Sunday, 16 May 2010

Today I'd originally planned to do a couple more things than are on the list below, but recognized upon waking that I needed to give myself a day off after having such a successful few days, my first days using the tools of PA.  I have learned that I time-binge.  This might not just be on a specific task--maybe it's when I get wrapped up in momentum over a couple days?  So I don't want to overdo it and get exhausted.  Therefore, a day off to reward myself.

• Morning meditation done!
  
• Workout/shower/dress done!
• Pick up around house done!
  

• Log off computer (no aimless surfing)! (did this!)
• Relax, read, eat done!
• Prayer and meditation done!

I commit to being at tomorrow's 8:30/7:30C telephone CI meeting.  See you there, and have a great Sunday.

showing up here is my first act of deciding to let my higher power in.

PS Interesting tidbit I heard today: "Microbursts" are a characteristic of a nuclear bomb, ha ha, so I am going to think of that as do my "microbursts" and instead of thinking "why bother" I will think "power".

Really getting aware of my "computer time bingeing" . I am not doing it any more than before but with all the shares, I am getting out of denial.

Thanks for being here. 

Got everything done except for those art assignments.  I hope I get them done tommorow.

10:15

showever-breakfast

brief  clean up

Make list of stuff to get at store

work on response answers Finished 6, only 4 more

3:30

drop off books at library

pick up heavy duty garbage bags + other things at store Do this tommorow

5:00

cancel cc, apartment insurance, game sub Call apt insur tommarow

clean place briefly

fininsh response answer

Make 3 collages for Art + begin landscape painting

Work out

Dinner

11:30pm

Hygene

plan & get ready for Monday

Sleep

Please do not leave advice.  Thank you.  Prayers welcome. 

What does self-esteem mean for me?

• coming on time for my appointments, 12 step meetings, job interviews, classes
• getting seven hours of sleep at night
• brushing my teeth, flossing, using listerine, endtufted brush at night
• wearing clothes that look well when I leave the house, not dressing like a hippy or in my pajamas or in my houseclothes, nor in enormous shirts that have holes, nor using broken glasses.
• brush teeth and use listerine immediately after breakfast
• exercise once a day for at least half an hour
• complete assignments by the class time that they are due, and submit them, if they are submittables
• study for exams with adequate time before they occur
• accept reality, accept that other people are happy in their own situations
• pray to the higher power for acceptance
• pray to the higher power to thank Hir for all I have received that is positive
• listen to positive spiritual music
•  sleep in my bed under the covers every night
• Do not attempt to win people over who have indicated they are unavailable emotionally, geographically or physically.
• avoid dating sites
• avoid intriguing romantically
• do not respond to anyone who is rude or inappropriate or abusive, i.e. protect yourself from these people by not engaging with them in any way.
• pray to the higher power and connect with Hir daily
• take care of myself with respect to food, exercise and dental hygeine prior to involving myself with others.
• Not stalking people either online or offline, whom I have wished to date or have a romantic/sexual interest in.  That includes, but is not limited to Jon, Chris, Sirus, Juli, Jordan, Andrew, Max, Jason, Jonas, Mike.  That means not going to their webpage, not stalking them on chat programs, not googling them, not visiting their page on social networking sites.  Not visiting places where I expect them to be at, not walking by their house or instituting a driveby, not going to their town and expecting to find them by cruising or visiting likely places where they'd be.
• brushing my hair and wearing gel before I leave the house
• avoid leaving inappropriate emails and messages for celebrities

Morning

email J DONE

Teeth  DONE

Bath (quick dip) DONE

hypnosis (yes I have actually brought a hypnosis tape to make housework easier! how desperate is that ? ;)) DONE

 task lists DONE

Sort out study in time for meeting DONE

Meeting DONE

Food DONE

Afternoon

Hypnosis  (cat interrupted 1st hypnosis session) DONE

Paint wall * 1(really ! I mean it!)DONE IT HAS BEEN YEARS !!!!!!!!

sweep hall DONE

hand laundry DONE

1 bowl of washing up DONE 

kitchen floor DONE

email C DONE

1. Accounting HW 2 hours

2. MUS essay 3 hours

3. Organise stat notes, calendar and study. 2 hours

4. If there is time do some Accounting study.

Big challenge today, I am hopeful that I can rise to meet it, wish me luck!