like I grew up among evil people, who grew up among evil people. I have a hard time knowing if someone is just screwed up or are bad. There are 2 people that I am close to & trust (no one here is included or even thought about) that I would say their soul/core is good. I'm trying to understand this, shouldn't "bad" people be the murderers, rapists, etc.?? This is something I never spoke about. I'm willing to have my thinking changed. Grateful to be able to voice it here.
The only things I will do today r:
-resumes
-cook Yoffee food
-call J.G
-call G.F.
-willingness to drink water
Wishing you all an HP directed day!!
♥"Careful the wish we make, wishes are children. Careful the path they take, wishes come true..." From "Children Will Listen," by Stephen Sondheim.♥
Thanks hope :) He seems a little better. Tricky cuz there's nothing I can do except run the humidifier and give lots of hugs.
I'm not sure what you're getting at, though I definitely have had those feelings about people. I'm very logical- I think "if-then" statements alot. I didn't understand why "good" people I knew continued to be friends with my son's father even though he raped me. It didn't (doesn't) make sense to me. Did that make them "bad" people too? Or if they are "good" and find it "acceptable" that he did that then am I mistaken?
I think you would "feel" the difference. Sure, give people the benefit of the benefit of the doubt, but if it seems unhealthy, stop. I had to "unfriend" all of them, because I felt a line was crossed.
It's a very fine line since there are also good people who don't make the best choices. I had to separate the fact that I liked my roommate but not necessarily her actions. However, what she was doing was not harming anyone.
I believe that the difference between common-or-garden screwed up and out-and-out evil is one of concience. Martha Stout, PhD, who wrote The Sociopath Next Door, says that about 4% of the population do not have a concience as we know it. That is one in twenty-five! By no means are all sociopaths rapists or murders but they are ruthless and self-centred and cannot feel empathy or remorse. The rest of us are just fallible to various degrees.
If you have survived a rocky childhood then take a gentle look at yourself. As well as the pain you could choose to recognise the fine qualities you have developed because of your difficulties. You have a great deal of compassion and a loving heart. Please give yourself the gift of a survivor's pride.
Just my opinion of course but I say: It doesn't matter - if they are toxic to you, get them out of your life. It's not your fault if they are screwed up, and it's not your job to fix them :) It's your job to take care of yourself first.
Jo
"I'm tired of pretending I'm not a total freaking rock star from Mars." - Charlie Sheen
Thanks for the sunglass dude! Idk why but I was tickled by him.
Everyone is so awesome! It's so nice to see everyone doing a GREAT job and being so positive.
I'm STILL doing a meh job with check-ins. Luckily my mom is visiting this weekend and I'll be able to get things done. It has been extra difficult because Connor is coughing alot and unable to sleep.
Things to do today -Vitamins & #1 #2 #3 #4 -#1 #2 #3 #4 #5 #6 #7 -Read Plato (switched topics) -Essay Thesis -Essay outline it was SHIT though
-ALL parts of nighttime routine- dishes/bottles/cut up fruit/pick out clothes
GOAL- Don't time binge on parenting forum. This my stem from my insecurity about being a mom and worry about messing things up. Gotta remind myself I'm doing a great job.
OK, I'm back to working out in the mornings. Now I have to work on getting there earlier - again! I got there at 6:45 this morning, which is way too late, but I still got to work at 9 so that rocks. Traffic wasn't bad at all.
The problem I've been working on all week seems to be resolved so I'm kind of at loose ends this morning. I'm ready for this weekend's changes. I need to work on my new-ish project but I'm unmotivated. I'm missing the adrenaline charge from working on broken stuff, now my regular work seems boring. I have no huge deadlines, so I'll have to find a way to give myself a fake sense of urgency by setting my own deadlines. Somehow that doesn't seem to work as well as running late on a real deadline. Maybe I'm not a procrastinator after all, I'm an adrenaline junkie.
