Tuesday August 17, 2010

Last night I surrendered my plan to the urgency of a deadline and worked until 2:30am.  But thanks to the shares of others here, I'm practicing not hating myself for it today.  Yes I am short on sleep and therefore less productive today than my best days. But that does not make me a piece of crap no matter what my Inner Procrastinator tries to tell me! 

Thanks to PA I have tools, Steps, and a Higher Power who stands in strong oppostition to this dis-ease: where compulsive procrastination wants to keep me crazy, HP wants to restore my sanity. And where CP wants my will and life so it can control me, HP wants my will and life so he can care for me.  

Wow, thanks for listening. I needed to hear myself say that today! :-)

The day after completing a big project seems to be a special risk, so the first thing I need today is a plan.  I have a meal plan but nothing else so far. So I'm setting my timer for lunch and planning, then back to post a plan.

Glad you found your way to us!  I've been helped a ton by PA; lots of support here for writing projects.

You can edit your own post until/unless someone hits "Reply" to your post - which has its own charm as we interact with one another for support.  After a Reply, the simplest solution is just to Reply again to your own post with a copy-paste of your task list so you can keep updating.

See you around the pages!

11:58 AM: Need to make up for a slow day yesterday. Cleared some things out of the way, but felt a little 'blocked'. Haven't caught up with my volunteer work commitments, and as both those and the overdue cases weigh on me, I start to feel more anxious and ambivalent about which to work on first. Clearly the work has to take priority, since I have only 11 days left at this post.

Well, I don't think it's totally unreasonable at this point to hold off on the volunteer work until 5 PM. It's late already, and a few more hours may result in a dreaded email or phone 'reminder' (getting those just stresses me out more, because it's not that I have 'forgotten'), but shouldn't *really* impact negatively on anyone, since it is about the meeting Labor Day weekend. Yes, yes, I should have done it last week. But I didn't.

Delaying working on my cases to clear this from my mind would be a worse choice, I feel. I am not a natural multi-tasker, and when the boundaries get blurred, it only becomes more difficult and stressful. I need to compartmentalize better, so when I am doing one thing, I am doing *that*, not thinking about what I am *not* doing. To use Vic's terminology, I guess I have to work on 'mindfulness'. Anyway, off to work. Volunteer responsibilities, begone (until it is your turn; then you will have my full attention, or at least I will try).

Goal 1: 12:15 - 2:00 PM: Work on quick cases, try to cover ground attentively.

Goal 2: 2:00 - 3:00 PM: Scheduled meeting. Try to 'be there' rather than thinking about what I could/should be doing instead.

Goal 3: 3:00 - 5:00 PM: At least one longer report (bear), then back to clearing out short ones (underbrush).

Goal 4: 5:00 - 7:00 PM: Do the volunteer stuff without worries about anything else.

Hmm...that's a fair number of goals. Well, time to give it my best shot. Back later (something else I have to be better at; I often forget to check out at the end of the day).

hello all... I'm new to this list.  Trying to add accountability to my lists as I work on a long term project (writing) as I work from home. 

Quick question, how to you return to these lists to cross off what done?  Never mind, found it!

• yoga
• intentions
• garden
• finish con.
• lunch
• send con
• new tires
• food for din
• call @ car
• emails j write
• 2 int req written
• dinner
• movie as treat.

Hi Guys,

Thanks MD for the starter!! ELINA, love, love that Oprah Winfrey saying that you have, THANKS!! Woo Hoo REXROTH,

Waving to: VIC, SCRIBBERS, TIPTREE, JULESK AND HUMA!!!!!!

Went to an interview yesterday far away with very low pay. Went to an interview today in my neighborhood with low pay, but they seemed really nice that I wouldn't be yelled at.

Need to turn over, my friend will be going on maternity leave in about 4 mths and she wants to take this Monday & Tuesday off and asked if I would work there.

My fear is that I will ruin the friendship, but calling in sick or some other stupid thing that I can count on myself to do. Also, her boss is very precise and nitpicky and I don't know if I can handle that, as I'm not. The pay, however, is great and it is in the neighborhood.

I told her I would do this Monday and Tuesday, but I think I should tell her to find someone else. The only thing is no money is coming in and I don't think I'll get unemployment. She is a special person & I'm also very good at ruining friendships.

Very grateful that calls and jobs are coming in that at least I'm interviewing.

I really, really want to take today off and watch tv, but I need to do things while I'm home.

To do:
-call B
-resumes
-try to file for unemployment
-brush & do Yoffee's nails
-call J tonight
-go to a meeting tonight
-work on step study
-work out 10 minutes
-call LN

Prayers that your day is used up and satisfying!!

♥Prayers & guidance needed & appreciated for my Yoffee's healing.♥

to do:

- progress on c. issues
-- support vect.
-- tools to handle problem phot. int.
-- wl issue
- grid bug
- P. enhancement
- report generated
- sh/sh
- 2 other items in test
- read 1 ch.
- exercise/stretch
- clean office
- scrub tub(s)
- sh/sh
- review bz
- work in basement

• call to get fax
• blog
• send pk info
• send to holly
• call re speakers
• send job descrip to maj
• bssb prop
• call hr for coffee
• send newsletter
• send 2 seo
• call ny re hs
• boat ad
• create 6 seo
• call omf
• organize host bills