New Here --- For the 2nd time
I discovered, joined, and posted on this site in December 2008. Like many, I was overcome with relief learning that other people were suffering from chronic (and clinical) procrastination and were experiencing the same challenges and obstacles as was I. Unfortunately, for whatever reason, I lost interest and haven't participated since (at least until now).
Well, I'm back. Needless to say, nothing in my life has changed since I left in Dec '08. I'm still coasting by, doing the bare minimum, avoiding anything uncomfortable that can be avoided, and covering up using excuses, lies, and deception.
Here I am, quickly approaching middle age (current age=34) and I have the self-discipline of a preteen. I have no control over my behavior. And...here's the irony...I'm a PHD-trained psychologist! I have all the insights in the world (I even published an article on "self-control failure" in a peer-reviewed journal) and I HAVE NO ANSWERS, NO SOLUTIONS.
It's almost 5 f*cking AM and I've done nothing but watch mindless youtube clips since 10pm. Oh, did I mention that I'm 3 weeks late on a make-or-break project. This f*cking sucks! At this point, I would gladly pay someone to follow me around with a cattle prod. At least I would get some exercise.
Anyway, thanks for being here 2.5 years later.