Anyway, I have my todo list, I've been to the gym, attended a meeting, and read my email. Now to get started on that project again. Oh, yeah, and I have to talk to somebody about another project. I'm dreading that so I'll go ahead and do it now.
Update 5:18 pm na na na boo boo I did everything on my list. Everything for work anyway. This is unusual for me, as I'm still learning how to plan well and stick to my plan, so I had to boast a little
Have a great evening!
Jo
"I'm tired of pretending I'm not a total freaking rock star from Mars." - Charlie Sheen
OK, I'm feeling totally unmotivated. So, I'll try to keep my initial list short, so I can have a feeling of accomplishment in finishing.
*Emails (inc. emailing about recruitment weekend) (working on this now)
*PCR strat and r.d. strat
*orders (working on this now) *expts stuff *Nature genetics (working on this now)
*start staging
Scheduled stuff: lunch w/ brother 1pm, class 3-5, dinner w/ recruits 6-8:30ish, bible study 9-11 (or take recruits out after dinner, depending on how stuff goes
Starting with nature genetics, orders, and emails.
Nothing is troublesome that we do willingly. —Thomas Jefferson
Some of the necessary things we do are tiring and annoying. Many of these
things we must do regardless of how we feel about them. Doing dishes day
after day can be a tiresome job, but no matter how much we hate it, it
must be done sooner or later. We might discover, if we look hard enough,
how chores like this can actually be enjoyable, if we do them right.
Perhaps dish washing is a time for listening to music and singing along,
or an opportunity for conversation between family members as we help
one another.
Our willingness to look for the hidden treasure and opportunities in tasks we might
otherwise consider dreary will never fail to reward us.
What opportunity can I see in my next chore?
From Today's Gift: Daily Meditations for Families
BASICS:
MY BASICS: checking in; support calls (1x); affirmations; gratitudes; reading; check calendar; email my 6 most important tasks; voicemail;
exercise #1; manage A; manage D; use timesheet and timer
Affirmations: I set my mind to things and I complete them.
I choose to show up and start my projects, 15 minutes at a time.
I didn't do much rehearsing at all last night, preferring to read a book and watch TV. I may regret that during today's show. Perhaps I will practice the less-familiar numbers beforehand, at least. No time to run today, although the plan calls for a hill workout. And the evening is complicated, with two kids' activities at the same time. I'm not quite sure how I'll manage it. Meanwhile, the usual writing work needs to be done. Off we go...
My goal today is 3 hours and 40 minutes work. I have an interview for the volunatry position in 2 hours time so by the time I have ironed my clothes, travelled, taken an interview and returned I will have taken up most of that. Even if I haven't I will cut myself some slack as interviews are stressful.
It is a great company and I hope they will let me work there. It will really perk up my CV and ensure my skills are up-to-date so fingers crossed.
This morning I have also been offered more volunteering work with a company I worked with last year. This is also great for my CV.
Whoops, wrong day!
Whoops, wrong day!
It could be worse!
It could be worse! It could be the wrong year! :)
Could be worse. . .could be raining!
Young Frankenstein ftw.
Today
It has been eight (8)months since I checked-in. Occassionally, I will continuiousy check in for a few weeks then something occurs and I'd cease. It has been (3)three years (43) fourty-three days since I became a member. Becoming a member enabled me to understand myself better, by looking back, without literally going back. The change is necessary for the future. The fisrt thought is how I can openly give to others, but avoid myself. This isn't so strange to conclude, because when I review the prior check-ins, it is clear what was going on. Therefore, becoming a member has certainly been a blessing. Changes begins today.
((missyi))
Welcome back!
(missyi) Welcome back!
Hope we keep seeing you here!
Hilarious
I just completed a task I've been procrastinating on for nearly two years. In under an hour. *face palm*
Trying to see it as a victory, "Yay, I did this!" and not an opportunity for negative self talk. But the negative self talk is really trying to creep in.
That's my check in for today!
re: Hilarious
Studies have shown that procrastinators who forgive themselves fare better than those who dont.
