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Tuesday 27 October 2009

'habit and imagination... are far more powerful than logic and willpower will ever be'

-Paul McKenna

One small step at a time... a new habit starts with the first action

Journey 9:30

I just realized I never checked in yesterday.   It was a weird day.  I worked from home, and it rained all day, which made me feel sleepy and unfocused.  But fortunately, it was ONE OF THOSE DAYS when stuff just happened one after another and I spent the whole day fighting fires and didn't have a chance to goof off! 

Today I feel much more rested and focused so hopefully this will be a day of project work, rather than fixing problems all day lol.   I kinda like the problem fixing part of my job, but I have projects with due dates too.

I've been to the gym, stopped by the grocery store for a couple of items, and I've completed one small task which was needed asap.   Now I'm finishing todo list and planning out the rest of the day.


"The world is my classroom, each day is a new lesson, and every person I meet is my teacher" - Craig Harper

Recycler CI 9:2pm EST

Hi Pro Buddies!

super-short CI since I am sleepy with rainy weather & after meditation class.

Today = gym, work, meeting at lunch, more work, updated project list for tomorrow, fixed & ate dinner, volunteer activity + meditation class.

Have a great night, everyone! :)



Thank you, gals & guys, for being here! :)

Lucky CI

The new tactic of writing down achievements, rather than a list of to-dos that I can fail at, is REALLY WORKING. I feel much more professional and much more like a proper person instead of a mess of bits trying to fake it. I've felt more capable, more proactive, more positive and even more awake! And yet it's not been perfect. There's been procrastination and failure today, but it's been a bit easier than usual to drag myself back from it, and what stands out is how much I've got done!
Measuring my day by achievements makes me realise how much I was measuring it moment by moment against total perfection, total productivity. Every second wasted was a black mark on my day. And I tried to get around that by more and more elaborate structuring, which only gave me more ways to fail. 
I'm sure the elaborate time-management things *do* work when you're not in my current state of mind - I know people they work for, and they may work for me in the future - but for now I'm trying to timetable myself much less strictly at work, and at home to use my planner just for 'reminders not to forget things' rather than a full-on daily tasklist. This is actually quite a scary challenge - I'm not sure I can be trusted with this level of freedom - but that's clearly low self-esteem talking because just look at what I've done so far:
Checked personal email, LJ, etc
Got to work on time, looking presentable and without mad rushing
Read book on train
Checked work email
Changed E's printer toner, reset her printer and ordered new toner
Cleaned puddle of coffee off her desk as best I could without moving anything :)
Let colleagues know about L's absence
Scanned a document for her to work on from home
Passed a couple of messages around for her
Read team objectives for the year while eating breakfast
Liked one bit so much I cut it out, highlighted it and taped it to my computer
Updated tasklist
Moved old emails to backlog file
Moved all contract and bible emails to correct files
Spent some time on planning
Printed all outstanding bible changes
Found and emailed some contracts
Called loan company
Called debt management company
Paid rent
Paid money owed to housemate, let her know and reminded her to buy hair products
Made a shopping list
Checked for work
Got cash out, paid money I owed to postroom and couriered personal thing for L
Paid MORE money to housemate because I forgot something
Printed all outstanding contracts for bible
Priority-sorted all work tasks and emails
Checked sendability of letter with D
Queried something in letter
Made changes to a letter for E, gave her two alternatives because I thought the spacing looked weird
Cleaned up remnants of coffee puddle
Posted 1 contract
Found a more legible scan for L and sent random chatty email to cheer her up
Made changes to letter for D
Scanned, emailed and posted letter
Found, scanned and emailed a contract
Made coffee run
Emailed catering re charity boxes at coffee places
Got tea for D
Put today's signed contracts in correct drawers
Corrected an error in D's letter and reprinted
Called postroom to stop delivery of the letter with the error
Finished routing contracts and bible stuff
Updated spreadsheet
Re-emailed and posted D's letter
Did some bible filing
Tidied desk
Read book on train
Ordered pizza
Posted this!

Spirit 10/27

Started off this morning in action

  • dressed by 8 and out
  • morning pnone check in
  • outside appts 10-12
  • email info
  • check email
  • client care
  • return call
  • grocery store errands
  • brunch
  • prepare for launch of Project P this wk
  • organize paperwork for easy processing
  • get np list
  • make contact with advisors
  • make plan to gather final numbers to submit


OCz morning ci

a new habit starts with the first action!

