Tuesday September 28, 2010

1:30 PM: Month out of work has found me drifting without getting a lot done. Appears the new job will begin with travel, but details not yet worked out. Getting nervous because that may come up as soon as next week, and I don't feel ready. My major procrastination at present centers on something I really have to get done this week, my overdue 2009 taxes. My extension expires October 1. I am sitting at the computer, ostensibly with the goal of getting 'unstuck' and working on my unfinished taxes. I have started them, even gotten soime tedious parts out of the way, but got bogged down and have been unable to make myself get back to them. There are good reasons to work on them. Who knows, I might even manage to get some money back. Okay, I am going to try to break it down as I did with the overdue cases that wore on me right up until the very last day at my old job.

Goal 1: 2:00 - 2:30 PM:  30 minutes working on taxes without breaks. Back to report.

Urk. Managed to waste more time by looking for an online timer download. Have it now.

Revised Goal 1: 3:15 - 3:45 PM: 30 minutes working on taxes without breaks. Back to report.

Actually managed to work pretty staedily for 2 hours plus.  

Thanks for starting the thread, lennon :)

Haven't followed my med sched properly yesterday or today. Will start again tomorrow.

x gp1
x 6pm meet K
x update blog plan with school
- finish article draft
- work on biz plan
x trent
x flox 2

Tomorrow:
- call cuz R about both concerts
- call Sis about both concerts
- buy plantur
- balance budget
- create polls on other groups
- buy trent

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Nothing diminishes anxiety faster than action - Walter Anderson

Good and bad news this week - bad news is that my two colleagues and I are at risk of redundancy - good news is we're being given PAID LEAVE until Oct 22 while they sort things out! There's a good redundancy package if I do lose my job, so I don't have to rush to find work before I know it's necessary. I'm going to use this time off to rest, think, pray, read, write, tidy, get my finances in order and work on myself. I'm sure there will be procrastination, and there will be guilt about procrastination, and that's okay. I'm doing my best.

Going easy on myself today because I'm probably more traumatised than I feel (if that makes any sense)

Show up :) First time I managed THAT in a couple of days!
Pray & read bible :)
Walk dog :)
Buy butter :)
Clear kitchen
Clear table
Plan travel for tomorrow
Tomorrow's list

Slow start this morning but I did make it back to the gym today.   I'm taking tomorrow afternoon off, have a dr. appt at 1:30 and then I'm going to use the rest of the afternoon to catch up on chores and rest.   I think I'm over whatever little virus I had over the weekend but still feeling tired.  Yesterday passed by in a fog and I was totally in reactive mode.   I'm starting out today with a review of my project list, goals, and todo list.   Getting the "big picture" in view always helps me to focus on the things that are really important.   Have a meeting coming up in a few minutes but it's a conference call so I can multi-task a bit and get my todo list done during the meeting I hope.   Have coffee, will multi-task.

UPDATE 2 pm - Still slow and fuzzy but feeling much more organized, and working on the right things, although not quickly lol

Jo

'You become what you think about most of the time.' - Brian Tracy

Show up (done), think it through

Had no idea how deep in denial I was with some of my "unfinished business items" a true case of sweeping them under the rug and even I forgot about them, except for the nagging feeling. Now that I looked at some I honestly do not know where to start, my only hope is my HP, and PA I need to remind myself of what I "did do" and go from there, that I do know.

"Not everything that counts can be counted, and not everything that can be counted counts." (Sign hanging in Einstein's office at Princeton)