It is a victory to overcome procrastination, task by task. Do a victory lap of the staduim. You are a hero/heroine, particularly because you finally defeated one of your old foes in battle. The war hasn't been won yet so keep at it but do celebrate, you deserve it!
Yay, you did this!!!
Good for you!!!
re: hilarious
Good job! and you've realized something - you must re-learn how to enjoy success. That is something that many of us have a problem with!
Jo
"I'm tired of pretending I'm not a total freaking rock star from Mars." - Charlie Sheen
Finding a way check in
10.10 am Friday
Meeting commitments.
Dealing with emotional and physical problems.
Busy, running late. Field day today, then weekend away in Melbourne.
Back here Sunday or Monday. Hope you all have wonderful weekends!
Late check in
It's already been a busy day . . . work, class, work again and, shortly (5:00), yoga . . . so the list is short :-)
I did not walk to work this morning :-( I was late getting into my shower (lingered too long abed!) and therefore didn't have time.
Today:
- yoga class
- physio before bed
Vic 23/4/11
mediabat 9.33 AM
Thanks for starting Phylomon.
Reward (complete at least 5):Natural awakening for better recall
hope4meandu day 32
Thanks (((Phylomom))) for starting us!!! (((Katia))), you and (((Connor))) are in my thoughts & prayers.
Took a mental health day today from work and really needed it. My bosses are........., and I'm angry at myself for letting them get to me.
Don't think I have the will to go find "snowy/toughy" today.
I am in the midst of a problem with my thinking. I feel like I grew up among evil people, who grew up among evil people. I have a hard time knowing if someone is just screwed up or are bad. There are 2 people that I am close to & trust (no one here is included or even thought about) that I would say their soul/core is good. I'm trying to understand this, shouldn't "bad" people be the murderers, rapists, etc.?? This is something I never spoke about. I'm willing to have my thinking changed. Grateful to be able to voice it here.
The only things I will do today r:
-resumes
-cook Yoffee food
-call J.G
-call G.F.
-willingness to drink water
Wishing you all an HP directed day!!
♥"Careful the wish we make, wishes are children. Careful the path they take, wishes come true..." From "Children Will Listen," by Stephen Sondheim.♥
Thanks ((hope)) and your question
Thanks hope :) He seems a little better. Tricky cuz there's nothing I can do except run the humidifier and give lots of hugs.
I'm not sure what you're getting at, though I definitely have had those feelings about people. I'm very logical- I think "if-then" statements alot. I didn't understand why "good" people I knew continued to be friends with my son's father even though he raped me. It didn't (doesn't) make sense to me. Did that make them "bad" people too? Or if they are "good" and find it "acceptable" that he did that then am I mistaken?
I think you would "feel" the difference. Sure, give people the benefit of the benefit of the doubt, but if it seems unhealthy, stop. I had to "unfriend" all of them, because I felt a line was crossed.
It's a very fine line since there are also good people who don't make the best choices. I had to separate the fact that I liked my roommate but not necessarily her actions. However, what she was doing was not harming anyone.
Thoughts. Glad you felt comfortable to share.
screwed up or evil?
I believe that the difference between common-or-garden screwed up and out-and-out evil is one of concience. Martha Stout, PhD, who wrote The Sociopath Next Door, says that about 4% of the population do not have a concience as we know it. That is one in twenty-five! By no means are all sociopaths rapists or murders but they are ruthless and self-centred and cannot feel empathy or remorse. The rest of us are just fallible to various degrees.
If you have survived a rocky childhood then take a gentle look at yourself. As well as the pain you could choose to recognise the fine qualities you have developed because of your difficulties. You have a great deal of compassion and a loving heart. Please give yourself the gift of a survivor's pride.
screwed up or evil?
Just my opinion of course but I say: It doesn't matter - if they are toxic to you, get them out of your life. It's not your fault if they are screwed up, and it's not your job to fix them :) It's your job to take care of yourself first.
