Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.

Thursday 29 July 2010

 courage                     wisdom                     serenity

 

 

 

 

Thanks all, for being here

 

 

ScottY CI

(deleted cause it was on the wrong day!)

Agnus 5:30pm

I have struggled terribly with my disease of compulsive procrastination today.  Only did 2 things on my list which was mostly leftover from yesterday.  I got back into caffeine on vaca and my adrenals are wrecked: halfway through my second cup this morning I crashed and literally could not move off the sofa for almost 3 hours. I tried checking in from my new iPhone but couldn't get keyboard in the Comment field. 

When I finally got to my desk I just went reactive, so only phone calls and emails got done.  I didn't even wake J today or give him his meds.  I hear him watching TV so he is up but I need to get his food and meds.  Then I need to make my dinner.  Not sure I have the stamina for a meeting tonight. Might do a phoner. 

OK, doing the J-stuff and my dinner now.

"Routine is the shark cage that lets me swim safely in the real world."  Anonymous

One step forward, two steps back

3:09 PM: On the one hand, I did well Monday thru Wednesday keeping up with the new daily work as it came in. On the other hand, I have made no progress whatsoever on my overdue cases this week. Trying to get all the plates spinning at once without having some crash to the ground is proving very difficult. Also, just getting started has proven to a major obstacle this week. Other than two meetings this morning, I have accomplished nothing so far today, getting bogged down in many of my usual anxiety dampers/time wasters, as I often do when I am at odds about which of two (or more, sometimes) divergent paths to take. Well, I *have to* pick a direction or I won't get *anything* done. I also get to spend some time with my kids this evening, and I don't want to take away from that. Whatever I choose to do means that some other thing will not get attention today. Intellectually I realize that *any* progress is better than *no* progress, but it is hard for me to accept that. So, I will tolerate not getting all of today's new work done right now, and spend the next couple of hours alternating between new and old reports. I hope that getting *some* old reports and *some* new reports will make me feel better and less blocked and frustrated than I do at the moment.

Goal: 3:30 to 5:30 PM: 3 new cases, 3 old cases in 2 hours.

Back to report later.

potential energy 245

to do

1. audio program 2. sort for 30 min  3. shop (no really-I hate shopping) 4. rdg. w/ z

5. exercise   6. add- find computer adapter 7. 1 project

chatbox bonus- watered flowers-thanks!!

I really need to tell l. no contract renewal- put it off because I dread it.  Procrastination vocabulary-need, dread, put it off, guilt feeling, distract, hope

 

Crazybug CI#2 12:56pm

Checking in did help me make it through my first task and focus me on results, also repeating to myself "Don't wait until you feel like it" has been a motivator.

two more tasks ahead that are less clear cut and therefore (for me anyway....) SCARY!

I'm going to devote 15 minutes to just trying to identify where I can take my first step.  I really liked the quote someone had a while back (sorry I can't remember who to credit it to): "Action preceeds 'figuring it all out'".  true.

 

back to work.

Vic 7/29

 Show up (done)

Thanks for the starter Chick. It got me thinking, are the stones supposed to be like that? I never know what "normal" is. But that is ok, The fence is still there and so am I still showing up.

Got my teen to therapist last nite. It went well and scheduled next week. This is a huge and remarkable accomplishment by the grace of God, for which I am grateful, but since I have nothing to "show" for my productivity, I feel like I did not do anything and feel like a slacker.

Feeling emotionally and physically drained, showing up here is always my strength and first step in willingness to change.

I have many issues  with "demand resistence",  like many of us, a term I learned here. Listening to a tape this morning they talk about it as the DIRECT RESULT of "NEGATIVITY AND VICTIM THINKING" .The only way I know how to change that is gratitude and microbursts. AND service. Thanks for being here.

vic, you showing up is

vic, you showing up is always an inspiration to me. solidarity.

Yes, the stones are supposed to be like that, once they were a full arch, to me they are a sort of example of the beauty and endurance of incompleteness...

more about the arch

I love that thought: "the beauty and endurance of incompleteness." 

