Tonight is going horribly for me. I have this big essay that was due 19 days ago, and I only have 1/3 of it done. In about a week, it will be the end of the semester, and the final day when I will be able to hand it in.
Tonight, I told myself that I was going to work on it, and I was all pumped up about it. I had a window of opportunity for hte past 4 hours to work on it, but I've barely doen anything. By 10 pm, I would feel anxious just thinking about the project, so I would calm myself down by avoiding it (bad strategy!!). The anxiety-avoidance vicious cycle just kept getting wordse and worse until now, i.e. 12:30AM.
I don't know what to do now, but all I know is that I can't change the past. (Oh, how I wish I could!)
I'm going to try to work on it tonight, but I won't get it done. :( I'm really not looking forward to having to come into class without my paper and possibly face my teacher about it.
At this point, I just need to work on it for a good hour! I can't spare to put this off more... I'm just extremely disappointed in myself right now...
But now i have another reason for putting this off! Working on the project just reminds me of my guilt for procrastinating before!