"Our Higher Power is now our time manager."
from "The Promises of Recovery" http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1624
Greetings to my PA-Pals! You are all so dear to me and my Higher Power - hope you know that today. I've had a good day though not productive as I'd planned - yesterday was a day of rest and 12-Step activities in a neighboring town. J fended for himself for the day, first time since the surgery, and he did OK. I promised myself I would start today early with church, then work and studying. Eh.
J didn't feel up to church today, but I went anyway and then took myself out to eat. My procrastination gets much worse when I'm feeling neglected - you know that "I never have any fun" feeling - so these were pretty healthy choices for me today. After lunch I did a little shopping, came home and arranged flowers - very relaxing! - cleaned the kitchen, swept and spot-cleaned the kitchen and main bathroom floors, had a good phone call with a friend, did a load of dishes and a load of laundry, and prepped some food for later. Just as I logged on I realized it was PA Meeting time, so I did that and got some helpful ideas.
Now it is time to think about the 24 hours ahead. I figured out that the reason Step 11 in the Big Book says that "upon awakening, we consider our plans for the day," is because I'm supposed to already have plans for the day. So for the last week I've been jotting down a plan in the evening for the next day. This is working well for me right now.
Wow, it feels great just to have thought that through on "paper" here. I can see that I am going to be up against it thie rest of this month no matter what I do, so I can see how much I need to rely on my Higher Power to keep me ordered. Thanks for being here!
Still at recovery today! Woo hoo! Ain't gonna give up, and I KNOW my HP is never giving up on me!
Cleaning and decluttering in 15 minute segments for a major garage sale again next weekend. I have stayed away from the slippery place of laying down on my bed or sofa. Had good sleep last night, will have more tonight. I don't need a nap.
Please do not leave advice. Thank you. Prayers welcome.
*30 minutes of exercise
*read As I Lay Dying again
*take notes on papers, and read them
*apply for unemployment insurance, it must be done
*read my goals and affirmations
*peregrination to the tea shop,
This has been an amazing week. I am full of gratitude. Wondrous things are showing in my life.
I am grateful for the inspiration behind the 12 steps. Make the commitment. Do the work. And miracles happen.
"If we are painstaking about this phase of our development, we will be amazed before we are halfway through". (from Big Book of AA)
Hugs to all,
Just back from church retreat. It was awesome! But now I'm exhausted, and therefore tempted to fall into web-surfing and other mindless activities (that's already starting to happen). Instead, I want to do some focused work, and some relaxing. In particular, I want to:
1)Finish reading about RT-PCR, read about RNA extraction
2)Start working on poster (choose a title, sketch out roughly what I want on it, add title/authors to illustrator file)
3)Make a schedule for next week (mostly done, but will have to update at home based on info I have there and how much I get done this evening)
4)Make prelim. list of 10 possible committee members
And, if I get time, I would like to:
Send out deacon mtg notes
Take care of Harambee stuff
Decide Dmc1 age
(will work on these things after dinner, starting w/ deacon and Harambee stuff)
OK, I'm going to start by working on poster. That will help me figure out what my priorities should be for next week's work. Heading to the chatbox now (I'll need to talk myself through this step-by-step)
Well, I've made decent progress, but now I'm very tired. I think I'll unpack, shower and go to bed. I'll try to get up reasonably early, so I can do sme deacons/Harambee stuff in the morning.
Showing up (done)church,store,some wash
Having those "everyone hates me" I'm "pathetic" feelings, hard to shake, so showing up is 1st baby step
awww wook at da kittie :) so cute :)
Thank you, gals & guys, for being here! :)
Thank you, I could use hugs.
I'm a fair way through my day so some of this is already done! May not make it to the meeting tonight for reasons of busy.
This gives me about another 3.5h of tasks today - not impossible!
Hi Pro Buddies!
This morning I went on my bike ride, went to a mid-morning activity, bought provisions for the week, put gas in the car, dropped some things off at Goodwill, returned some library books, and put away the refrigerator groceries upon returning to the condo. I am going to walk to the festival for a quick lunch, before company comes over.
Yesterday my company was anti-climatic. Today I need to straighten around the condo before today's company comes over, but this person is more laid back, so I don't feel like I need to be as worried about it. I hope to update my CI later.
