Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.

Thursday October 8,2009

 Grateful

Serenity Courage Wisdom

No one who achieves success does so without the help of others.
The wise and confident acknowledge this help with gratitude.

Alfred North Whitehead

8 at 8:24 am

opps wrong date.

fudoshin - 29 days - 10.09.09 (2:10am)

Please do not leave advice.  Thank you.  Prayers welcome. 

                                                                                                

29 days I said the following:

So I am going to do a 30-day detox:

  • No youtube, no youtube watch network, no youtube on other sites whenever I can avoid it, no ustream, no blogtv
  • no fan lines, especially saynow.com
  • No facebook
  • no okcupid or other dating sites, including jdate or Plenty of Fish
  • No contacting men I find attractive on Myspace
  • No Internet chat that is not twelve-step or for work purposes. 
    When I think about doing this with someone I need to come back to my
    personal objectives. 
  • No public blogging on livejournal or blogspot and other such sites, but I can use blogger for private journalling, if necessary.

And I'm committing to the following toplines:

breakfast

thirty minutes of exercise{running, swimming, yoga, dance, ballet, tap, karate, walking, jogging}

a daily assessment of my goals and affirmations

brushing my teeth and using listerine in the morning

brushing, using floss , listerine and a periodontic brush at night

 

My assessment of myself: pretty good!   I avoided these successfully but I have to admit that one day I was on a site advertising a movie and that movie had a utube video as its trailer, and that was not exactly what I wrote.  I wrote that I'd avoid utube on other sites, whenever possible and I KNEW what I was doing.  But I don't think taht just because of viewing that one movie trailer that that puts all of my work to shame, since I have worked so hard in all other wys.  I cannot work this program perfectly anymore than I can actually realize my ideal of perfectionism, but I can accomplish my goals, and I have achieved avoidance from these sites for 29 days.  And I think that's a pretty big deal.  I want to address how well I've done my toplines now: breakfast, I've been excellent at.  The daily assessment of my goals, the thirty minutes of exercise, and brushing/flossing/using listerine at night need some work.  But that's okay.  First things first.   Despite what my therapist thinks about my relationship with my sponsor resembling my relationship with my qualifiers, I think that just having a sponsor who gets me to write down my steps each week, and makes me check in, in a positive way, and makes me talk about my program and has boundaries about timing may actually be a good thing for me.  Hell, I am happy to have a sponsor.  SO I just want to thank my HP that i was able to find this person WILLIng to be my sponsor.  I very much appreciate it.  And I don't like that my therapist was saying that I should be careful what it is I'm actually getting out of my sponsor.  I think that....I am content at this point in my life with what I am receiving.  maybe I am settling, but at this point in my life, it is fine.  I am just happy to have a sponsor and I pray to my HP that i can continue showing up for her, which is really a prayer about SHOWING UP for myself.

Also, I am back to DAY 1 on the tooth brushing, b/c I didn't do that, so I got to think of some other way to do this.

The other issue is that I never did finish the work that i was hoping to finish that was behind "school work" -- the stuff I was hoping to finish that is the reason I didn't go on those dates, the reason I took off thirty days, the reason I had to pay 768 dollars and possibly more.  I need to make an amends to myself for this addiction.  Tomorrow, I promise to go on a run, I've already used up my walking and rest days for a week.  And tomorrow, I shall definitely get to sleep on time. By on time, I mean by 12am.  I think that's sensible.  

Also next week I must remember to go to that DA meeting on Thursday or try out a new DA meeting.  I must remember to checkin with that phone meeting again for UA.

 

Crayon CI -- after a long absence

I'm back, after several weeks of silence...  I'm not sure what happened, I just couldn't take it anymore...the constant struggle of fighting against myself...so I just let go for a few weeks and just rolled with the punches for a while.  Then I got sick and ended up in the hospital, but that is a story for another day.

I'm trying to summon the energy again to fight and overcome.  I'm going to try to take it in smaller steps this time though, perhaps with a bit more understanding and kindness toward myself.

To do for today: show up (done).

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Nothing is so fatiguing as the eternal hanging on of an uncompleted task.

~William James

wb crayon

Sorry to hear you were in hospital and hope you are all well now!

Jo  

"You've got to trust your instinct, and let go of regret.  You've got to bet on yourself now, star, 'cause that's your best bet." - from All Mixed Up by 311

OCz CI

I will stop counting days until I can say I didn't procrastinte today! I'ts not the same thing to not do something just because there was just not enough time on the day than not completing tasks but instead surf the net or simply stare at the pile of unfinished stuff!