The picture instantly reminded me of something else, though. The Big Book (Alcoholics Anonymous) often compares the 12 Steps to various parts of a "triumphant arch through which we shall walk a free man at last."  Using that model, today's starter picture would depict our problem, rather than a solution:  http://friendsofbillw.net/the_triumphant_arch

Either view has its beauty, and either may be helpful at various times. So might as well go with whatever works for you, for today, I say! :*  Thanks for sharing it, chickadee.

Beautiful

I saw the arch and it is beautiful.  I wrote the website and I will look at the websute again.  It has some interesting things to look at.

Peace

(Agnus)

Wow. I see the arch now. That is so cool- I honestly thought they were some sort of pillars on each side that settled that way over the years.

Shows me once again, what "I see" may be wrong. One of the new "present teachers" talks about that,Katie Byron I think is her name,  and for awhile, if I had a negative thought I would ask myself if I could be absolutely sure it was true. I don;t think I ever said yes.

thanks for that Ag!

thanks for that Ag!

(((vic)))

Just you being here is an inspiration to me if that makes you feel any better. Smile

(Crazybug)

Much better, thank you. Especially coming from someone with the word "crazy" in their nickname. I always considered myself "crazy" and quite frankly being "normal" was never very attactive, even if I knew what it meant. ha ha. Just not who I am. Thanks. Vic

Crazybug 10:42am

Trying to climb back up on the wagon after a few weeks of floundering.  Determined to keep a positive attitude and realize that if I wait until I *feel* like doing something that it will never be done.

Going to tackle tasks in small blocks of time today and will repost progress.

- 1st block: work on template

- 2nd block: work on logos

- 3rd block: make web project plans

that's all I can handle thinking about right now...

kromer 9:50 CI

I'm getting a late start this morning but I can still make this a good and productive day.

MITs are:
*VAD, expt management
*Rough expt. plan for aim 1 (started)
*Read 2 sample proposals and take notes

Next priority is:
*Figure out best way to back up computer
*Deal w/ emails from past 2 weeks
*Rough expt. plan for aim 2
*RA plan (started)
*Call IA

Lower priority is:
*Write up potential stuff
*Ask about e.o. reading
*List of genes
*Figure out if we have RAR antibodies
*Submit jobs to t.h.
*IA present

And I'm going to help with teen program at church 5-9:30. 

OK, that's a lot! I'm going to start with one of the "next priority" tasks, the RA plan. Then, I'll read the 2 proposals and take notes, and work on expt. plan for aim 1. 

My Day Today

Things I have done

1. Went to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

2. Went to the 8:30 a.m. telephone PA meeting

3. Went to the 9:30 a.m. PA check-in

Things I plan to do today

1. Go to the 9:45 telephone CLA meeting

2. Go to the 10:30 telephone PA Check-in

3. Go to the 11:00 telephone PA meeting

4. Go to the 1:00 telephone CLA meeting

5. Go to the 1:30 telephone PA Check-in

6. Go to the 3:30 telephone PA check-in

7. Go to the 4:30 telephone PA check-in

8. Go to the 5:30 telephone PA check-in

9. Go to the 11:15 a.m. telephone DA meeting

10. Go to the 7:00 p.m. telephone DA meeting

11. Go to the 8:00 p.m. telephone CLA meeting

12. Prayer and meditation

13. Read CLA literature

14. Write ways I can apply Tool #1:  Break it Down

15. Take shower

16. Get dressed

17. Make bed

18. Wash dishes

19. Clear the couch

20. Clear the table

21. Clear the floor

22. Empty the two storage boxes

23. Post Al-Anon literature for the week

24. Eat brunch

25. Cook chicken

26. Eat dinner

27. Get sleep apnea stuff ready for tonight

28. Make business phone call.

29. Get my numbers caught up

30. Go to my 9:30 telephone PA Check-in

31. Go to the 10:30 telephone PA check-in

That's all I have

Journey 9:30

Good morning!   I made it to the gym at 6:05 and was on the road to work at 7:35, getting to work a half hour early yay.   Traffic will be getting worse as school starts back so I want to improve on this time by about 20 minutes.     I'm attending the first conference call of the day now and after this call I'll finish up my todo list and post it.   