  1. A minute to talk to God, Thank you for another day!
  2. Show Up!
  3. morning mail check
  4. Review tasks for this week
  5. @Wk
    1. MoP
      1. Finish ppt 
      2. Email Fco
      3. Sched mtng Fco
      4. Email vendor -> working on it!
      5. Call vendor on afternoon
      6. meet Fco Fri @14:30
      7. Agree on next steps
    2. MRy
    3. BaM
      1. Request 8+
      2. prepare CC report
    4. CxP
      1. Tmx
      2. Tcl
      3. Mtr
      4. ???
    5. EdP
      1. F&D report
  6. @GaP:
    1. change calendar entries
    2. post this weekend activities review
  7. @Hm:
    1. Plan FDay
    2. Dist Hm
    3. Finish Bk
  8. @W:
    1. Plan new Sts

today's opening brings a interesting thought: sure, I need to take action, but, in what direction? what new set of habits do I want to develop?  I'll think about it during quiet times! Feel free to share yours!

GeorgeSmiley 9:45 AM

Spent the first 45 minutes or so goofing off. Have been focusing on Project Hx  since then, but some distractions. Need to get that going today.




Want what you have. Be who you are. Do what you can. ~Forrest Church (1948-2009)


The Hero's Code:

Show Up. Pay Attention. Speak the Truth. Let Go o

kromer 9:45 CI

So far this morning I did laundry and went grocery shopping.

Today is a busy day. 

I have 2 meetings, that will keep me busy 10-1.

I need to analyze realtime data and make a slide of it for tomorrow's meeting.

I need to do some work taking care of my mice (actually, tech says I should postpone this until Friday)

I have this takehome midterm to do...yesterday I mostly worked through a few problems. Today I want to get the solutions to 2 problems completely written up, if possible.

And, I have some website updates to do, which are about a month late (eep!) I'm going to get in some serious trouble if I don't get them done. (will do this after dancing)

Um and I need a schedule for the rest of the week.

And I want to talk to CH and email DC. (this was really hard, but it's done)

OK, heading to meeting now. After meeting I'll see if tech can help me w/ mice, then I'll analyze realtime data and make slide.  

Hope-Faith CI 8:45

Make up googledoc for Tearry  Started but not done will have to work on it later

  1. A1
    1. PPT and Send E-mail  
    2. Begin developing next unit
      1. Print out Curr Done
      2. Determine Pacing Done
      3. Calendar  Done
      4. Pretest 4.01 Done
      5. Setup notebooks Done
      6. Type Pretest into quia
  2. A2
    1. PPT and Send E-mail   
    2. Begin developing next unit
      1. Print out Curr Done
      2. Determine Pacing Done
      3. Calendar  
      4. Setup notebooks
  3. Declutter desk did not work on this yesterday so will need to do so today (10 more mins done)

 After work

Time Frame

  1. 3:15 town to buy hc
  2. 5:00 Ballet

Things to do

  • Get Camera ready for tournment
  • Patches on B/S
  • Fix DD's H Costume Done
  • Study Guide for DS Test 


vic 10/27

 showing up(done)

Have been using "visualize" first, then "break it down"- so far "showing up" is my only "consistent habit" - I guess better than nothing, much better than "starting over" or even worse, I dread to even think "shutting down"

Keep it up Vic!

You already know how important is to show up! it is indeed a good habit!

You already know shutting down is NOT an option!

I'll recommend a new habit for all of us: Smile!  Smile some more!   :laugh:  even more ::grin:: laugh if you can! 

Have a great day! Wink

OCz, that's a great

OCz, that's a great recommendation, thank you :):):)

CL daily overcoming

> 'habit and imagination... are far more powerful than logic and willpower will ever be'

habit. :( we are not friends. but that is changing. I personally feel like i give up my will, my choices, when i follow any habit. But that is exactly what i am trying to do in my recovery. Step 3: i yield my life and will to God. and habit is just one of those ways.

i do find habit very powerful. feel sorry i neglected it for so many years. No time like the present, tho, huh?

willpower: never my strong suit anyway. small loss here.

logic: my fav. but i have to admit God's logic is better than mine ;)

imagination: another of my favs. i believe one has to have imagination to see god. God is, in part, something we imagine. Eg when you read a novel and it has a profound effect on you, your imagination has become real. I find god like that, in part.

now, onto my plan for the day.

7:53 right now. CI - DONE
8 any emerg email and mtgs - started an email, then realized, then stopped @8:10 - DONE
8:10 daily maint - DONE
8:20 quiet time - (20 min late) - 9:10 DONE

but powerful: This verse made my day:
John 7:38
Whoever believes in me, as the Scripture has said, streams of living water will flow from within him."

