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Wednesday December 1, 2010

Happy Wednesday

HAPPY HUMPHDAY!!!

Have a Great Proactive Day

Peace

Smile Laughing Wink

clement ci

went running. feel great. thanks, god.

next right action: decision to make w/ software, not clear what is best. need focus and not perfection.

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the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748

"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb

tracy-la late check in on Weds Dec 1

Today was a tough day. This move has thrown off my usual routine. I am surrounded by boxes and chaos. And undone work at the office.

I had a nonprofit Board meeting that I could've left early but I think I wanted to use it to (1) show up and (2) to procrastinate productively. Then I had a parent teacher conference. So not a great work day. Decent kid day for my 2nd job.

Then my schedule got thrown out of whack. Haven't exercised in almost 2 weeks.

At least I'm checking in now.  Basics not done till now.  Gratitude - done.   Prayer - done. Affirmation - done. Check calendar - done. Plan (didn't do it today - but will plan out the few hours left in the evening). 

 

 

tracy-la

Findingaway check in 9.22 am

Ok, things are a little difficult as several tasks have become pressing and I feel a bit overwhelmed, but need to get some order into the day. Should not have kept reading over breakfast.

Also dealing with some other guilt and fear over not being able to do everything by the end of this week: the job application, finish the report and go into the office tomorrow - would like to let go of this as it's just not possible to do all 3.

I plan to:

  • email G and K
  • go for bike ride (exercise)
  • do cleaning (~ 1 hour)
  • fix up money for M and JG
  • spend 1 hour on my job application
  • look at YA stuff on own and with M
  • do 2 hours minimum on B report - this totally fell by the wayside
  • go to meditation group 5 pm - didn't do this either because I was so late getting to some of the other stuff
  • dishes - this will get done later
  • music with L 7.30 pm - got cancelled

'I try to take one day at a time, but sometimes several attack me at once' Laughing

Thank you all for being here and thanks to lennon for starting the thread.

Check in 6.40 pm - there were lots of distractions today - the piano tuner came round, also my husband's friend who now comes to use the shed even when my husband isn't here! But it was me too, could have done more.

Tomorrow will have to work in the chat box if I am to do this job application, which is due tomorrow - feel bad about letting the report slide - do I really want a different job i.e. work for a company rather than for myself from a home office - still not sure - lots of different feelings. On the good side at least I've sorted through some of my confusion enough to focus and make the effort.

Also tomorrow - want to make an early start and not start reading at breakfast. 

Garu 1/12

Bit late with this today (5pm), but since yesterday it has been a bit of a mixed bag. Ended up completely messing up the bedtime routine, not switching off to go to sleep until well after 2am instead of the intended 11pm. Similar story after waking up this morning, wasting a good (well, bad) hour in bed before getting up. However, the day has gone well since then. Been in to work for a couple of hours, been into town for a few bits and pieces (new book for time log, hooray!) and ended up going home early because someone I was supposed to work it couldn't make it in.

And now I am home, so first up is the to do list!

  • Fill in time log in book
  • Check e-mails
  • 30 minutes preparation for work tomorrow
  • 30 minutes working on dissertation (x2)
  • 30 minutes working on script piece (x2)
  • Break for evening meal
  • Tidy floor

I think that's all at the moment, but let's give this a try. Should be enough to get me through the evening!

katia 12/1

Whoa it's December! Very excited at everything I got done yesterday. Could have probably gotten everything done but then I would have been up until 1 or 1:30 and I generally get woken up by the small one around four so. . .yeah.

To Do today
-The few things leftover from yesterday
-Vitamins/Fe#1/Bp#1
-Fe#2/Bp#2
-Read Ch. 17 Sect 8
-Review W16L2
-Reading quiz
-Activity
-PS#38Woo!!!
-Envelopes for thank yous
-Finish thank you cards
-Look into financial aid app
-Research housing/childcare
-Look into possible schedule
-Call about class
-#1 #2 #3 #4
-Put clothes away
-Get books out of attic?
-H2O #1 #2 #3 #4 #5 #6 #7 #8
-See about getting N64 to work
-Look into supplement
-Sling/Bottles?

Not sure what else, back in a bit.
Some things are added as to-do items, some like pills are just to keep track because its way easy to forget things like that. Added the H2O because I'm breastfeeding and need to remember to drink more than I normally would. Etc.