  1. Thank you God for another day!
  2. Show up!
  3. Good progress on xls!
  4. Send MoP comments

Thank you all for being here!

one step at a time!

re: counting the days

It's a process OCz, we don't recover overnight although that would be nice. 

I'm not sure if this is the same issue, but I've tried building habits by trying to do something 30 days IN A ROW and then felt defeated because I missed a day and had to start over.   So now this is what I do:   When I'm trying to build a habit, I plan a reward for myself when I have done it 30 times, and they don't have to be in a row.  This seems to inspire me more and I'm less likely to give up. 

Jo

"You've got to trust your instinct, and let go of regret.  You've got to bet on yourself now, star, 'cause that's your best bet." - from All Mixed Up by 311

Thanks Jo

sounds like something I migth try and also has logic... replace bad procrastination habits with good ones!

one step at a time!

To do for today

P.E.D.L. - Plan, Execute, Debrief, Learn

  • Three mile run
  • Weights/chest workout
  • Start Reconciling Trade Show Account
  • Send out thank you's for b-day wishes
  • Teach Yoga
  • Purchase tickets to reunion

Reward

  • Chocolate bar tonight

A good day

It wasn't too hard of a day. But I did manage to get the major items completed. I procrastinated a little on my work item. But I found once I started, I couldn't stop. So, as always... it's just a matter of starting.

hi PEDL

Just saying Hi, I see you've been a member for a long time but I haven't seen you post before.

Jo  

"You've got to trust your instinct, and let go of regret.  You've got to bet on yourself now, star, 'cause that's your best bet." - from All Mixed Up by 311

kromer 10:15 CI

OK, feeling a little bit unfocused today.

MITs are:
*Deacon notes, retreat notes
*Finish staining
*Mtg w/ MG
*Emails (will do this soon)
*2 HW problems
*Harambee planning

*Finish reading papers on cycle

Other tasks:
*Get GSEA and sparse LDA working
*Website updates
*Make buffers (will do this soon, it's easy)
*Look into Sertoli cell sorting

OK, right now I'm finishing up the staining, and during breaks I'll do HW problems and reading on the cycle. 

Heading to the chatbox now. 

GeorgeSmiley 8:48 AM

Project U and also Project ENP.

Going to do some time on ENP first, then U.

 

 

 

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Want what you have. Be who you are. Do what you can. ~Forrest Church (1948-2009)

The Hero's Code:

Show Up. Pay Attention. Speak the Truth. Let Go of the Outcome.

Journey 9 am

In the office today and off to a good start!   Yesterday was ok, reasonably productive for a work-at-home day.  Today, I've been to the gym, read email, checked calendar, and I'm making my todo list for the day.  I have fewer meeting today so I will have more time for project work.   I don't know what's up with all these meetings lately!

Jo

"A friend is someone who knows all about you and still loves you." - Elbert Hubbard

Spirit 10/09

Good morning all,

While phone waiting for the morning checkin, I thought I would begin making my lists.

  • trash out
  • recycle out
  • breakfast
  • client phone appt @ 10

Spirit

CL daily overcoming

having to deal w/ the fear of success. i'm early again today. yesterday i was early, and i procras anyway. :( :^( =( blah

today, but by the grace of god, i will do the same thing. Brother Lawrence says:
- i will never be able to do otherwise if you leave me to myself.
The great power i draw from that is that it forces me to totally surrender to god.

which is what i need to succeed today. because i'm an addict.

8:10 ck mtgs and emerg only email -- @8:12 DONE
8:10 quiet time -- @9:00 DONE
900 (was:8:40) wko -- (25 min late, why?) @10:25 DONE
10:25 (was:9:25; 9:45) dailies -- @10:35 DONE
1035 make wk plan -- @1045 DONE
1045 work - DONE
- 11:17 timer went off, checking back in, not binging, being aware, remembering it's all god's business
1150 get lunch - DONE
12 bible study @work - (was canceled) DONE
12:42 work some more (dont binge)

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the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748

"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb

Vic 10/9/09

Show up, sponsee talk,(done) still struggling with cyber school catch up, got books yesterday, big help vs. flipping screens on computer, need to finish part 2, walk figuse schedule, need to write 2 leases for tonite, old job sent me application to do contract work- want to do this- need to do and stop thinking.

 balance, an issue for me and so many I know. I believe the cover quote from Naikan: that living with gratitude goes a long way toward helping you find balance in life. Sometimes it's just the lesson of the tightrope walker - quit looking at the ground before your feet. Chin up and see the horizon instead.by G. Daniels