9:10 was:8:50 15m rdy - DONE
9:25 driv - DONE
9:35 appt 1 - DONE
10:05 driv - DONE
10:15 1/2 str
10:30 driv - DONE
11 appt 2 - DONE
1145 driv - DONE
i read and responded to some email
1245 str
115 work plan
thr db
125 FK dt issue
135 other email
145 work

the touch of the master's hand:

"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb

CL daily overcoming 2

1245 str - DONE
115 work plan
thr db - DONE
125 FK dt issue
135 other email - PARTIAL
145 work
re reg - PARTIAL
db fixes - IN PROGRESS

the touch of the master's hand:

"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb

Oh, I REALLY like

Oh, I REALLY like this:


imagination: another of my favs. i believe one has to have imagination
to see god. God is, in part, something we imagine. Eg when you read a
novel and it has a profound effect on you, your imagination has become
real. I find god like that, in part


is that what it's like for you?
i find this idea in c.s.lewis works. I think he believed something similar. it's a big part of my life.

the touch of the master's hand:

"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb

It's kind of what it's like

It's kind of what it's like for me... put it this way, I do think that fictional characters and even a child's toys can become very, very real, not in an obvious way, but.. oh gosh, it's circular. By being real to someone they become REAL TO SOMEONE, and by being real to many, many people, they gather strength somehow... I suspect divinity is somewhat above and beyond being loved into reality like a worn cuddly toy, but  I do think you sort of... get out what you put in, to an extent. :)

It's something like 'Whether you think you can, or think you can't, you're right' - with apologies (actually, with NO apologies :) for banging on about Mary Poppins again, the Sun says this in one of the books:

" What is real and what is not? Can you tell me or I you? Perhaps we shall never know more than this—that to think a thing is to make it true. And so, if Michael thought he had the Moon in his arms—why, then, he had indeed."

"Then," said Jane wonderingly, "is it true that we are here to-night or do we only think we are?"

The Sun smiled again, a little sadly.

"Child," he said, "seek no further! From the beginning of the world all men have asked that question. And I, who am Lord of the Sky—even I do not know the answer. I am certain only that this is the Evening Out, that the Constellations are shining in your eyes and that it is true if you think it is. . ."

I don't think I'd picked up that CS Lewis also believed this, but now I think about it, yeah, clearly. The Calormenes manage to believe Tash into existence in 'The Last Battle' and I think Aslan's 'I am bigger because you are older' feeds into this as well - I have read some of Lewis's more theological stuff but can't remember coming across this concept anywhere in there - quotes/pointers please, this is really interesting!

the velveteen rabbit--one of my favs

is that what you were referring to with toys becoming real? that's one of my favorites! I have this CD with george winston playing in the background and merril streep reading the book. All 3 are beautiful art, all combined. i've listened to it many times! I love it!

cslewis... hard to say. Things like: in the last battle he tells the children that they had to meet him there, in narnia, so that he would know him in their own world. And yet, we, the readers also meet aslan in narnia, in a world of fiction/fantasy, and that helps us know Jesus in our real world.

And susan did not come back to narnia, because she "grew up" so to speak.

And in my 2nd fav book, the silver chair, the green witch casts a spell on the main chars so that they start to doubt whether the overworld is real. Then puddleglum puts his foot into the fire, and says this:

Suppose we have only dreamed, or made up, all those things-trees and grass and sun and moon and stars and Aslan himself. Suppose we have. Then all I can say is that, in that case, the made-up things seem a good deal more important than the real ones. Suppose this black pit of a kingdom of yours is the only world. Well, it strikes me as a pretty poor one. And that's a funny thing, when you come to think of it. We're just babies making up a game, if you're right. But four babies playing a game can make a play-world which licks your real world hollow. That's why I'm going to stand by the play world. I'm on Aslan's side even if there isn't any Aslan to lead it. I'm going to live as like a Narnian as I can even if there isn't any Narnia. So, thanking you kindly for our supper, if these two gentlemen and the young lady are ready, we're leaving your court at once and setting out in the dark to spend our lives looking for Overland. Not that our lives will be very long, I should think; but that's a small loss if the world's as dull a place as you say.

this quote moves me so significantly, even now, revisiting it. I can't quite put my finger on it, but it just moves me.

and as for imagination, i think that quote hits the nail on the head. funny my muddled brain did not think of it first off.

the touch of the master's hand:

"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb

That's a stunning quote...

That's a stunning quote... and yes, I was indeed referring to the velveteen rabbit :)