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Tuesday Spetember 8, 2009

 Walking toward the light, one step at a time.

fudoshin Commitment 4:11am on Wednesday morning 09.09.09

Please do not leave advice.  Thank you.  Prayers welcome. 



Been spending far too much time on the dating sites, youtube and chatting online via the dating site, or just plain trolling.  Also I feel jealous when I see pictures of people in involvements on facebook.  I just feel far too much "with it," as Wordsworth would say.  I don't like being too involved with other people, and worrying about whether said people are rejecting me or being hyper concerned about appearance.  These are the last things to worry about right now.  I need some space for me.   I know this disease is not just about abstinence, but also productivity or topline behavior, more than anything, else, but I know I cannot move forward, if I've still got the old habits or am using procrastination via a dating site or other, in order to anaesthetize.  So I am going to do a 30-day detox:

  • No youtube, no youtube watch network, no youtube on other sites whenever I can avoid it, no ustream, no blogtv
  • no fan lines, especially
  • No facebook
  • no okcupid or other dating sites, including jdate or Plenty of Fish
  • No contacting men I find attractive on Myspace
  • No Internet chat that is not twelve-step or for work purposes.  When I think about doing this with someone I need to come back to my personal objectives. 
  • No public blogging on livejournal or blogspot and other such sites, but I can use blogger for private journalling, if necessary.

And I'm committing to the following toplines:


thirty minutes of exercise{running, swimming, yoga, dance, ballet, tap, karate, walking, jogging}

a daily assessment of my goals and affirmations

brushing my teeth and using listerine in the morning

brushing, using floss , listerine and a periodontic brush at night

Recycler CI 8:55pm EST

Hi Pro Buddies!

Starting out = really stressful day. Ending up = sort-of ok day.

This morning I went to the gym, and did my stretching & ab exercises.

This morning at work was very stressful. There was 1 or more things that I was very concerned about. Stress stress stress -- shoot me now. Still not real thrilled about everything, but made it through. It could have been a bigger deal, but walked through it anyway. Tomorrow will be another suit-up & show-up day, but so far I am too emotionally depleted from this day to get too bugged out about tomorrow. ((small argghhh)) You know, sometimes you have to go hour by hour, and somehow it has to be enough. That's how it is.

At work I did my projects; I updated my assignment list & emailed it to my bosses since we aren't having a meeting this week. Project list is really long as we are back into the autumn season. Plus, kind of having issues about other things isn't really helping. ((another silent-ish argghhh))

I did eat, but basically worked through my lunch hour, due to time crunch from yesterday's holiday + deadline projects. It's ok, though, because I am getting in some extra time toward an afternoon appt on Thursday.

After lunch, I tried to go more by priority order. There were at least 1-2 other projects I wanted to work on, but some deadline projects needed to be queqed up first, so that is what happened. At the end of the day, I updated my assignment list, and highlighted the desired projects for in the morning (depending on how morning email looks). (That reminds me, I want to check work email after this).

After work, I stopped by the condo & changed clothes before going to my evening volunteer meetings. Those went well. I am going to see how far I can get in typing meeting minutes before going to sleep. From a class assignment, I also need to do an evening meditation before going to sleep. Yup, I'm not achieving perfection today, lol! Oh well.

Believe it or not, this is doing about the best I can; so that's just the way it is.

Have a great night, everyone! :)



Thank you, gals & guys, for being here! :)

Potential Energy 4:23


I found this site just prior to the weekend and have used the check in and chat to get through much needed...much overdue needed stuff.  Well, I went to work today and had a great day due to all of the work that I finally did.  I was starting to absolutely dread work, but I think as I get better this might change. I still have myself in quite a hole, but now I am thinking that I might be able to work myself out of it.   

1.  go to work

2. groceries

3. email finalization of scheds.

4.  go to pharmacy

5.  one more report, try A. M. report

6.  loads of wash that i did this weekend really need to be put away (1/4 away)

7.  sweep floors

8. vac. z room

9.  pack add. materials to take into work for Thurs.

10.  cpr??? 

11. put clothes out for work.

go to bed and up at 6 for work

Crayon CI - 3pm, 9:30pm update


Hello all. Having a lot of guilt today that I didn't do any schoolwork or work-related work over the three-day weekend and instead spent it with family. Now WAAAY too much to do and mired in guilt/panic.
Here is the plan for today (don't know why strikethrough isn't working):
  • Morning routine (DONE)
  • LRW class (DONE)
  • IT class (DONE)
  • CO class (DONE)
  • LL class
  • FL prep for meeting (DONE)
  • ASP (DONE)
  • PA morning check in (DONE)
  • Remember to drink plenty of water (DONE)
  • meeting with M
  • meeting with KC
  • Prep for LL
  • FM
  • schedule JN
  • LRW
  • FL reading
  • IT reading
  • Thank you to HL
  • Thank you to SS
  • Spanish
  • check in
  • TR
  • BF&W
  • food
  • take out garbage
  • ZT
  • make lunch for tomorrow



Nothing is so fatiguing as the eternal hanging on of an uncompleted task.

