Okay, I give up.
Hi. I'm Janet. I'm smart, independent, and completely sucked under in procrastination. I'm sitting here in my office, staring at a long to-do list, in a panic that one of my clients will call me and ask for something. But each time I make a move to accomplish something, my heart races, my head hurts, and I start looking around the room to find something, ANYTHING, that will keep me from having to start. My desk is dusty? Whew! I can dust! The dog needs to go out for a walk? Hooray, I'm saved! I'll take any excuse not to do what I need to. Oh, and that dusting thing? I can look at it and worry about it, but since dusting is a "good" thing, I can't actually do it. So I just sit and feel guilty. As a result, I am (duh!) way behind on deadlines, in trouble with my best clients, in a constant state of panic, and teetering on the edge of financial ruin.
I need help. Well, mostly I need understanding, some way to work all this out without being considered a) insane or b) just butt-awful lazy. After fighting this for 50 years (c'mon, who else actually put off showing up for storytime in Kindergarten??), I'm too worn out to go it alone. Please, please help me find a way out!