Back from lunch. Utility room is clear = 1pm. Kitchen area is clean, entryway area is clean, guest bathroom is clean = 1:20pm. Seating area is cleaned up = 1:26pm. Original artwork and collector dolls are arranged for my guest to enjoy = 1:35pm. Elapsed clean-up time = 35 minutes. That is a lot better than the 3 hours it took yesterday lol! ;) Anyway, I have done what I need to do to be ready for my guest, so I will rest for 20 minutes, until it is time to go downstairs to greet them out front.
4:50pm. Today went really good! Guest arrived. They were very appreciative and kept exclaiming over hospitality and condo, so that made me feel good :) We also walked up to the festival & went in. After they drove away, I started something to cook in the oven. When it is ready, I will eat it for dinner, then progress on other things, such as preparing my gym bags for the week. I think I need to spend some time with HP, too.
8:51pm. I washed 2 loads of loads; put some on the drying racks; for the ones that I dried in the machine, I folded & put those away. I packed my gym bags & have them loaded to go in the morning. I boxed up the leftovers from my dinner, for tomorrow. I talked to my dad on the phone. I re-straightened the utility room, kitchen, and entry area. I have taken my melatonin for tonight.
While I still need to brush my teeth, other than that I'm ready as I can be for tomorrow. Probably meditating for a few minutes would be a good idea.
Have a great afternoon, everyone! :)
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"Group higher power" in action!
1. prepare breakfast
2. complete all laundry (2 loads are done!)
3. prep. lunch
4. org clothing for tomorrow
5. practice violin w/z
6. practice hw w/z
7. practice eval. w/z
8. read to z
9. sched. I.D.
10. complete A.S. Report
11. J.L. Report
14. read vis. ther-10
15. read-neuro. 10
So, yet again, I'm terrified of this report that is months and months late and caused me (most likely) to lose the job offer that I'd gotten from my summer job. This report is a graduation requirement, as is completion of my summer internship/job so it HAS to be done. I promised up and down that I would finish it this weekend and, yet again, have not started. However, I did plan to wake up at 8, which I did, and start working on it at 9am, and here it is 9:45 and I'm at the computer, getting set up...so I think I at least have an okay start.
So this is my plan
All-in-all that adds up to 21 hours, so I think it is pretty clear I'm not sleeping tonight :(
Nothing is so fatiguing as the eternal hanging on of an uncompleted task.
I so relate to your share. Your sincere honesty is felt by many of us, thank you. I know you will have something to turn in and it will be ok. Remember, all we have is today. We need to stay in that file. My prayers are with you.
Crayon, I am SO rooting for you. Good luck! I'm sure you can do it (and I'm glad you're finding my time estimates idea helpful - even if it's not telling you anything you want to hear today!)
I'm a legal PA (the job, not the website) so it had already crossed my mind that you probably weren't getting much sleep. I wish I could do something to help, but can't really think what... I'm thinking of you anyway. Keep us posted.
But I'm feeling incredibly discouraged right now because I still haven't finished the research part of my report, much less written a word.
Today's meeting was great -- I hoped it would inspire me to get out of my funk, but I'm just feeling very VERY stuck right now and very down on myself :(
Thanks to all for the kind words! It means a lot to me to have this kind of a supporting environment!
I've been slowly SLOWLY reviewing my research/outlining today, so I'm really feeling stressed. I haven't even gotten to the drafting stage...nor have I prepped for tomorrow's meeting. It probably isn't horrible if I don't prep for the meeting, but it will mean that the meeting won't really accomplish all I'd hoped. Arg!
My updated plan is below:
Good morning, and thanks for starting us out Clem. I've been on vacation so I've been absent from these forums, and I've missed them. Today my brother and mother are coming over for Sunday dinner, so I need to get busy and get the visible parts of the house cleaned up! I am going to put in a loaf of bread to bake (mix in the bread machine), make tea and get out the good dishes. Then I'll spend the rest of the time cleaning the kitchen, and straightening, dusting and vacuuming living room and dining room. My brother is cooking everything else, what about that!
Tomorrow is back to work and I'm actually looking forward to going back!
"A friend is someone who knows all about you and still loves you." - Elbert Hubbard
up early, amazing.
have about 10-15 min. Have a package i need 2 mail.
the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748
"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb
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