Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.
Procrastination is the grave in which opportunity is buried.
Vic 11/21
Showing up (done).
Better day with Thanksgiving/family issues. Did a lot of writing, talking, praying yesterday.
Productive day.but Seem supersensitive. My son said he would wait until 8pm to play his last pool game with my husband. The score was 99-99. I went for my walk at 7. When I came back, I did some stuff around the house. When I went downstairs, he said the game was over. He did not wait- it was 8:15. I have mixed feelings. Hurt, shame for my procrastination, anger, feeling offended, confused, feel disrespected, etc., etc.,
The truth is, once again, people have a threshold in regard to my problem, even my son. It doesn’t mean he does not care about me, he waited an hour, he was supposed to play at 7, and for him, that was an ultimate sacrifice. I need to separate thinking that family should have more compassion.
pg 62 in the AA Big Book:
we step on the toes of our fellows and they retaliate. Sometimes they hurt us, seemingly without provocation, but we invariably find that at some time in the past we have made decisions based on self which later placed us in a position to be hurt. etc., etc.,
hard piece of truth to swallow aobut myself, again.
But, although I I am not where I want to be,but I am not where I was and am still showing up, I would have shut down before and for that I am grateful for God's grace and that he still wants to help me.
Thanks for being here, one more day.
Vic 11/21
Showing up (done).
Better day with Thanksgiving/family issues. Did a lot of writing, talking, praying yesterday.
Productive day.but Seem supersensitive. My son said he would wait until 8pm to play his last pool game with my husband. The score was 99-99. I went for my walk at 7. When I came back, I did some stuff around the house. When I went downstairs, he said the game was over. He did not wait- it was 8:15. I have mixed feelings. Hurt, shame for my procrastination, anger, feeling offended, confused, feel disrespected, etc., etc.,
The truth is, once again, people have a threshold in regard to my problem, even my son. It doesn’t mean he does not care about me, he waited an hour, he was supposed to play at 7, and for him, that was an ultimate sacrifice. I need to separate thinking that family should have more compassion.
pg 62 in the AA Big Book:
we step on the toes of our fellows and they retaliate. Sometimes they hurt us, seemingly without provocation, but we invariably find that at some time in the past we have made decisions based on self which later placed us in a position to be hurt. etc., etc.,
hard piece of truth to swallow aobut myself, again.
But, although I I am not where I want to be,but I am not where I was and am still showing up, I would have shut down before and for that I am grateful for God's grace and that he still wants to help me.
Thanks for being here, one more day.
kromer 11 CI
A bit of a late start this morning.
Today so far I've checked on mice, gotten turkey for thanksgiving potluck, tidied up my apartment.
I have a fair amount to do today, but I also want to take some time off to have dinner w/ friends.
Most important things are to:
*Verify primers by RT
*Try restriction mapping of plasmid
*Make TBE
*Continue organizing papers
*Microburst review and lab mtg pres.
OK, going to start primer verification now. Should take about an hour to get set up, then I can start restriction mapping.
Chick CI
saturday's thoughts and goals
I'm feeling a lot of panic/anxiety/exhaustion about a late thing.--(Inspiring to read your post. Lucky :))-- I realize I need to accept these feelings but think about how good I'll feel to break this task down and see progress.--Working on this is MIT/MUT
Just a day or two of getting slack on household tasks leaves disorder that reinforces my negative frame of mind. --I need to set off some time to tidy/wash up, telling myself that just 30 min will make a difference
bicycle accident earlier: I am fine, cycle already at repair place. have to go for a walk to collect it--use that as an opportunity to clear mind...
volunteer thing
Falcon check-in Saturday
Priorities for this weekend:
Edited to add, also need to:
Going to class in a few minutes. I can make the phone calls when I get back and then start of the rest of it. I may need to break down the christmas shopping into smaller steps to get a handle on it.
Glad you are here, pro amigos! Hope everyone has a great weekend!