~William James

GeorgeSmiley: 11:30 AM

Still not getting started very fast.

Imported Falcon's "New Policy" and modified it, then proceeded to ignore it. Felt like I was going from an AA meeting straight to the corner bar.[Clarity: that's just a metaphor. I am not in AA and I don't have a drinking problem, but it's a clear analogy for my problem with procrastination and work avoidance.]


OK. Next thing: Work on Project P-Q





Want what you have. Be who you are. Do what you can. ~Forrest Church

The Hero's Code:

Show Up. Pay Attention. Speak the Truth. Let Go of the Outcome.

(hope4meandu) - check-in (noon)

Hi Guys,

Showed up to work today!!

I realize that I don't see procrastination as an addiction. Sunday was such a poop day because I didn't want to accomplish anything.

Need help from HP & you guys if we should move to this new place. I've been wanting to move for more than a year.

-I like the apartment a lot
-good rent
-my dog really likes it
-big back yard and porch to share
-they like dogs

-there would be lots of work to do, and with my apathy it kind of frightens me
-block isn't that nice
-commute will be about 30 minutes longer and harder
-landlords seem lazy and uninterested in fixing & upkeep (hmm...sounds like me)

Because of what I'm learning here, I will ask HP to do the next right thing and get some work done. Feeling lazy & uninspired.

I appreciate being able to share about the apartment here, it takes a load off.

Wishing you an easy and prosperous day!!

♥"Kindness and truth have met, righteousness and peace have kissed." Psalm 85♥

Good Morning - Jules CI

Hi gang,

Feeling a little sad today, but hopeful too.  I have pretty much realized that I need to sell my grandmother's house, the house that I live in.  Actually I have to let my mom and uncle sell it.  I've been trying to buy it contract-for-deed, but due to my underearning (a DA issue, but that's what made me realize I need PA), I really haven't made much headway on it.  Haven't  even filed the paperwork, after 4 years.  (well, I also partially didn't file b/c I know I would have trouble keeping up on payments.)

Anyway, I think this will enable me to really do the things I want to do with my life.  Having my own business means more to me than this specific house.  And now that I have been taking action steps for 3 months running, I feel like I will get there.

Did anyone ever read How to Get Out Of Debt by Gerrold Mundis?  It's a classic case of "Keel the Bool".

So when Pro stated in his article: people lose houses over procrastination (or something like that), here's one more case.  At any rate, today, I am going to work for 2 hours on my business (sewing), 2 hours on cleaning in the house, and 2 hours on pulling for the garage sale this weekend.  All with appropriate breaks.

Thanks for listening.  PS What is making me feel ok is knowing that I have friends, fellows in my other program, and your fellowship here.  It has already made a huge difference.  Thank you!


WDW Check-In 09.08.09

Hello All…thanks for the congrats potential energy…now I just need to keep going at a sustainable pace. I’ll try to use tools 9 (Develop Routines) and 10 (Bookend Tasks and Time) to hopefully get out of the “funk” I’ve been in for the past months (maybe years??).  For many years of my life I scratched out words like..might, maybe, and even hopefully out of my dictionary…for me it was..IT WILL BE… I MAKE THINGS HAPPEN…and you know what, it worked for many years…but it was hard and when I slowed down it seems I was paralyzed, no, petrified…like turned into stone…and didn’t do much and maybe and words like might, maybe and hopefully came into regular use.
I really don’t know why I Googled procrastination and came up with this site…but, I’m glad it happened.  
So much for the ramble…but I’m just trying to get my thoughts cleared up a little…and hopefully figure out what to do that’s useful for what life I have left.

1. Regular daily house hold chores     9:30 – 10:30 am
2. Pay bills sorted from yesterday     10:30 – 11:30 am
3. Meet with friends and have lunch  11:30 – 2:
4. Special project                              2:00 – 3:00 pm
5. Go to store                                   3:00 4:00 pm
6. Go to movie with oldest son            5:00 8:00 pm
7. Generate 09.09.09 to-do list            ????
8. Post end of day Bookend                 ????

