Introduction and wanting to move forward
While contemplating the painful patterns that inexorably repeat themselves in my life day by day I hit upon the word 'pathological procrastination'. Not just run of the mill procrastination that everyone engages in a one point or another, but some condition that is in jeopardy of ruining my life and eating up all my psychic energy. For years I have explored time management and task management and nothing would work for me. The advice seemed somehow hollow because, I realize now, my problem is not time management it's procrastination in a form that is debilitating and life sapping. I still have to explore all of the reasons for my procrastinating habit/addiction, but know that perfectionism, lack of self confidence and inability to define and judge tasks appropriately all are part of it. Finding this website was a panacea. Just knowing that there may be some hope of recovery has kindled a long dead spark inside of me.
I have suffered from severe depression for as long as I can remember. I'm finally getting a handle on that through medication and now hope to tackle the monster that I believe has contributed greatly to my depression and my lack of enjoyment of life, procrastination. Months ago I felt like I would just give up and scrape by for the rest of my life. Obviously there is a subconscious part of me that will not accept that and sought out help. That gives me some hope. So I come here to this group to fight it out. I know it is up to me to try to overcome this but I am willing to humbly ask for help from others who seek to improve themselves as well.