Falcon
Lucky CI
Weirdness yesterday! In the afternoon I managed to work despite some of the worst resistance I've ever experienced - I had a huge feeling of panic in my chest and every action was a brain-bending, muscle-clenching effort, but for some reason that didn't actually stop me working. It was actually a wonderful experience to have that much power over myself. Like intense exercise when your body is screaming STOP and you don't, and you find out that you don't have to.
Prayer that might possibly have caused this: 'God be my willpower, God be my wisdom.'
Interesting thoughts arising: I can resist procrastination and clearly that's what it feels like. So I can learn to kind-of-love that feeling, just like in the example of exercise you kind-of-love the pain. It's a power trip, the feeling of being strong.
However, this doesn't alter the fact that I want to learn to ENJOY what I do and do it with joy and enthusiasm...
Go, Lucky!
Lucky,
Good for you - what a great breakthrough!
I always find that when I don't fight painful feelings but let myself experience them, it also opens me up to fully experiencing joy. I hope it's the same for you, and that by riding out the mental pain and panic, you will eventually find that you can experience joy and enthusiasm, too.
Falcon
Thank you, this means a lot.
Thank you, this means a lot. :)
Edge's CI - 9:42am
Morning :-)
x 8am meds
x hmed 1
x bmd 1
x kitty litter
- finish A assignment and submit
- bran
- bmed 2
- 4pm med
- 4pm class
- go to gym and transfer account
- bmed 3
- hmed 2
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Nothing diminishes anxiety faster than action - Walter Anderson
Edge's CI - 3:17pm
Not feeling so great because I still didn't finish my assignment and I've got till midnight tonight to hand it in. Also, my friend asked to go out today and I told her I'm up for it, but in reality I'm not really in the mood, and since I still haven't finished my assignment I'm going to have to cancel on her.
Bah. The truth is I'm not dedicating nearly enough time to finish this thing. I'm just procrastinating and looking for ways to avoid working on it, but I can't keep doing this if I want to pass my subject. So as soon as I get back from class I'm going to put my all into it and try to finish the damned paper. Also, if I finish in time I'll be a good friend and take my friend out.
x 8am meds
x hmed 1
x bmd 1
x kitty litter
- finish A assignment and submit
x bran
x bmed 2
- 4pm med
- 4pm class
- go to gym and transfer account
- bmed 3
- hmed 2
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Nothing diminishes anxiety faster than action - Walter Anderson
Edge's CI - 5:34pm
x 8am meds
x hmed 1
x bmd 1
x kitty litter
- finish A assignment and submit
- cancel on M
x fh: eb
x bran
x bmed 2
x 4pm med
x 4pm class
x go to gym and transfer account
- bmed 3
- hmed 2
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Nothing diminishes anxiety faster than action - Walter Anderson
Edge's CI - 10:07pm
Woohoo! I finished all my to-dos! *hugs self*
x 8am meds
x hmed 1
x bmd 1
x kitty litter
x finish A assignment and submit
x fh: eb
x bran
x bmed 2
x 4pm med
x 4pm class
x go to gym and transfer account
x bmed 3
x hmed 2
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Nothing diminishes anxiety faster than action - Walter Anderson
Oh, I'm so pleased to hear
Oh, I'm so pleased to hear this. And with 2 hours to spare, no less! Way to go :)
Thanks Lucky :D
*hugs*
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Nothing diminishes anxiety faster than action - Walter Anderson
Good enough friend to
Good enough friend to invite her over for a workparty? Either way, good luck, and I love the threadstarter :)
Ha! My friend is coming over
Ha! My friend is coming over to help me with my assignment! Thanks for suggesting it, Lucky :grin:
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Nothing diminishes anxiety faster than action - Walter Anderson
YAY! You're welcome
YAY! You're welcome :)
Thanks, Lucky :)
I think I'll just cancel today, will need to focus if I want to pull through :) I'm sure she'll understand.
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Nothing diminishes anxiety faster than action - Walter Anderson