Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.
October 20, 2010 Wednesday
From "The Wisdom of the Room" Michael Z
http://www.thewisdomoftherooms.com/
"A God small enough for me to understand wouldn't be large enough for me to trust."
Overcoming the "God" part of the 12 Step Program
What a stumbling block the "God" thing was for me in the beginning of my
recovery. Having been raised catholic, I was afraid of God and after a
while rejected the whole idea outright. I mean, how could there be a
God if children got cancer and wars in His name still ravaged the
world? And now I was told that my very life and recovery was dependent
on my ability to forge a relationship with God? What was I going to do?
recovery. Having been raised catholic, I was afraid of God and after a
while rejected the whole idea outright. I mean, how could there be a
God if children got cancer and wars in His name still ravaged the
world? And now I was told that my very life and recovery was dependent
on my ability to forge a relationship with God? What was I going to do?
The key for me was reframing the God concept as simply a power greater
than myself. This put the mystery back in for me, and suddenly I didn't
have to understand how God worked, and I didn't have to explain
anything either. My proof of God was now clear enough - God clearly
could do something that I alone couldn't do - relieve me of the desire
to drink and use.
Today my concept and understanding of God doesn't get clearer, it gets
more expansive. I've become more accepting of God's will, and time and
time again find that things often work out for the best - despite what
I initially thought. I've stopped trying to explain who or what god is
and know that the infinite reality of the divine will always be beyond
my finite understanding. I now know that a God small enough for me to
understand wouldn't be large enough for me to trust.
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clement ci
thread starter quote is very meaningful to me.
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came cuz i was stuck. now i'm unstuck.
thank you god.
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the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748
"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb
tracy-la check in on rainy l.a. wednesday
It wouldn't be so bad when it rained if the traffic weren't so rough.
1. Check in - show up Done
2. Gratitude list - Done
3. Self affirmations - Done
4. Reading - Done Today's was on "detaching with love" - no time to write it out today but perhaps later...
5. Checked calendar - done
6. Plan to plan - done
Have a great day everrone and thanks so much for being here.
Detaching with Love - How does this relate to things we procrastinate about or try to control?
Sometimes people we love do things we don't like or approve of. We react. They react. Before long, we're all reacting to each other, and the problem escalates. When do we detach? When we gt hooked into a reaction of anger, fear, guilt, or shame. When we get hooked into a power play - an attempt to control or force others to do something they don't want to do. hen the way we're reacting isn't helping the other person or solving the problem. When the way we're reacting is hurting us.
tracy-la
today list redux
I am grateful for God presence in my life which guided me to this
fellowship. Establishing a routine is my goal in the next months. It
would allow my day to flow better and make sure there is a time to
attend to all that matters to me. The hardest so far is facing fear
everytimes I plan my day or contemplate doing a specific task I,ve been
procrastinating on. Avoidance has been a coping mechanism for so long.
Before admitting to myself that I am a Procrastinator, I would never
have thought of myself as fearful. Lazy, yes, fearful, no. It's very
hard to let go of it and trust God.
“You block your dream when you allow your fear to grow bigger than your faith.”
Mary Maning Morrissey
5h00 wake up
dress
Luath housetraining
coffee
checkin--->6h00
6h00-8h00
serenity prayer
start thread
plan day
barn choreslaundrybreakfast
checkin---> 9h48
8h00-12h00
commute
drop movie video store: on my way home
decluttering challenge (desk at office)
ACAA financial statement (2009-2010):startedcheckin---12h03
12h00-16h00
check work email
email contact list to acowriting ACAA report
meet Mike
email SA for report
checkin--->16h30
16h00-20h00
decluttering challenge: remaining filing at office
timesheet
commuterelax: chat with John and play with pupbarn chores
supper
checkin--->19h56
relax
bedtime--->21h00
Carpe Diem
Journey 10:50 ACK &
How in the heck did it get to be almost 11 am?! I had a 9 am conference call, read email, then fell right off the face of the earth for an hour. I'm back now though and it's not too late to have a good day. I'm still in my sweaty gym clothes, so I will go get cleaned up and dressed in 'work at home' clothes and then make my todo list for the rest of the day.
Later!
UPDATE 2:45 much better once I got the todo list done and starting checking stuff off.
Jo
'You become what you think about most of the time.' - Brian Tracy
Scribbler's Wednesday CI
Prep
get up at 6make bedexercisecoffee, paperhealthy breakfastcheckinsMorning
Update QuickenClean off deskEmail e-blogger re: showDo 2 Outlook11 intvwsFile 1 BN (innovation)Afternoon
Lunch w/BJam w/Nathan(postponed)Call 4 re: Outlook11 ///Evening
Just to make sure people who don't believe in higher powers or God feel accepted here: I don't have a higher power or feel the need for one. For me, the value of Procrastinators Anonymous resides in the online mutual self-help group, specifically, the daily check-in threads. There's something very powerful about having a group of people, even nameless, faceless, virtual people, to whom I am making myself just a little bit accountable for not procrastinating and getting all my stuff done. Or maybe it's that I like to feel proud of myself when I'm able to publicly check off all or even most of my to-dos for the day. Whatever, that works for me. I pass on all the steps and the spiritual aspect. If anybody else feels uncomfortable with higher powers or the rest of the conventional 12-step approach, rest assured: There is value here and you can mine it without doing all that other stuff. It has helped me enormously and I intend to keep visiting here and posting regularly. Everyone is welcome to do all the praying you want. I'm not going to criticize. But I do feel obliged to state that there is another viable way. I hope my position will be accepted and won't attract a tremendous amount of witnessing, much less attempts to have me barred from the site as I've experienced elsewhere. I'm not going to make a big deal of this. I just feel I should let others who may feel likewise know that they are not alone. True believers and doctrinaire 12-steppers, your tolerance is appreciated.