Jo
"I'm tired of pretending I'm not a total freaking rock star from Mars." - Charlie Sheen
katia 3/3
Thanks for the sunglass dude! Idk why but I was tickled by him.
Everyone is so awesome! It's so nice to see everyone doing a GREAT job and being so positive.
I'm STILL doing a meh job with check-ins. Luckily my mom is visiting this weekend and I'll be able to get things done. It has been extra difficult because Connor is coughing alot and unable to sleep.
Things to do today
-Vitamins & #1 #2 #3 #4-#1 #2 #3 #4 #5 #6 #7-Read Plato (switched topics)-Essay Thesis-Essay outlineit was SHIT though-ALL parts of nighttime routine- dishes/bottles/cut up fruit/pick out clothes
GOAL- Don't time binge on parenting forum. This my stem from my insecurity about being a mom and worry about messing things up. Gotta remind myself I'm doing a great job.
Journey 11 am & check out
OK, I'm back to working out in the mornings. Now I have to work on getting there earlier - again! I got there at 6:45 this morning, which is way too late, but I still got to work at 9 so that rocks. Traffic wasn't bad at all.
The problem I've been working on all week seems to be resolved so I'm kind of at loose ends this morning. I'm ready for this weekend's changes. I need to work on my new-ish project but I'm unmotivated. I'm missing the adrenaline charge from working on broken stuff, now my regular work seems boring. I have no huge deadlines, so I'll have to find a way to give myself a fake sense of urgency by setting my own deadlines. Somehow that doesn't seem to work as well as running late on a real deadline. Maybe I'm not a procrastinator after all, I'm an adrenaline junkie.
Anyway, I have my todo list, I've been to the gym, attended a meeting, and read my email. Now to get started on that project again. Oh, yeah, and I have to talk to somebody about another project. I'm dreading that so I'll go ahead and do it now.
Update 5:18 pm na na na boo boo I did everything on my list. Everything for work anyway. This is unusual for me, as I'm still learning how to plan well and stick to my plan, so I had to boast a little
Have a great evening!
Jo
"I'm tired of pretending I'm not a total freaking rock star from Mars." - Charlie Sheen
I Can Do This I WILL Do This
Go through an complete Paper work on dining table
Go through and complete paperwork on coffee table
email Ohio friend 3 times
Not look at anything having to do with JM
Text Money to John J. no matter how hard it seems to do
Stop telling myself "I'll do it later."
Mail stuff to insurance people
Call Maria
day 3-3
a catch-up day.
read 15 min x 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8,9,10,11 -don't know why this is stressing me
shower
write 20 min + 20 min + 20 min -scary times
round 2 write 20 min + 20 min + 20 min -eeeks
round 3 write 20 min + 20 min -almost done u can do this
round 4 write 20 min + 20 min -so close, cant wait to be here
edit
print
email
get to class on time. leave 1hr early to be safe. thank u. enjoy the experience of walking to the bus.
eat dinner.
kromer 10:10 CI
OK, I'm feeling totally unmotivated. So, I'll try to keep my initial list short, so I can have a feeling of accomplishment in finishing.
*Emails (inc. emailing about recruitment weekend) (working on this now)
*PCR strat and r.d. strat
*orders (working on this now)
*expts stuff
*Nature genetics (working on this now)*start staging
Scheduled stuff: lunch w/ brother 1pm, class 3-5, dinner w/ recruits 6-8:30ish, bible study 9-11 (or take recruits out after dinner, depending on how stuff goes
Starting with nature genetics, orders, and emails.
Nothing is troublesome
Nothing is troublesome that we do willingly.
—Thomas Jefferson
Some of the necessary things we do are tiring and annoying. Many of these
things we must do regardless of how we feel about them. Doing dishes day
after day can be a tiresome job, but no matter how much we hate it, it
must be done sooner or later. We might discover, if we look hard enough,
how chores like this can actually be enjoyable, if we do them right.