Do these 09.09.09
9. Adjust garage door from yesterdays repair
10. Make and Post a Master List

Thanks All...Have a great day


ci Babarino 9.8.09

Working on same projects. Getting started then will check back.

kromer 9:40 CI

Good morning, all!

I have mtgs today: lab mtg 10-12germ cell mtg 1-2:30 (got out early)

As a break, I'm going to square dancing 7-10:30

MITs today are:
*Sub. CAC proptocol, checkin w/ JA about prev. proposal (will do this soon)
*Ask MG about mice (she's on vacation, so I won't be able to do this until Thursday)
*Fill out registration form, do stats class petition (working on this now)
*Finish choosing +/- samples (have made some progress on this)
*Organize computer files

Other tasks are:
*Read 1 paper
*List of 10 possible committee members
*Finish pathway project

I have lab mtg soon, but I'll spend the next 15 min working on choosing +/- samples. After lab mtg, I'll work on MIT #1 and ask MG about mice. After germ cell mtg, I'll fill out reg. form and do petition.

Agnus checking in 9:10am - Step 10 closeout (next day)

G'morning, PA-Pals! May our Higher Power grant us all today the serenity to accept things we cannot change, courage to change things we can, and wisdom to know the difference. My Step 10-11 this morning showed that I've fallen into my tendency to get over-serious when stressed. Yet my HP's nickname for me is Cheerful Child, so today I will practice cheerfulness! Laughing well, I made progress but not perfection! Had to apologize to J's surgeon's ofc mgr for being snippy over typical dr ofc stuff: long waits, screwed up insurance, etc.  J does not appear disabled at all (until one spends time with him), so it's a constant frustration to me that - when I am standing right there in sound mind and body - medical people diss me and expect him to complete paperwork, answer complex questions, remember instructions and medications, etc. But I have to remember that from their perspective, they're respecting patient's rights.

Today is pretty busy: my first statistics test at 1:40, J dr appt at 3:30, haircut at 4:30, 12 Step mtng at 7. I might need to resked the haircut, not sure I can trust that a 3:30 dr appt will get out by 4:10.  Those are the MITs du jour, so my list here is more like a schedule to keep me on task and on time:

  • Breakfast 9:20 Laughing
  • Calendar to colleagues Laughing
  • Study statistics 2 hrs wasn't enough :-( but I think I passed at least
  • sked 3f call w/ boss
  • if time make some DL contacts
  • Call B to warn might be late for haircut; resked?
  • Lunch 12:30
  • Leave for class 1:15 (arrive relaxed) left at 1:25, definitely NOT relaxed
  • Leave for J's dr appt by 3 left at 3:12 - J wasn't ready (not my fault this time!)
  • Leave for B's by 4:10 (if not reskedded)
  • Dinner 6 7
  • Leave for 12-Step mtng 6:45 didn't mane it, so did a phone meeting @ 8pm
  • Bed by 10:30  Innocent

Journey 9:15

Hello all, after a nice relaxing long weekend, I'm on vacation the rest of the week!  *yawns and stretches*

I am leaving Friday to visit my daughter, but I have three days to get some stuff done around the house and also to relax, read, etc.,   I don't want to waste it playing video games and staring at the TV!  

I've been to the gym and Mal-wart already today, and I made a todo list but it needs triage.  I don't want to get overwhelmed by trying to do everything at one.   I'm going now to trim that todo list and decide what I really want to get done today, and include some long breaks!


"True terror is to wake up one morning and discover that your high school class is running the country."  - Kurt Vonnegut 

Welcome to the new folks and a suggestion

Please put your name in the subject line of your check in posts!  That way you can find your posts and we all know who's posting.  Thanks!


"True terror is to wake up one morning and discover that your high school class is running the country."  - Kurt Vonnegut 

Spirit moves towards the light

Today is really slow getting started.  I really need some devine inspiration to keep moving forward, joyously.  I seem so blahhh today.  Well that having been said I need to get started.

  • Checked into morning checkin-showed up
  • dr. appt
  • followup on leads
  • log appts in appt book
  • call pete, mar, pau, school,
  • write report
  • get doc notarized
  • go walking
  • call lender
  • put out blog
  • check and respond to emails
  • meet with potential roommate

giving myself permission to do the undone tasks tomorrow, still would like to go walking but need to talk to Rob


Vic 9/8

Show up (done) on-line week list (done). I am trying not to criticize myself and am feeling better and more present (it does feel "all wrong"). Not shutting down even though some disasters has really helped, only because I could "show up" here. I am starting to feel like a recovering avoidance addict, recovering discomfort doger. spinning off Clem's "daily overcomer" tag, it does help.