Crazybug CI
Computer issues yesterday so didn't get much done for work. Will start with bookkeeping since it is the most concrete of tasks that i have before me and completing those tasks will give me a 'push' to move forward on other things.
Feeling a deep well of avoidance today. Going to try to keep afloat...
kromer 9:40 CI
For today (will try to ge through as many of these as possible but probably won't have enough time to get through all of them. MITs are bold):
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Cancel committee mtg*Email DC (will do this soon)
*Prep RA and order more (will do this after dinner)
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dinner w/ CE*
try SCF staining*Read 3 papers
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Quick look at Kitl isoforms
*check on expts, change food*emails, papers (working on this now)
*Call CH (will do this after dinner)
*financial stuff
*
Get papers to readOK, starting SCF staining, in breaks I'll work on getting papers to read.
My Day Today
I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.
Things I will do today
1. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting2. Do homework
3. Post Al-Anon literature for today
4. Go to the 12 noon telephone DA meeting5. Go to the 1 p.m. telephone CLA meeting
6. Go to the 3 p.m. telephone CLA meeting
7. Go to the telephone PA check-in at 10:30 & 3:30
8. Make bed
9. Wash dishes
10. Eat brunch
11. Eat dinner
12. Take shower
13. Get dressed
14. Go to work at 5:30 p.m.
15. Clear couch
16. Clear tables
17. Clear floor
To Do For Today - 10/20/10
Wow - I'm pumped to see your lists for the day and the committment to get stuff done. I'm happy to add my list to the group's.
- apply to 4 jobs(got to 3 of them)- sign up for online video training- finish up Flash training (halfway done)
- walk for an hour- pick up car accident report
- send out one invoice (to friend)
- go to the dentist for three cavitiesIt's ambitious for me, but certainly not impossible. See you all at the next check-in!
A.-
BC 10/20
Marie, thanks for starting the thread!
Work 8AM-5PM:
-signoff plan for project 3 [DONE]
-Review old EIEC setup
-Look into using LISN
-Go into lab and check EIEC setup
-Find EIEC requirements
-Run RSD MC and save results of CPV [DONE]
-Run RSD MC and save results of PD
-Run SD MC and save results of CPV
-Run SD MC and save results of PD
After Work 5PM-Sleep:
-Pay cc bills AE500/500PV
-Get financial plan for rest of month in order
-Go for a run [DONE]
-Finish AAA inventory
-Return stuff to Michaels/Hobby
-Read business 101 thread
-Finish work benefits update
-Sand wood for couch [DONE]
-Sell computer case and cd d
-Bring $10
-Buy sunscreen for jogging
-Calculate carryover and plan vacation days
Vic 10-20-10
My stumbling block in recovery was my arrogance. I thought because I believed in God, I "knew" God and therefore would recover quickly, so that I could go out and do my own thing again. This is all in hindsight, I did not even realize that is what I was thinking.
Today, all I know is what the BB says, p53: crushed by a self-imposed crises we could not postpone or evade, we had to fearlessly face the proposition that either God is everything or else He is nothing. God either is or He isn't. What was our choice to be?
All I know is if there was any other way of recovery, I would have found it, I needed (and still do) an act of God and I found it in the 12 step programs.
In the Bible, God describes himself as "I AM THAT I AM" probably because we could not undertand any more than that, and I thought why should I believe in someone who doesn't want to help me, I rather believe in someone who does and only a HP could have that much power.
Yesterday was good when I walked early. Now to get out the door again.
cool vic
i am here today cuz i am stuck, and this is a good read to me.
"I AM THAT I AM" has always fascinated me. the only One who must define Himself in terms of Himself. self-referential ontology. profound. makes my mind hurt. but, also, comforting.
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the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748
"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb
today
I am grateful for God presence in my life which guided me to this fellowship. Establishing a routine is my goal in the next months. It would allow my day to flow better and make sure there is a time to attend to all that matters to me. The hardest so far is facing fear everytimes I plan my day or contemplate doing a specific task I,ve been procrastinating on. Avoidance has been a coping mechanism for so long. Before admitting to myself that I am a Procrastinator, I would never have thought of myself as fearful. Lazy, yes, fearful, no. It's very hard to let go of it and trust God.
“You block your dream when you allow your fear to grow bigger than your faith.”
Mary Maning Morrissey
5h00 wake up
dress
Luath housetraining
coffee
checkin--->6h00
6h00-8h00
serenity prayer
start thread
plan day
barn choreslaundrybreakfast
checkin---> 9h48
8h00-12h00
commute
drop movie video store
decluttering challenge (office)
ACAA financial statement (2009-2010)
checkin
12h00-16h00
check work email
meet Mike
writing ACAA report
meet Mike
email SA for report
checkin
16h00-20h00
decluttering challenge: work mailbox
timesheet
commute
barn chores
supper
checkin
relax
bedtime
Carpe Diem
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