Jo 

'A friend is someone who knows all about you and still loves you.' - Elbert Hubbard

Journey whoa! how did it get to be 11:00 & update

It's entirely possible that I was abducted by aliens for an hour or so, but here's my todo list.  

  • Gym
  • C. meeting
  • Planning 
  • check on C. Request
  • Stalk boss and pin him down about time for 1 meeting
  • email about this weekend
  • Project V - work on upgrade prep
  • Project Z. meeting
  • Project Z - document R
  • Begin on D.L.for Tm - just start - 5 minutes
  • Take vitamins
  • filing
  • Call C.
  • Fill out form for C.U.
  • Check
  • Quiet time
  • If time, work on G for Project V/HFS/or UU.
  • Call E about dinner
  • dishes
  • thank DH for ironing
  • check bal
  • added - new input for today's meeting

Several people came up with info at the last minute for this afternoon's meeting, so I ended up having to redo a spreadsheet.   I have been fighting with the spreadsheet and the spreadsheet was pretty much kicking my butt but I have finally wrestled it to the ground.  

Update 4:30 the meeting was pretty stressful and I'd really like to just go home now and take a nap.   I'm not going to finish everything on my list because of all the stuff I had to do for the meeting at the last minute and I'm feeling frustrated and have been doing nothing for the last half hour. . . Regrouping now, and I'll work on the upgrade prep until 5, then I'll work on filling out the CU form til 5:30, then I'm so outta here.  First I'll enter my calories into Calorie King and see if I can afford a frozen yogurt on the way home, that'll make me feel better.

 

'A friend is someone who knows all about you and still loves you.' - Elbert Hubbard

ScottY check-in

To do today:

DONE: respond to DA e-mail

DONE: Scripture study and prayer

DONE: iPad work

DONE: Rearrange eve. appts

DONE: Practice vc

Lefkoe work

DONE: Tax work

DONE: Read in tax book

Agnus ci 0930 How ci via iPhone? Can't type in Comment

"Routine is the shark cage that lets me swim safely in the real world."  Anonymous

I-phone

Try on main toolbar, the tool- compatability settings....that MIGHT  work (i.e. have to get machine "used to" PA site as happened with my desktop/chatbox at first) ...or not

thanks md re iphone

I'll try that when I get time this weekend. take care!

re: iphone?

Beats the heck outta me!  Anybody else got an iPhone? 

'A friend is someone who knows all about you and still loves you.' - Elbert Hubbard

Rexroth Check In

Thanks for starting the thread chickadee and for being here

Today I feel in what we used to call a 'mucking fuddle' or general state of confusion and uncertainty.

Done:
Up prayer and reflection
Phoned in sick for voluntary work
Back to bed
Checked emails and later snail mail
Emailed for info on holiday

Todo:
What I need to do is to get on with things and I have rarely felt less like doing so. There is nothing urgent to do and that is part of my problem.

Reply to email from friend
Maybe have a prayerful think about things and list and post

Regards Rexroth

Rexroth Check Out

Done nothing

Fed up

Good Night

Rexroth

BTW starting picture looks like the remains of an arch

tuffl CI

today's tdl:

 

  • DONE Smile CI
  • DONE check emails
  • DONE follow up on sst
  • DONE breakfast & shower

 

  • DONE Smile review ji
  • DONE Smile list of pe
  • focus on ja for sk for half an hour
  • draft email for hns & reply to t

  • DONE Smile go running 
  • call j
  • email to l
  • focus on helping jtt for half an hour
  • (start letter to s)
  • (start letter to a)
  • (start j)

 

going to bed now. had a quite late start into the day and on top of that decided to go see the cat (he's at the vet's again, got to stay there till tomorrow) which then threw me completely off schedule. but it's ok b/c apart from the routines i did the follow up on sst and got two other important things done plus i went running (part of my personal care programme). so i'm ok with how today went. good night to everyone, have a productive time in what's left of this thursday. Smile

chick CI

p.

p. 

clean

garden

other