Hello (I am a newcomer to PA) Appreciate Support
I am very new - actually brand new to PA and am responding to the question about WHY I want (need) to join Procrastinators Anonymous (PA). Being from the Sacramento, CA area, there are no PA meetings here, so I found your website when I was looking on the Internet. I have never done any on-line "meetings" or anything like this before - on the computer, that is. I'm in 12-step recovery (sober in AA for over 27 years, and Al-Anon for over 21 years) and go to those "live persons" meetings. But as I say, I've never done any on-line meetings before.
Anyway, I feel like I'm doing a Step 1 (and probably Steps 2 and 3). As noted above, I am in Alcoholics Anonymous and Al-Anon too, and know the steps work on those things so I have faith they can work on my problem here which is: I am a procrastinator and never knew what to call my problem in this regard. I am ALWAYS late to everything - appointments, jobs, job interviews, social engagements, meetings with friends, everything. I have lost jobs, friends and am afraid to even plan anything with anyone because I know I will be late. Because of losing jobs, it has also affected me financially, obviously. And I feel so bad being so inconsiderate (late) to employers, co-workers, friends, family members, etc. And also when I am late, I often am dishonest about why - I make up excuses why I am late such as: "I was stuck in traffic because of a car accident (when there was no car accident", and other excuses and lies. Or I will often just cancel or change appointments because I know I will be late or because I don't have the money to go because I have lost yet another job from my tardiness. I do get retirement income, but have tried other little jobs to supplement my income since my retirement is not enough each month. I have even lost lovers/partners because they cannot handle my "flakiness" or at least it made them very angry with me. I feel like such a "flake" because my behavior HAS been flaky. Yet ironically, I get mad at people who are late with me or show up late for something I invite them to.
Anyway, from what I have read on your program's website, it seems/feels like your program could be very helpful to me and I am willing to try anything or DO anything, at this point. I am willing to go to any length and would appreciate any help and support offered. Also, I guess I should also look for a sponsor but not sure how to go about this.
'Sorry this is rather long but I am new to this and will try to keep my emails shorter from now on. It also helped me to write out my "problem" to really see the affects it has had on my life.