Wednesday with the Scribbler

Prep
  • get up at 6 (overslept an hour, just couldn't do it this morning)
  • make bed
  • exercise
  • sweeps
  • coffee, paper
  • checkins


Morning

  • Update Quicken
  • Clean off desk
  • Music marketing
  • Biz writing seminar
  • Call 6 on C articles //////
  • Send 2 queries

Afternoon

  • Record w/NC
  • File 1 BN
  • Rewrite moment

Evening

  • Run (?)
  • Healthy dinner
  • Read, relax
  • Bed by 10:30

hope4meandu checkin (11:00AM)

Hi friends,

Read the shares today and am thankful to be around you guys. Thanks Lennon for the starter.

So far, it's almost 11:00AM and I'm at work and have for the past 1.5 hours doing my own stuff and being brazen enough to not even hide it from my bosses. K, feeling depressed. This is where things get hard, where I have to self-generate work, when it's not being given to me. So I will start with the files and work from there.

Also, because of what Katia shared, I will open up the credit card statement on line, not look at it, but open it up.

HP believes in us, even when we don't - :* :kiss:

♥Prayers & guidance needed & appreciated for my Yoffee's emotional & physical healing.♥

Vic 12/1

Show up (done) Ask HP for next right action. Basics (done)

Weather is horrible and I need to get out, so of course I am procratinating, need to check and see forcast for the dy and decide when to leave. Dec. 1st my goals are to face the dreaded paperwork with the help of HP and my supports. Thanks for being here.  

My Affirmation Today:As our thinking changes, we start expecting something better. As we awaken from our  fog, we notice the  the indignities we live with. This new awareness can be painful, yet unless we see the problem, we can't correct it. or as someone once said:

What happens in VAGENESS, stayes in VAGENESS.

 

kromer 9:55 CI

Yesterday was bad. But today can be better! I'm getting started a little late but I've already checked email and had prayer time.

Scheduled: blood donation 1-2 pm

MITs for today are:
*Financial stuff
*NI plan, update doc (have made some progress on this, will do more soon)
*Orders , turn in form and money

Other tasks are:
*Check on expts, cf
*Read 2 papers (will do this soon)
*prereg
*finish contacts

*Look at slides

12.1 - ian's journal, daily renewal, to-do list

Yesterday was grueling; I struggled off and on all day with impulsivity, but I stuck with it, I "kept coming back." I was a little downhearted last night, feeling like I hadn't accomplished enough.

Looking so closely at my own actions, and also informed by the check-in lists and chatbox writings of others here, I'm beginning to see more clearly how avoidance and trying to do too much are like an alternating current within me. I move from one to the other seamlessly. They are both based in my love of control/power, and my fear of not having control. 

That's all for now; I want to go to work. 

DAILY RENEWAL

  • I'm powerless over perfectionism, procrastination, intensely uncomfortable feelings (fear, despair, etc), and the various substances and behaviors I've used to cope with those feelings.
  • I'm powerless over under-earning, under-being, hiding from reality, living small.
  • I can't manage my life. I quit. I'm out of management.
  • I want to be sober today. For work issues, these are the inner-circle behaviors I want to avoid:
    • sleeping to avoid work/reality
    • using my sexuality to avoid work/reality
    • working without a clear plan -- a prioritized to-do list, a time-boxed calendar
    • working outside the PA Chatbox -- e.g., without bookending each task
    • staying in vague, unstructured time during business hours 
    • impulsive decisions about what to do, or work on, during business hours
    • failure to record hours with a timer during business hours
    • failure to estimate how much time a task will take 
    • failure to scope a project
    • engaging in perfectionism: seeking immunity from disapproval/judgment via a strategy of producing nothing until I feel total mastery over the subject, and then chipping away at a deliverable until I'm certain it is unassailably perfect. I'm not sober if I'm exceeding my time estimates more than 3x-4x.
  • I'll do whatever's necessary today to walk a path that allows me to be useful.
  • Only higher power can keep me sober, but I need others to connect to higher power — and other people can help me see things I won't otherwise see, and can help me be accountable.
  • this is just for today; tomorrow I can go another way if I so choose.
  • I turn my will and my life over to walking whatever path the truth — the dharma — reveals to me.
  • in the next 24 hours, I'm not planning to do anything I would be ashamed of.
  • obstacles ahead: (1) wanting to know everything and do too much, instead of accepting that today, the right work products on my "Musts" list are deliverables that get done within today's time, however imperfect and incremental they may be.

TO-DO LIST 

EXCELSIOR!

