Woe is me
I started the day out ok. Not great, I missed my gym class, but the next few hours went well -- productively. Then I couldn't get myself to go out. I have GAD and social anxiety, which relates to my not being able to do anything as well as facing people. I live in the big city but would love to move to the country but I can't figure out how I'd manage financially.
Well, in some other 12 step groups we say we are powerless over our disease, and this is a 12 step group ostensibly. I don't really know how we do the first step here. Only God can save me, or make plans, white knuckle our anxiety-feel the fear and do it anyway and be a piece of c* if I don't.