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I read the signs of a procrastinator and I realized I had a real problem. It occured to me I have been struggling with this problem for over 20 years without facing it.
Recently, I had some paperwork due at my job and I put it off for 3 weeks. Each weekend I told myself I would do it. The weekend came, and well, I ended up watching the clock pushing back the start time until later and later. So late I finally had to go to sleep.
It really is a drug addiction cycle. I don't accomplish what I tell people I will. I feel guilty and miserable and it gives me anxiety too. I hide my procrastination from others. It interrupts my sleep as I think about how far behind I am. Until I read some of the articles on this site I didn't realize how bad I had gotten.
I think I am at the rock bottom of procrastination. I finally surrendered and admitted I have a serious problem. I am trying to do some paperwork tonight instead of waiting until I feel like it. It is tough giving up the habit.
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Welcome, Buff. Yes, this is an amazing community and it's so helpful to find folks that REALLY understand the pain that procrastination can wreck in a life. As a person married to an extremely efficient and super-productive individual who's not very empathetic with those who aren't (though a GREAT hubby in all other respects!) I really thought that I would never find support to get through this. I joined this group last week and had three really productive days (for me anyway) and it made me realize how my procrastination really fed into the cycles of depression that I've suffered from for most of my life. For the first time in years I didn't dread work in the morning. That doesn't mean I was perfect in anyway but I gave myself permission to make small steps and recognize my successes. I have a long way to go but PA has given me hope.
I know that if I can make progress anyone here can. So you can too!
Buff, It is so good to have you here. When I first found PA I couldn't believe there was a group of people that understood this compulsion --and that they were succeeding in recovery. It's been about two weeks since I found this site, and I have already felt transformed....gone from feeling like I was semi-living as a wraith to being alive. Doing things actually feels good now, and I'm not dreading waking up in the mornings. That's a big change.
There are many brilliant tools that the PA community has created to support each other. In addition to the online check-in boards and keep-on-track chatbox,
there are weekday phone meetings at 7:30 and 8:30 a.m. Eastern Time, as
well as short periodic check-in calls that we schedule during the
morning meetings. There's also a weekly online meeting on Sundays. Some people use all the tools, some only one or two--but the beauty is that there are so many to choose from, and they work. If
you have any questions, please ask. There are a lot of newcomers here,
as well as people who have been here a while, and we all learn
something from each other every day.
P.S. Here are some quick links to the things I mentioned.