New Here --- For the 2nd time
I discovered, joined, and posted on this site in December 2008. Like many, I was overcome with relief learning that other people were suffering from chronic (and clinical) procrastination and were experiencing the same challenges and obstacles as was I. Unfortunately, for whatever reason, I lost interest and haven't participated since (at least until now).
Well, I'm back. Needless to say, nothing in my life has changed since I left in Dec '08. I'm still coasting by, doing the bare minimum, avoiding anything uncomfortable that can be avoided, and covering up using excuses, lies, and deception.
Here I am, quickly approaching middle age (current age=34) and I have the self-discipline of a preteen. I have no control over my behavior. And...here's the irony...I'm a PHD-trained psychologist! I have all the insights in the world (I even published an article on "self-control failure" in a peer-reviewed journal) and I HAVE NO ANSWERS, NO SOLUTIONS.
It's almost 5 f*cking AM and I've done nothing but watch mindless youtube clips since 10pm. Oh, did I mention that I'm 3 weeks late on a make-or-break project. This f*cking sucks! At this point, I would gladly pay someone to follow me around with a cattle prod. At least I would get some exercise.
Anyway, thanks for being here 2.5 years later.
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Welcome Back, MSS!
Glad you're back. :-)
im new here but i am inspired by the supportive environment here. it makes me feel less hopeless. there is something about being surrounded by others who know my exact battle with this. it makes me feel at home instead of being ashamed. it allows me to lose focus on beating myself up for these flaws and focus on the momentum of change.
wish ya the best and welcome back.
Welcome back, this is the reason I keep showing up, I am too afraid if I leave, that I will come back 2or 3 years later. That happened to me in another program. Another experiment I had was thinking if I could hit a "bottom", "then" i would find a motivation to recover. That did not work either. The only requirement is a desire to stop procrastinating, and I maintain that desire by showing up and connecting with others of like mind.
This procrastination disorder does not discriminate. No one is immune, but there is hope
Yep, it's really...
REALLY HARD! And so incomprehensible, especially when you feel that you have a decent, conscious, grasp of the causes of procrastination.
I was feeling completely hopeless about my situation (I"m also 34 with a phD - Entomology not Psychology - so I definitely relate with your situation) this morning and am so thankful for this group. I have to say that, with PA, I've had a lot more good moments (I can't say good whole days) than I have in the past 20+ years. I just have to hold onto those successes and believe that I can multiply them.
Stick around here and try some of the techniques. Come to vent, whatever you need to do...
I am new as well
Welcome back :-) I don't think it matters that you are tackling the same issue 2.5 years later. There are certain aspects of our character that we will likely be dealing with all our lives. They are our personal challenges . . . just keep on working at them when you have the strength to do so (they seem to hit hardest when we are at our weakest emotionally), and remember that this is only one small part of who you are! I'm sure you have many wonderful qualities as well, so try not to be too hard on yourself.
Welcome Back MSS!
We won't be afraid of being sweet to ourselves. - Her Space Holiday
Welcome back MSS
Actually, I just joined about a week ago, but from one member to another, welcome. I haven't met that many psychologists, but from my limited experience I suspect many of them go into psychology in part to discover solutions to their own quandries. It sounds like that at least somewhat describes your situation, too.
I guess there's a difference between intellectually knowing what you should do and being able to do it. I'm not trying to be critical at all -- the same statement applies equally to me, as one of my favorite ways to procrastinate is to study about how to stop procrastinating. But hopefully, somehow, we can all help eachother get a little closer to a procrastination-free existence, or at the very least, learn to live with ourselves the way we are. I think participating here is a step in the right direction and I look forward to interacting with you here.