Perhaps dish washing is a time for listening to music and singing along,
or an opportunity for conversation between family members as we help
one another.
Our willingness to look for the hidden treasure and opportunities in tasks we might
otherwise consider dreary will never fail to reward us.
What opportunity can I see in my next chore?
From Today's Gift: Daily Meditations for Families
BASICS:
MY BASICS:
checking in;support calls(1x);affirmations;gratitudes;reading;check calendar;email my 6 most important tasks;voicemail;exercise #1;
manage A; manage D; use timesheet and timerAffirmations: I set my mind to things and I complete them.
I choose to show up and start my projects, 15 minutes at a time.
tracy-la
Scribbler's Thursday CI 8:15 a.m.
I didn't do much rehearsing at all last night, preferring to read a book and watch TV. I may regret that during today's show. Perhaps I will practice the less-familiar numbers beforehand, at least. No time to run today, although the plan calls for a hill workout. And the evening is complicated, with two kids' activities at the same time. I'm not quite sure how I'll manage it. Meanwhile, the usual writing work needs to be done. Off we go...
Prep
Get up at 6Make bedExercise
Coffee, paperHealthy breakfastCheck-insMorning
Update QuickenMusic marketingSend queryMake arrangements for this eveningInvoice BNDo 1 BN (if possible)Afternoon
Healthy lunchPack for show2-4 airport showP/u C at 5 pTake C to French (stay?)P/u B from soccer (get someone else to keep him?)Healthy dinnerFun w/kidsD/o kids at 8 or soRead, relaxLeavinghome March 3, 2011
The day is almost over, but I should still do a few things
1. Verify Dates & Rooms and make calendar
2. Clean dishes3. Attain enlightenment.
4. Put Textbooks, Flyers and Trunks in bag
5. Brush teeth
6. take medicine
7. Download "iProcrastinate" podcasts
8. Write notes from today's classes
9. Make excel file for class notes
My Day Today
I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.
I want to thank Phylomon for starting this trend.
Things I will do today
1. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting2. Take shower3. Get dressed4. Prayer and meditation morning and evening
5. Go to the therapy group at 9 a.m.6. Go to individual therapy at 10:157. Eat brunch8. Pay 7th Tradition to PA9. Renew a book10. Go to my Internship at 1 p.m.11. Type the minutes from the business meeting12. Study for the quiz tomorrow
13. Test my blood sugar twice
14. Eat dinner15. Go to 7 p.m. face to face NA Home Group meeting16. Go to the 8 p.m. face to face NA meeting17. Post and send out Al-Anon literature for today
18. Do numbers
Thanks for letting me share
FindingNewStrength CI
My goal today is 3 hours and 40 minutes work. I have an interview for the volunatry position in 2 hours time so by the time I have ironed my clothes, travelled, taken an interview and returned I will have taken up most of that. Even if I haven't I will cut myself some slack as interviews are stressful.
It is a great company and I hope they will let me work there. It will really perk up my CV and ensure my skills are up-to-date so fingers crossed.
This morning I have also been offered more volunteering work with a company I worked with last year. This is also great for my CV.
FindingNewStrength Checkout
I have the position. Yay! Only a volunteer but it brightens my prospects and it will do wonders for my confidence.
YAY !
(((FINDINGNEWSTRENGTH - CONGRATULATIONS!!!)))
♥"Careful the wish we make, wishes are children. Careful the path they take, wishes come true..." From "Children Will Listen," by Stephen Sondheim.♥
CONGRATS
"I'm tired of pretending I'm not a total freaking rock star from Mars." - Charlie Sheen
Phylomon
Didn't get much accomplished yesterday. I commit to getting more done today.
- MP
- TFS new project
- email T schedule
- exercise
- go to CT
- deliver computer to Cheryl
- Mail to Anthony
- deliver stuff to Kevin
- NI analysis
- ER diagram- DF diagram