Thursday 12th August 2010

Show up (done)

Got some productive research done. Found some answers I needed. Grateful for everyone here.

4pm several things out of the way, but dithering on next step.
- quiet time
4:23 bible read, now prayer

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the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748

"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb

12:21 PM: Feeling a little "blah", bored and unmotivated. But the clock keeps on ticking and I am out of here in 2 weeks and 1 day. So I must press on for now. Managed to spend the morning answering email, handling some overdue (what a surprise) bills, and generally procrastinating. I have had lunch, and the afternoon just stretches off into the distance. It fatigues me and fills me with ennui just to contemplate it. Not a productive way to look at this "time opportunity", but there you have it. Anyway, back to the remaining task list from Tuesday.

I *have to* work on overdue cases, no way around it. Worked on 7 cases yesterday, but several were quickies. Overall, not great progress. Need to go after this more assertively today.

I should do a little on my volunteer work, not necessarily a lot, just to keep from falling farther behind. Did not do anything of significance except for 2 emails yesterday. Maybe this evening, but first the work.

I could do a little laundry tonight, perhaps, and get the drycleaning items together to drop off tomorrow.

I would love, love, love to get even a little exercise in. This will be
a long, tough row to hoe, and it won't get any easier with passing
time. No progress yet. Maybe this evening, fit in somewhere between the work and the volunteer work.

Goal 1: 12:35 - 2 PM: Work on cases from now until my 2 PM meeting. Back to report.

3:27 PM: Multiple distractions, mostly self-inflicted, then *long* meeting, and it's late afternoon with nothing to show for it. Well, time to settle down and focus.

Goal 1b: 3:30 - 5:30 PM: 2 hours, 6 cases, no excuses. Back to report.

• DONE call hotel to ask if they found my favorite slippers yesterday Unfortunately the answer was no :-(
• PROGRESS write GM scripts I forgot to include a 2hour mtng on this project in my plan today. That kept me from writing but did advance the project
• 2 hours SB research nope - not procrastinated, just out of time
• outline SB findings (due Monday) nope
• July reports due today Got one of 2 DONE - took muich longer than expected
• Share July reports with new TMs
• sked arnp appt to discuss my test results
• sked dermatologist appt
• find and fax fsa receipts 
• PROGRESS reduce email Inbox to <15 got it back under 20 
• ADDED per boss - staffing/budgets (1 hr mtng, 1 hr action items)

   HOLDING FOR LATER (so I won't forget!): 

• Review webnrs-resultz
• listen to 3 presentations (see email) and take notes
• finish 4 contract briefs
• microburst final ap msg

  Hope everyone is having a productive PA recovery type day!  Tip for today:  AA has a saying, "Act as if." It means that, even before we fully accept Steps 2 and 3, if we act as if a Higher Power is helping our recovery, we will get the same results as someone who actually believes! 

  Unfortunately due to a work-binge last night I am very overtired, so I need to "act as if" I care about doing a good job today.  Thank God I do know for sure that a Higher Power can help me.

  So, happy "acting-as-if" today, dear fellow PAers!!

Sorry you are having a difficult time.  You are a good example of showing up anyway, such an important recovery principle.  Thanks for getting us started on the daily check-ins this week, and I hope you feel happier soon.

(I didn't use your Reply button, just in case you wanted your original post for checking-off your list today - )

5/12/2010 10:15 am

Good morning. This web site gives me hope. (I've already procrastinated by organizing my bookmarks to make room for a PA book mark on my browser bar!)

My list today:

Done-Make list 

Done-Meds

Done-Check blood pressure

Check glucose

Done-Review pet care with my wife before she leaves for weekend

Exercise

Meditation 

Done-Program call with sponsee D.

Breakfast

Brush teeth am 

Meet with sponsee S. at 10:30

Drop off chest of drawers at St. Vinnies

Move bookcase inside

Pick up peaches

Freeze peaches

Email BIB invoice

Clean bathroom

Phone calls: Dr. Halls, Jeff, Mlou

Organizing meeting for recovery meditation group 5:30 

Supper

Call my wife 

Brush teeth pm

In bed, lights out, 11 pm 

Thanks Rexroth for the starter.

I worked out yesterday, but it wasn't a perfect 10 minutes, I stopped in between and did stuff and then added time. Good enough!!

I hear my mind saying, "oh, I'll never leave here (this site)." That's my diseased head setting me up for failure and leaving. Like when it tells me, you're cured now, you licked this thing for good, etc." I really do not like that I can't do this on my own.

Lots to do today:
-read & prepare all my material to begin step study for Sunday
-brush my girl and do her nails
-laundry
-clean
-call insurance and find out rate for counselor
-figure out time to meet G on Sunday
-call Dr. c about meds
-call Yoffee's dr. about meds
-calll ex set up appt.

Someone gave me an idea to go into the city to the wealthier areas and hand out my doggy flyers and also go to the railroad in the wealthy areas near me and hand out flyers. I don't think I'd be able to do this alone, to awkward feeling. It seemed like a great idea when she mentioned it, but now I'm having 2nd thoughts.

The outpouring of love and support yesterday was awesome amazingness and I humbly thank those who gave so much.

Kind regards!!

♥Prayers & guidance needed & appreciated for my Yoffee's healing.♥

Running late . . . busy morning . .. journey waves hello and gets to work, I'll catch up later! 

update 10 am Feeling uber stressed and need to take time to review my goals and  major problems projects and do some reverse calendar planning.   I don't want this stressful time to cause me to spiral into the procrastination whirlpool again . . .feeling that I can't do everything so I end up doing nuthin'.    

Haha typing 'problems' instead of 'projects' was a freudian slip for sure lol

gotta run to a meeting, later!

Jo 

'A friend is someone who knows all about you and still loves you.' - Elbert Hubbard

Have had quiet time and breakfast.

Main task for today is to finish up rough draft of prelim proposal.

Breaking that down:
*Read sample results section
*Finish results section (might involve doing some more analysis, but I'll try to keep it short)
*Revise abstract/aims for writing style and clarity
*Revise bg
*Revise expt plan
*Ask labmates to help revise

If I have time, I'd also like to read a couple papers and make expt. plan, call M and F, email friends, email about comm mtg, and work on QC.

OK, off to work on proposal now! I'll start with some of the revisions, since I have a lot of that to do.