- recovery call 1 (must keep dialing until a real person answers)

- call 2 (must keep dialing until a real person answers)

- call 3 (must keep dialing until a real person answers)

- do celebratory dance when call 3 concludes

 

OH. YEAH, WELL THERE *IS* WORK:

Musts:

- client #2: respond to email re clean-air project

- client #2: 5 tweets

- client #2: respond to email re web strategy 

- client #2: microcontent: continue identifying sharable text on pages for LG

- client #1: finish daily site report, catch-up edition


- client #2: clean-air call @ noon
 

- client #2: notes re convo w/ RA

- bizdev: send contact note, dammit.

 

Maybes:

- client #2: request list of contacts for all offices

- client #2: write juke factoids / tweets / shares

- client #2: respond to SP email

- client #2: beta site: review/comment

 

PERSONAL

- eyeglasses - replace lenses

- get dinner started

- couple loads o' laundry

 

OTHER RECOVERY

- look for service opps

- daily renewal

- exercise

- journaling

- meditation

- meeting

- morning prayer

- readings

- 1 hour stepwork

I suck

Last night I was up until 1:00 am shopping online for Christmas presents I prolly won't buy.  I'm exhausted.

My enormous project grows bigger as the deadline looms closer; I'm scared and worried.  God, please help me stay in this present moment and do one paragraph at a time.  Please help me to let go of perfectionism.  Please please please help me to stay in Your will today.

you sound exactly like me. 

you sound exactly like me.  I waste time on the computer and I don't know why.  I certainly don't have time to be on there; I have too much to do.  Which is exactly why I do it.  I don't want to do all I have to do.  The task seems insurmountable, so I just stall as long as I can.

(firefly)

Thank you for sharing, I am sure many of us can relate, I know I can.

Your share reminded me of the strange Phenomena I noticed about myself, in PA an other groups. In PA, I would get this feeling that since I haven’t completed  “ fill in the blankxxxx” already I somehow could not “start” now, I would become frozen and panicky.. I would have that same crazy thought in oa, if I got on the scale and gained 1 pound, a normal person would say, “time to cut back a bit”, and my brain would say “time to eat more”. I have not weighed myself for 4 years because of that because if I lost weight, my brain would say “time to eat more” and if I stayed the same.  It is healthier for me to just look at what I “eat” and my clothes. I am finding “tricks” that work with my “distorted thinking” in PA . The first “trick” is “showing up” . Keep coming back. You are not alone. Also one sentence at a time is better than nothing if you can’t get the whole paragraph in. I have used a new technique “the swiss cheese method” (of course it is a food- ha ha).  I don’t have to start with the “introduction” I can start with “the conclusion” and anything in-between and then piece things together. Thanks for being here and sorry for the way you feel about yourself, I don;t think of you that way.

no, you don't.

what would HP have you know about it's embrace of you? My guess: that in every single moment you are precious and unconditionally loved.

How would HP have you be, as you turn toward the Now and whatever it calls on you to do? My guess: Be kind and gentle with your suffering — hold it with the love you'd give to your children.

Vicious self-talk is, let's just say, familiar to me. I need to remind myself of the above about 100 times a day. (100 times an hour, sometimes.) 

Thank you (Ian and MD)

MD tried to convince me to change the subject line (because I do NOT suck, I know he's right), but I refused.  Perhaps seeking pity?

This affirmation is so much better than pity.  It feels like balm to my soul.  Thank you Ian, for such gentle words.

clement ci

thanks for being here.

first things first: treadmill with ccm.

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the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748

"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb

My Day Today

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.

Thing I have done today

Went to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

Things I will do today

1. Go to the 8:30 a.m. telephone PA meeting

2. Take shower

3. Get dressed

4. Eat breakfast

5. Go to the doctor

6. Go to meditation group

7. Prayer

8. Work on the paper

9. Eat dinner

10. Go to work at 5:30

11. Make bed

12. Wash dishes

13. Recycle boxes

Rexroth Check In

Thanks for starting the thread lennon. I was just about to.

Done:
up prayer and reflection
long supportive chat on phone with friend
out for food shopping
a long time sorting banking from yesterday - it was a good idea to leave it overnight until I in a better mood - it is almost sorted - saved new details in secure way
dealt with emails and post
phoned ISP regarding supply

Todo
French study
tidy table and mess of banking and other notes
and whatever

Regards Rexroth

Rexroth Check Out

Done:
Lots of emails and stuff
French study
Bath and washed hair
Cleaned up

Todo:
Prayer and reflection
Bed and sleep

Night Folks

Rexroth