Hi everyone. This is the email I sent to join is below, but I'd also like to do a current update of why I want to be a part of this community. Basically, procrastination (and other addictions which I definitely use in order to procrastinate) have gotten in the way of so much of my potential and my happiness in my life... I think I could do so much if I learned to pace myself and allow myself to do things that I want and NEED without torturing myself. Often I lose all sense of balance in terms of working/having fun and I keep giving myself breaks from work when I haven't even been working very hard.
I have a very difficult time taking my own goals seriously, and often sabotage myself and then say it didn't matter that I didn't meet my goals. Often, I dread summers because I avoid talking to my bosses when I have a problem at work, I dread GOING to work and I just want to put that off all the time, and when I'm not at work I end up wasting the majority of my time, even though there are many things I'd like to be applying myself to. In school, I no longer wait till the very very last minute, thank God, but I'm not great about scheduling my time and doing things when I say I will...
I'm tired of feeling the stress and the sense of being out of control of my life.. and the apathy that comes with procrastination.. the general hopelessness that I will do anything/make anything of myself before I die...
I think I also tend to minimize the things I do, do. But that's another issue.
Please help!! also, I very often avoid making important phone calls out of fear...
I would like to join procrastinators anonymous because my procrastination with my school work gets out of hand
to the point where I am unhappy in my relationships (because I use them to procrastinate) and I gain weight (because
I use food to procrastinate) and I feel helpless and miserable and stressed, and beat myself up a lot of the time about it.
My life is also unmanageable because I procrastinate in paying parking tickets, contacting important people, making
long-term plans: anything like that...
I want help.